speaking of small owls... or not.
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reenkaA) Man oh man, I love Harlan Ellison <333333333 Can we please save our offense for the people who are actually lamebrained assholes instead of brilliant (if immature/obnoxious/perverted) old men? No? :/ Ahhh, that one's never going to go over well with some people, I know.... Still. I mean, a lapse of proper behavior in public isn't the same thing as being a bad person... god, I really wish I could stop arguing this point :/ :/ (Can you tell why I started out being a Draco Malfoy fan?? No? *snorts* I wonder if the people who become/are Draco fans these days don't think 'obnoxious asshole' is a really good description of him... sometimes I wonder.) But yeah, Harlan is SO the Draco Malfoy of the professional fantasy writers biz :> I bet Draco would grope Hermione's breast if the occasion arose and be like, 'well, she can take it', ahahaha, oh, they're brothers in lamitude <3333
EDIT - Disclaimer: I'm only talking about the personal, psychological ramifications & issues, not trying to imply anything about 'proper' social response or standards.
Well, the kerfuffle's probably 'cause most people value the behavior itself over motivation/subtleties of context... but it's gotten to the point where my mom tells me 'I think you're a good person' and I said, 'why?' So she says it's because I'm honest (and I laughed) and then she clarified 'honest about the things that matter', and I raised an eyebrow. Finally, she said 'you've got a sense of honor-- modified for you', ahaha & that I'm not a mean person. So I was like 'are mean people bad?' and she said yes. This exchange is so funny to me 'cause I had a 'MEAN PEOPLE SUCK' sticker I was very proud of when I was 20 or something; I still think mean people suck, but I also think that since more than half the world's population doesn't know 'mean/truly cruel' from 'harmlessly obnoxious' or even 'impolite'(!!!), I'll just go around defending mean people.... *sigh*
I should really shut up about this topic; I realize how repetitive I am :/ It just really HURTS MY BRAIN that people don't get that impolite/obnoxious != mean evil bastard. This is not advanced ethics, is it? :O
...Although I think the question of 'can a mean person still be a Good person?' is an interesting one. Cruelty/sadism is one of the true... uh... negative qualities that exist, and perhaps the only truly bad quality as far as I'm concerned (though extreme self-centeredness and desire to control/subjugate others tie in), but. I think too many people think verbal obnoxiousness is the same thing (ethically) as the actual biggie (which is wanton cruelty itself). Granted, it's a sign of insensitivity, but there can be a range there, I hope :/
If people are being funny, even if they're not funny at all, by definition they're not in the same ballpark as someone who's just cruel. Secondly, true cruelty depends on knowing who you're being cruel to and how they'll react; a truly cruel person picks on someone they know is vulnerable and sensitive (or submissive/can't fight back/born victim). It's merely an obnoxious/rude/wanky person who picks on someone they consider either tough or an equal, or someone who's not there and will never hear of it. There's also a third type of meanie who picks on people they truly think are mean/bad/wrong (but not 'stupid' or 'ugly', because there's no possible even skewed moral justification there)-- I'd say they're just badass or 'tough', like a vigilante/judge stereotype. (Ahh, Gryffindors, ahahahahah...ha.) Anyway, these three types are seriously different in terms of ethics and the best way to deal with them, I think.
For instance: people have told me that I seem v. sensitive to them & they think of themselves as mean enough (but in control enough) that they -could- say/do things to really hurt me but they don't 'cause we're friends. I'm sorry, but these people don't know me well enough~:) I don't think you can just hurt someone like that if they haven't got the mentality of a victim (ie, caring what people think, unaware of their flaws/issues, unself-confident about their strength or ability to fight back or succeed). I'm not 'out there' as being a toughass, and in fact I'm pretty (sometimes extremely) sensitive about what people say to me, but... I'm also extremely self-aware. There's literally nothing you can do/say to me about myself that 1) I'm unaware of; 2) I don't have faith I can work through eventually, given this exchange doesn't involve violence (well, violence would take a lot longer to deal with, since I'm least confident physically). So just as there are predators, there are victims-- one sort of allows/forms the existence of the other; therefore, not being a victim, it would be very difficult for a predator to gain mental access to me no matter how 'mean' or 'bad' he/she was.
