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reenkaH/D smut badfic will be the death of me.
What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?
I'm on hiatus, yes, but I still get veelainc mail, and there was this link to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.
A quote for your "pleasure":
"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....
Why god... why....??
What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?
I'm on hiatus, yes, but I still get veelainc mail, and there was this link to
hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.A quote for your "pleasure":
"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....
Why god... why....??
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Date: 2004-02-27 01:33 am (UTC)Well, let's just say I haven't been writing emails to anyone (and some, I haven't even read), due to... uh... 24/7 avoidance. Professional-grade. Um. So yeah. I never actually read that email.
I don't have an -excuse-, exactly, but yeah. It'd be good to have it before winter is -completely- over. ^^;;
Oh man.
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Date: 2004-02-27 01:53 am (UTC)moohaha. ;)