O.O

[reenka]

H/D smut badfic will be the death of me.

What is it with the morbid, dark fascination, with the utter perverse need to simply read every R-and-up fic there is for them? Why do I keep looking even when I feel like I'll throw up if one more person uses the word "bloody" in an otherwise completely Americanized fic? Why do I keep looking, even when they're retelling the same old story without even pretending to say something new and different? -Is- there such a thing as "new and different" when you've read so much fic that you easily know more about Harry & Draco than can safely fit into a healthy brain?

I'm on hiatus, yes, but I still get veelainc mail, and there was this link to hpvalensmut, and well... who can resist smut? Not I. Except I should. And now I'm like... "step away, Reena-- just-- step -away-", and it's so -hard-, because the porn-- it's calling to me-- it's saying-- you know you want to. And well, I do want to. Just today I was rolling my eyes at myself 'cause I actually egg Harry on (out loud) in smutty H/D pics on my hard-drive. I'm very very embarrassing. But... if I see one more fic where Draco has to kill Harry 'cause Voldemort wants him to.... I will do painful, painful things. Somehow. Someway. Someone will -pay-.

A quote for your "pleasure":

"And then, after hours and days and weeks and months of soul-searching and hard fucking"....

Why god... why....??

Comments

[sistermagpie.livejournal.com]

LOL! I know! I think when you first get into a pairing anything will do, but then you start wanting the good stuff. It's just like an addiction. You can't stay away from it, but your tolerance for badness goes down.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

...The scary part is, the first flush of seeing it all made me rather scared, but almost immediately I acclimated (haven't read much HP fic lately) and then it was like, "oh, this isn't so bad". *laughs*

Honestly, "Ghosts" (from the community) is actually -good-. Sort of. ^^;