~~rambling as usual about fanart & smut. mmm, a match made in heaven -.-

( okay, so i was being silly about the guilt... )

    so yah. lots of links to fic postponed till tomorrow, not that anyone cares. meep.
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also, let me just say............ holy fuck..!!
O_o
someone paid like, a year (a year! a year! someone wants more of this for a -year-??! *boggles*) of this lowly journal, and. i'm speechless, really. bowled over. have been sputtering in awe for the last 2 hours or so. i'm just staring at the email and going, "whuhhh--?"
    *gulps*
    i am... to say i'm grateful and amazed and maybe slightly frightened doesn't even cover it. i mean. yeah.
    so. THANK YOU, oh beneficent amazing (anonymous!) benefactor! you have my everlasting awe and whatever ficlet/drawing you want, just name it and i'll do it. really! anything! i'll write ron/draco if you so desire! *laughs* whoever you are, oh unsung hero of worthiness and kind regard, i prostrate myself in humble gratitude.
    *giggles* don't mind me, i just don't know what to say, so resort to silliness. just. wow. you rock hardcore, whoever you are. wow. wow. i don't know -why-, but. yah. just. i feel special now. *laughs* no, really. okay, i'll shut up.
   and again, WOW!!
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in other news of rather hardcore rockitude, i was watching `days of our lives' (hey, it was on in the dining hall, i had no choice..!) and. omg, i slashed `days of our lives'. and lemme tell you, i slashed it hard.
    ( although i'm vaguely embarrassed now, since i wrote all this wednesday afternoon... )

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( and here i talk about smutfic for some inane reason. )

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( art-recs! well, more like me pointing and squeeing, really. )

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and, just in case any of you are down over the last smallville episode, either read thamiris' post or look at this. eheheheeh!! theirloveissocreepy :D

~~baby-steps, they say.

i think there's some sort of rule that i get nothing done during breaks. i'm like, "heeeyyy, i have all this -time-, of -course- i'll do it..." and then i stare at the wall for 10 hours or something. i could've read every fic i wanted to get to, -and- do my reading for class -and- finish my longfic. okay, that's a tad -too- ambitious. which is why i don't do things-- because i get too ambitious, really. but anyway.

speaking of longfic. it occurred to me why so many people over-explain everything in many an "epic" tale. especially if it's a first-time fanfic, at least. i was reading through my first fanfic (and my god, is it bad), and one of the things i noticed was that (horror of horrors) i went and explained my pov character's motivations-- in first person. straight out. i mean. shoot me now.
    and then i was reading a bit of another tale, someone else's first fanfic-- and again, it seemed rather trite and expository. it occurred to me that if you're writing a chaptered fic-- especially if it's your first major chaptered fanfic-- you're going to have the need to get to know your characters. you're getting to know them as you write them, so basically-- maybe it's not so much that the writer is insulting my intelligence as a reader, but rather they're doing all this for their own benefit.

maybe you could even see this as a general thing-- instead of thinking that someone's merely being stupid by saying things that are "obvious" or shouldn't need to be pointed out to an intelligent audience, you could say that they're merely saying the only things they can think of. they don't know how else to conceive of it, so they trace over the known to get to the unknown. it's sort of like starting from square one.

on the one hand, if someone says, "harry is a boy", you could easily be irritated. but what if you need that to then say, "harry is a boy who missed his parents". and then only afterwards can you say, "harry is a boy whose sadness wasn't obvious". and then, "only the other could see it". and then you get to the point. or something.

i don't know. but what if it's true-- what if the author simply hasn't done any retroactive editing in that case, and what we're seeing is a process of growth. so, maybe in the next fic they wouldn't need to explain the same things again? when i was going over my old longfic, i could now take out a lot and condense and totally change characterizations-- i certainly don't need anyone to explain their motivations to me. but back then i was merely exploring them myself.

and now, writing my present longfic, i find that i'm tempted to have the characters or narrator explain things-- plot things. because i wouldn't know them myself, not in the same detail, otherwise. obviously, i doubt everyone's issues and motivations are the same, but it makes me more open to others' blunders, knowing they're part of a learning process. or something.