~~unconditional love and other fanfic cliches. heh.

i've always had a strange little fascination with agape, and the greek ideal of unconditional love. usually, i don't get to -apply- it to anything, or play with it, or think about how it works or its uses, because frankly, no one seems to write about it, which is a crying shame, let me tell you. it has so many possibilities for drama and conflict and darkness and redemption and all sorts of good stuff. so, it is with great pleasure that i wrote this post for `armchair slash', ruminating on the ramifications of agape for harry & draco in Draco Veritas.

a number of you may think it's stupid to be going on and on about the stupid Trilogy, and i hear you, i do. but there is no equally conducive fic in the fandom i can sink my teeth into, here. and right now-- well, right now you're having the crucible in which their burgeoning unconditional love will be refined-- betrayal, shock, secrets, discoveries, death, life and so on.
    but you may say, aren't i into harry/draco for eros and for what might almost be called anti-love, hate, etc? i mean, they -hate- each other, in canon, let us just say, why in the world do i need them to love each other unconditionally?
    well, um, naturally this is what the power of love is all about. it doesn't feel all that interesting to tackle the easy, `natural' things, that happen of their own accord, that come swiftly and that last because nothing is confronting them and trying to make them wilt. what really grabs my attention is agape that is borne of darkness, that flowers in spite and -because- of darkness, a beautiful flower born from the crucible of hatred and despair.

( um. gahd, i already sound painfully cheesy and i'm barely getting started with my spiel about agape and yin & yang and bongo goes the gongo.. )

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and btw, is it just me or is there some sort of sick fascination in reading really bad fic? i can't seem to easily stop, even though it's sort of painful, but in a funny way. in a way, i can't even believe people actually write this badly. i mean, ok, i shouldn't just automatically deduct a 100 points out of 150 for a fic which includes a draco who quotes bush lyrics and has a cd player, but there you go. i'm just really, really unreasonable. ><;;
    um.
    and now for the goodfic (notice i didn't link to the badfic, because well-- why hurt people needlessly-- ie, you, who might decide to look at it, ahahahahah) ><;;

anyway, i read `the medean curse' through silviakundera's rec, which is by shana powers, who hasn't written -one- other hp fanfic, not one. and no, she doesn't write smallville-- or much of anything else. she does write trixie belden fanfic, which-- well-- i don't even -want- to know what that is, thankyouverymuch. but anyway. 'sgood. yes, frothy, yes, bubbly-- but funny and believeable (to me anyway), well-written fluffy harry/snape. which, you know, isn't the easiest thing in the world to pull off. it reminded me of the good type of romance novel (ahahah and now you know-- er-- it was a long time ago). i mean-- i so don't `ship harry/snape it's not even funny, but for some reason i tolerate it better than any other non-OTP pairing (which is to say, you don't have to trick me into reading it, heh.) although.... gah. every time she mentioned draco, i swooned. i was like, *sob*! draco missed out, the silly git~! i mean, this harry wanted him, at one point, and you know, in a `who wouldn't' sort of way, so obviously i like this story :D ahahahah. harry/snape fic which isn't dismissive of draco = very good (and rare!) thing.

also, i want to marry ztrin's latest fic and have its children, so that i might sell them and turn them into dolls that go, ``Never Friends Good Girls and Boys". yes. mmmmmmm.

~~g00t. -very- g00t.

i was going to wait until i had something useful to say to anyone. ahahahah. yah, right. but there are bigger, better things than that. yes. i am grinning like a loon, and well-- it's the season for lovin' and sharin' and so on, so um, yah. just in case some of you haven't inhaled the joy that is ivy and lib's l33t quiescent!harry&draco madlib from yesterday you should now be able to appreciate the utter glory >:D<
    especially since quire drew the comic adaptation, eheheheh. oh god, i'm in t00by bliss ><

and, and, hackthis wrote `tie me up' for the h/d!bondage pic i found~! wheeeeee~! life is g00t.

~~meta!reena.

it's not that i'm `deep' or particularly coherent or anything, but i can't seem to stop. it's like, there doesn't seem to be much else to do with my head except think. of course, most people think about their life, and i kind of avoid that whole can of worms. my life kind of boggles me more than any existential question i can possibly come up with. and now, with the term wound down and with the winter looming, i feel more and more confined to my head, since it's horrid outside. it's not that i hate snow-- it's just that i hate it being -everywhere-. why can't it be confined to some sort of preserve? i can go visit it. yes. i will admit to hating cold, however. and heat. i also hate little puppies, why do you ask?

( actually, i'm pretty sure you don't. erm. yah... but i do, of course. )

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and now, back to being a complete dork who wastes her time reading pointless nonsense.

EDIT - ( bwahahaha. i did the `100 things you never wanted to know about me' meme. i'm such a dork. )