[oopsie]

[reenka]

I thought it was lust. What with the B/S thing. Lust, lust, lust. Just a fling, really. If I only read X amount of fics, my urge would be sated and it'll all blow over. I mean, I really -can't- get another "thing"-- I keep waiting for the -last- one to stop. I mean, I've been waiting, all this time. Waiting for myself to get over the HP thing. Obsessions suck, kinda.

I should really know better. It's not lust after all. For some reason, it was while reading `Mad World' (and yes, that link's for you, Erin-- though, well, be warned it's a human AU) that it hit me.

Actually, Buffy was my gateway drug after several years of nothing. The show, that is. It was my first new media obsession the fall before I got into HP in May 2002, but since I liked the show, I didn't really look for fic, 'cause that's how I am. I don't tend to like fics for shows I already enjoy since they always screw it up. Maybe it's different 'cause it's been awhile since the end of Buffy, but I still remember it pretty well? I dunno.

It couldn't have come at a worse time. I think I have a sinus infection, and I haven't been -moving- or doing -anything- and I'm probably worrying and/or pissing off people (possibly some of you, even, I dunno), 'cause I'd said I'd do things & I haven't 'cause I can barely think and I have no sinus meds & I should really get some & stop reading fic in a sick daze. This always happens in the first flush of obsession-- no matter what, I just do "the thing" 24/7. And it's the very beginning of a new semester, too. Somehow, this usually happens at the end, near finals, so I tend to risk flunking out 'cause I don't take finals instead. *sigh*

Anyway. Did I have a point? Um... I guess this is a heads up on the state of me, more than anything. I'll try to stop & get a grip after today, fulfill all my sundry real-life and fandom obligations or what have you. Possibly get a Sinufed, that sort of thing. Isn't it funny that one of my biggest guilt-trips on myself right now is how I'm not reading my friends' list & am thus worried people think I'm ignoring their fic/art/them/etc? Oh man. I should go to the Registrar's and register for classes (am a week late. d'oh!) and I'm more guilty I haven't done the fandom things for Armchair & so on 'cause I'm such a fruitcake. I don't deal with guilt well, I think. I just kind of... hide. Erk.

So. Not trying to hide. Or, um, trying not to hide. If anyone cares. Also, was like, DUDE. So it's -not- lust. Hey, I was surprised. Took me reading B/S fic 24/7 for a week for it to hit me, too. I'm all like... I should write some serious B/S... which is just disturbing. Het, man. I'm betraying my slasher brethren. I'm guilty about that too, btw. Like, what if I get a... reputation?? My slash creds will be damaged!! Ahahahah. Oh man, and I'm starting to get -used- to it. It's like... it's not weird and alien and gross anymore! How weird is that!! I'm like... getting re-acclimated. Disturbing.

So. I ♥ you all & will hopefully return with my brain good-as-new. Soonish. Very soonish. And, just in case-- don't hurt me. I am weak & my nose is runny 24/7 as I drown in heterosexual angst, man. The utter horror and shame of it all.

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[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Oh man. I don't know whether to thank you profusely or look at you with fear~:)) Encouraging me!! ^^;;
Disenchantment is one of my favorites-- it was actually the fic that got me into my little craze-- the fic that got me started. All of Herself's writings are pretty much to my taste, but nothing beats Disenchantment in terms of story satisfaction-- though I really really like Leather & What She Deserves. And, well, her series. Except that the marriage-and-kid thing gets to me.

My happy discoveries so far....
Herself, Nautibitz, KJ Draft, Pepperlandgirl, RipeWickedPlum, Wisteria, Cousinjean, Moxie & Shippy. (they have the most ridiculous names). Read Saber's B/S stuff & was unimpressed. Seem to have a liking for post S7 fics & human AUs, and a disliking for PWPs set in season 2/3/4/. Have found I like S5 fic more than S6 or S7 fic, even though I haven't actually -seen- most of S5. Like the long fics, and have yet to read a PG13 eheheh.

As far as S6 fic, I really like the 'Hard Candy' series, though that was kind of... too much crushing angst. Kind of like most S6 fic.

Kind of like a mix of snarky smuttiness & crushing angst, heheh. Mostly 'cause other sources of teh happy for Spike & Buffy leave me scratching my head and going... "huh?"
But, thanks >:D
...I think -.-

[silviakundera.livejournal.com]

Herself, Nautibitz, KJ Draft, Pepperlandgirl, RipeWickedPlum, Wisteria, Cousinjean, Moxie & Shippy

So give me recs! I know Herself, and I've read "Still Like in Sunnydale" by KJ Draft (which I don't buy for a minute, at ALL, but is an interesting AU)... but the others I'm unfamiliar with.