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[reenka]

H/D smut badfic will be the death of me.

What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?

I'm on hiatus, yes, but I still get veelainc mail, and there was this link to hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.

A quote for your "pleasure":

"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....

Why god... why....??

Comments

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

*cries* I posted a fic today, but I've been gone so long no one loves me anymore.

This is a bitter realization, and I am planning to set fandom on fire.

[conversant.livejournal.com]

I've been there and I could be there again so easily. It's some sort of brain tick, I think. You read that stuff and then your brain echoes with it, calling you back. Yes, it holds you in thrall even when you are crying out, "No, no, no! Harry'd never say, 'Suck me, Malfoy, or I'll smack you upside the head.' And he's not, not, not standing there in the back yard in Dudley's old sneakers, with his too-big sweater falling off one shoulder while Draco unzips his pants." I hurt for you, Reena.

I hurt for me, too, because I know that I wrote a sentence so like the one you quoted I turned green reading it. (Okay, there was neither soul-searching nor hard fucking in it, but it was a bad-fic formula-phrase nonetheless.)

I followed spare_change's archive links yesterday (was it just yesterday?), and I felt both the horror and the compulsion (not to mention the compulsion to spank S for tempting me).

So, Reena, eat the badfic before it eats you.

Or something like that.

[addictedkitten.livejournal.com]

But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to....

I don't think I've ever seen one of these. Am I missing something?

After months of soul-searching and hard fucking, I think I'd be a)on anti-depressants and b)sore. And you'd think it wouldn't take so long to search one's soul. *frowns* But then, maybe all the hard fucking messed with his mind, made it hard to think? Huh. Maybe I should try that. Except without the soul-searching.

Incidentally, if the person that wrote that line reads your LJ I will laugh malevolently and with no sense of remorse. But then, I'm evil.

[vlamidala.livejournal.com]

Utterly OT, but d'you want me to drop your scarf in the mail sometime, seeing as winter break came and went a month ago? :p

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hee! Now I'm thinking of soap operas and things. If only they held -any- satisfaction whatsoever-- even brain-numbing would be good. A part of me is admittedly happy at least we don't have to slog through 20 chapters of UST and icy!Draco, but... Oh man.

I love the idea of dirty-and-badly-dressed!Harry holding some sort of thrall over well-dressed!Malfoy, ahahahah. You have to admit that's pretty :D :D! I wonder what would do that to them (poor woobies... brain damage..??) but. ahahah. Now I can't get it out of my head ^^;

I can't imagine you writing anything -that- bad. I mean. That's a whole singular class of bad that only the truly gifted can reach~:))

Glad I'm not the only one -.-

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hee yes, you're missing a lot of badfic. For some reason, there's this fanon stereotype that Voldemort (or Lucius) is just -dying- to farm out Draco as his assassin of choice. *laughs herself silly* If anyone ever -thought- about it, they'd just laugh (I hope), but it's really scary how often it shows up in different guises. Like... maybe Voldemort tricked Draco or maybe he reminded him of his "duty" or maybe Draco "always knew" or maybe Draco -wants- to kill Harry. It goes on and on and on. My poor, poor brain.

"Draco! I can't find my soul! Let's fuck!" :D :D

Also, you are adorable & I don't mind if you laugh maliciously for I will be duly amused also :D

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Oh man. I uh.....

Well, let's just say I haven't been writing emails to anyone (and some, I haven't even read), due to... uh... 24/7 avoidance. Professional-grade. Um. So yeah. I never actually read that email.

I don't have an -excuse-, exactly, but yeah. It'd be good to have it before winter is -completely- over. ^^;;


Oh man.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Ooo, pretty Malfoy. Not anything like I'd envisioned him, but hot regardless. Very pouty. I dig the lips, and the circles under his eyes. Eheheheh!! Oh man. There goes the Malfoy Poet :D :D!! ....Draco the Bloody Awful. *cringes* Anyway.

*meeps* I dinna know, you know that right? I'm not reading my friends list, all that. Am in... er... the dreaded Siberia of the mind. Or something like that. And also avoiding everything, including fandom. *coughs*

But. um, I'll read it :D Now that I know. But... er... fandom on fire sounds fun. Lemme know if it's flammable :D

[vlamidala.livejournal.com]

It's all good. :) Now the only thing I need is an address.

moohaha. ;)

[sistermagpie.livejournal.com]

LOL! I know! I think when you first get into a pairing anything will do, but then you start wanting the good stuff. It's just like an addiction. You can't stay away from it, but your tolerance for badness goes down.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

...The scary part is, the first flush of seeing it all made me rather scared, but almost immediately I acclimated (haven't read much HP fic lately) and then it was like, "oh, this isn't so bad". *laughs*

Honestly, "Ghosts" (from the community) is actually -good-. Sort of. ^^;