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reenkaH/D smut badfic will be the death of me.
What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?
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hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.
A quote for your "pleasure":
"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....
Why god... why....??
What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?
I'm on hiatus, yes, but I still get veelainc mail, and there was this link to
hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.A quote for your "pleasure":
"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....
Why god... why....??
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Date: 2004-02-26 07:35 pm (UTC)This is a bitter realization, and I am planning to set fandom on fire.
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Date: 2004-02-27 01:36 am (UTC)*meeps* I dinna know, you know that right? I'm not reading my friends list, all that. Am in... er... the dreaded Siberia of the mind. Or something like that. And also avoiding everything, including fandom. *coughs*
But. um, I'll read it :D Now that I know. But... er... fandom on fire sounds fun. Lemme know if it's flammable :D