Draco = a poisonous mushroom(!)

[reenka]

sahfjkashkjshakhas OMG! *___* Wow. *___* THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO REMEMBER ME (FOR MY H/R/Hr!!1) ALONGSIDE SILVIA KUNDERA!! aklfjslakjfaskjf AND Schuyler (whoever that is). I AM PART OF SOMEONE'S INTELLI!PHASE D: D:

MY LIFE IN FANDOM IS NOW COMPLEAT!! :O :O :O

...I know that was really lame, but I couldn't help myself, okay. :P

In other news, my DeviantArt favorites & lj memories have become a Snilly refuge. o_0 And yes, I say Snilly instead of Snevans just to be lame and perverse & to hurt your feelings :> Oh man, I love every halfway well-done Snape/Lily fanart I see, and it helps that I see more of those than say, H/D these days. Oh man oh man oh maaaaan. *___* And everything by pojypojy *___*

Also: hahahah Lucius + Snape + Draco vid to Shoop (oh man the Draco/Ginny at the end slays me!) and one to Ridin' Dirty, though I also found one to that song with just Draco. *___*

And, a Draco vid to 'Ice Ice Baby' *___* *swooooon* I blame f for initially making me associate Draco with Eminem =; =; OH MY GOD I NEED A RAP DRACO/RON VID <33333333. Too hilarious. *___*

Ice, ice, baby. (y)

...Okay so basically I like any half-decent Draco vid -.- Omg and wanna guess how much I descend into old-style fangirly joy at an angsty cheesy H/D vid set to Alice Cooper's 'Poison'??? OH MAN OH MAN *___* There are like, a trillion H/D vids set to that song, apparently. *facepalm* I think I like this version more, but who can tell? They're all so cheesy. >___>

Comments

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hahah oh man I did have an intelli-emo phase, 'tis true. That lasted most of my life :>

Heheh <3 OH man I know I'm dorky but at least in a sparkly bouncy way...?? :>

[black-dog.livejournal.com]

You know, I'm all in favor of intelli-emo. :) I remember you saying, once, that you thought extremely messed up teenage boys were kind of endearing; and I remember thinking well, I don't think they're endearing when they're all gloomy and cutting themselves and being hostile and unhygienic, but on the other hand I do feel a charged-up nostalgia for all the hyper-rawness and confusion that was wierdly energizing because of the way it suggested new feelings out there. And I think your Harry, here, is still in this phase, still bouncing and hopping from the pain rather than being all curled up and nihilistic. If, um, that makes the remotest sense. So yeah, I really do like the story.

in a sparkly bouncy way

Sparkly and bouncy, by all means! I think that's why I thought of pachinko, because my syster used to have a toy pachinko game when she was little, your post looked a little bit like how I remember the board. :) I suppose pachinko is kind of crusty and space-age, but it's interesting how it's part of a whole tradition (is it a particularly Japanese tradition? I think of J-pop this way) that combines overstimulation/trance with sweetness/comfort. It's such a bizarre combination, as if you were putting syrup on fish. And the wierdest thing is that it works, it's sort of disorienting but addictive. And staring at your post made me think of that; which may just mean I need an MRI. :p

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

It's heartening that you had so much to say to my being silly. I feel less alone in my rambliness, or something :> And I'm pretty impressed you remember stuff I said who knows when! But then my memory for specific things people said or specific details in general is always iffy. ^^;;

Anyway, I think I meant that I like the inherent charge and intensity and potential of adolescent angst, 'cause people don't tend to totally shrivel until afterwards (see, Snape's a great example, haha). Cutting and hygiene problems are unfortunate, of course, as I've read enough cutting fics to last me a lifetime. I think when teenagers are nihilistic, it's usually just an act-- they don't know enough to really believe it, they're just angry in a weirdly innocent way. I dunno if that makes sense. Notice how I don't find gloomy antisocial adults endearing so much, and that's 'cause they're often dead inside. Which is just depressing. Whereas if you're a messed up teenager, you're sort of painfully alive in a way most people don't achieve later on in their lives for any long stretch of time naturally, at least (unless they're bipolar and/or seriously unhinged in some way), to the relief of most people I imagine. Heh.

Heh, I'm glad you liked the fic, anyway. These days I can't think of it without feeling guilty I couldn't write a 'real' H/R/Hr back then & had to break it up into R/Hr & H/D because H/D bled into everything like a virulent fungus. I mean, I also think that it's OOC for Harry to be so cut off from them, maybe. Before I became really in tune with canon!Harry, it used to be a lot easier to isolate him enough so that he could be conveniently ripe for plucking, y'know. Now it'd be easier to write H/R/Hr and harder to write H/D. Ah well. I dunno if I've got anything to -say- about H/R/Hr except 'well, it's obvious, isn't it...' haha. People who write H/D with 'normal' Harry who just suddenly sees the wonder and glory and loveliness of Draco just sort of puzzle me to this day, heh.

I love how you observed my post like its own weird little entity rather than getting bogged down with the actual links & stuff, hehe. I suppose those might be traumatizing :> I think instead of 'overstimulation/trance with sweetness/comfort', the word you're looking for is 'fangirl', ahahahaha. Not that I don't appreciate the prettier-sounding version :D