there is something deeply wrong that the most in-character fic i can think of that features graphic harry/draco sex is.... tada! `tickle me pink' by durendal! ahahahaah. you may think i'm kidding, but i'm so, so not. seriously. yes. oh yes. i mean, YES. and i don't mean that in a "yes, yes, oh baby" sort of way (ahahaha well, if you'd read the fic you'd know why), but like. yes. i have -such- a messed-up view of them, obviously. ahahahaha.
i think this explains why i find gentle loving touches and "sensual explorations of budding sexuality" to be hilarious to the point of like, -pain-, ahahahah. this is funny and wrong and sexy and lame and frenzied and insane and did i mention really wrong?? that's what i love about it. because face it, malfoy and harry having sex would feel really really wrong to them, at first. somehow. someway. does anyone know what i mean?? i mean, right, really right but really wrong also. and not in that angsty way that makes you depressed and weepy, no. in that way where you're like, "ohmygod, i'm fucking insane, but DO THAT AGAIN". hee!
i don't know -why- i've been stumbling across so many "loving erotic encounter" fics lately, but they're really making me barfy. *laughs* this is why i'm -not- reading harlequins, you see. this is why i'm not reading run-of-the-mill het. this is why i `ship two people who can't stand each other. it's -not- because i think they're made for walks under moonlight and gentle kisses. although. i mean. ok. but it'd be weird. it'd be surreal. it would not be ... -sappy-. or "erotically sensual". i -hate- that. you can -tell- a girl wrote that. sensual?? sensual??!
well... i don't mean there's a limit on who can be sensual. kittens, 15-year-old boys, old ladies-- it's human. but when you go out of your way to be sensual on purpose, that's another thing. i'm remembering silvia's fluff fic, with the wrist rubbing. yes. that works. it's unplanned. it's an accident. it... just happens.
and that's what i want. i want things to "just happen". what would happen, if things just went 100% natural, no newfound aggression, no newfound tenderness, no newfound need to submit. a struggle and friction that is still somewhat subtle. i think yes, throwing the other against walls and floors is realistic. but i actually think you'd need to build up to that, too-- not that you don't need to build up to -any- of it. damn. so complicated.
one of my (admittedly low-brow) goals in my h/d research (also known as the Quest for Bigger Better Smut) is to figure out and implement that elusive thing i'd call "in-character sex". so i wanted to ask what you all thought it would be. i don't think i know.
( but i can sure make lots of half-asleep stabs at it. gah. i should actually just give up thinking and -write smut- instead, shouldn't i? yes. or sleep ^^; )
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in other news. well. er. if you know my taste in fic... well, i don't know who "knows", but anyway... one of the most blatant opinions i have is my immediate negative reaction to `all torn down'. i think i just overreact to the handling of certain issues to the point where it became a rallying cry that fics not be like `all torn down'. i don't hate it or anything-- that's a weird emotion to feel for a fic, but it's gotten some really long-winded reviews from me on ff.net. a -lot- of people rec it and read it and like it, and i just have issues with it, but find it very readable and involving.
anyway. i find it very amusing that obake wrote me this lengthy email where she like, explained everything. everything i had issues with, she did at least partly on purpose, and is aware of what she's doing. that just seriously boggles my mind. i'm impressed, but it also makes me think of just how much stuff writers can pack into their stories, and just how divergent reader reactions can be, whether you write it consciously or unconsciously.
( and thus i go into a rambling tangent on authorial intent.... )
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and. ivy's animated version of `origins' chapter 1 just killed me. ahahaha. <3~!
i think this explains why i find gentle loving touches and "sensual explorations of budding sexuality" to be hilarious to the point of like, -pain-, ahahahah. this is funny and wrong and sexy and lame and frenzied and insane and did i mention really wrong?? that's what i love about it. because face it, malfoy and harry having sex would feel really really wrong to them, at first. somehow. someway. does anyone know what i mean?? i mean, right, really right but really wrong also. and not in that angsty way that makes you depressed and weepy, no. in that way where you're like, "ohmygod, i'm fucking insane, but DO THAT AGAIN". hee!
i don't know -why- i've been stumbling across so many "loving erotic encounter" fics lately, but they're really making me barfy. *laughs* this is why i'm -not- reading harlequins, you see. this is why i'm not reading run-of-the-mill het. this is why i `ship two people who can't stand each other. it's -not- because i think they're made for walks under moonlight and gentle kisses. although. i mean. ok. but it'd be weird. it'd be surreal. it would not be ... -sappy-. or "erotically sensual". i -hate- that. you can -tell- a girl wrote that. sensual?? sensual??!
well... i don't mean there's a limit on who can be sensual. kittens, 15-year-old boys, old ladies-- it's human. but when you go out of your way to be sensual on purpose, that's another thing. i'm remembering silvia's fluff fic, with the wrist rubbing. yes. that works. it's unplanned. it's an accident. it... just happens.
and that's what i want. i want things to "just happen". what would happen, if things just went 100% natural, no newfound aggression, no newfound tenderness, no newfound need to submit. a struggle and friction that is still somewhat subtle. i think yes, throwing the other against walls and floors is realistic. but i actually think you'd need to build up to that, too-- not that you don't need to build up to -any- of it. damn. so complicated.
one of my (admittedly low-brow) goals in my h/d research (also known as the Quest for Bigger Better Smut) is to figure out and implement that elusive thing i'd call "in-character sex". so i wanted to ask what you all thought it would be. i don't think i know.
( but i can sure make lots of half-asleep stabs at it. gah. i should actually just give up thinking and -write smut- instead, shouldn't i? yes. or sleep ^^; )
~~
in other news. well. er. if you know my taste in fic... well, i don't know who "knows", but anyway... one of the most blatant opinions i have is my immediate negative reaction to `all torn down'. i think i just overreact to the handling of certain issues to the point where it became a rallying cry that fics not be like `all torn down'. i don't hate it or anything-- that's a weird emotion to feel for a fic, but it's gotten some really long-winded reviews from me on ff.net. a -lot- of people rec it and read it and like it, and i just have issues with it, but find it very readable and involving.
anyway. i find it very amusing that obake wrote me this lengthy email where she like, explained everything. everything i had issues with, she did at least partly on purpose, and is aware of what she's doing. that just seriously boggles my mind. i'm impressed, but it also makes me think of just how much stuff writers can pack into their stories, and just how divergent reader reactions can be, whether you write it consciously or unconsciously.
( and thus i go into a rambling tangent on authorial intent.... )
~~
and. ivy's animated version of `origins' chapter 1 just killed me. ahahaha. <3~!
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