Anyway, people who're just obnoxious and like to mouth off or do jackass-type things for a laugh aren't predators, pure & simple. They're more like hyenas, I guess-- well, there's a range from seagull or crow-type scavengers to hyenas, maybe :D There's a huge difference in nature between a crow and a hawk, say-- though human beings who have power & like to use it are often a lot more mentally unbalanced than hawks. I mean, hawks are a natural part of the ecosystem in which they exist in the same way mice are-- but human beings who have those sorts of dominant/cruel natures tend not to know their place. (Btw, if I had to be a bird of some kind, I'm probably a small owl-- I mean, I could always go for fresh meat, but mostly I don't make a big fuss and go with nice easy insects.) Um. Okay, that was a tangent -.-
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B) Man, it is beyond rare these days that I come across something that makes me really feel like an HP fan (in terms of fic or art or whatever)... but the funny thing is, I really am, actually. The last time I felt it before recently was when I saw Platform 9¾ (or the stretch of wall at King's Cross that has part of a trolley attached, whichever). Man, that was ace. Yesterday, I was sort of happy reading JKR's old post-HBP interview (which my deluded brain found slashily inspiring), and then![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
furiosity's 'The Revenant' had an adorable Draco. I wish this sort of 'ooooh, DRACO IS SO CUTE' thing happened to me more often... I remember when I read hackthis & Silvia & had that squeeing gurgle of adoration every time. (Ahahaha, I was so lame I used to read angsty obscure stuff like Jay's 'Disarm' & squee too. Well, okay, I used to squee at everything. :/ What. :/ Um.)
Aaaaanyway, I had a point and here it is: I was looking at the Swedish HP book covers at The Leaky today, and ooooh! *commence sparkly-eyed cooing* I love the OoTP one, but what I REALLY love is the HBP one <3333333333 I AM SO FULL OF TEH HBP!HARRY LOFF <3333333 That Harry is my Harry, wah <3. I wanna cuddle-wuddle him and call him Geooorge... um. So yeah. HBP! LOVE! :> Man, I really wish they sold these as posters... *weepz*
C) I've been on a kick for m/m/f (uh, pr0n) past few days, and woefully I don't like either Hermione/Harry/Draco nor (really) Harry/Ron/Hermione (and things like Sirius/James/Lily or Sirius/Remus/Tonks are actually a squick), so in terms of HP, I'm totally stuck. I sort of want to request Harry/Draco/Ginny on one of those request challenge comms, but I'm pretty sure no one would bother writing it really in character (... if that can even be done, which it probably can't without an epic, and even I don't want to read 300p for porn).
Still, I'm vaguely inspired to write lots of 'normal' boysmex from seeing a bunch of nekkid boy pics ♥. The thing I really like is how many are smiling or being cute & playful. Most pics with girls have this 'artificially slutty' quality to the playfulness... I dunno. Like, the boys are a lot more unself-conscious & 'natural' than most girls of the same age-range I've seen, which is awesome <3. So I had this mental process where 'playful gay boys' naturally progressed to 'playful bi boys', just to up the shameless slut factor, ahahah (plus my Harry remains mostly straight this way) :D
Also, I really like this article saying it makes more sense to separate romantic & sexual bisexuality rather than just saying 'if it's not romantic, it's not bisexual' the way people do. I also like the idea that 80% of guys are bisexual but heteroromantic & homoplatonic, hahaha. It seems to bear out what I've observed, and leaves room for slash-- I mean, they could have tons of very deeply platonic sex, I don't mind!! :D
D) Sometime asked me why I'm so verbose recently. I'm like, "..... GOOD QUESTION". -.-;;
EDIT - Disclaimer: I'm only talking about the personal, psychological ramifications & issues, not trying to imply anything about 'proper' social response or standards.
Well, the kerfuffle's probably 'cause most people value the behavior itself over motivation/subtleties of context... but it's gotten to the point where my mom tells me 'I think you're a good person' and I said, 'why?' So she says it's because I'm honest (and I laughed) and then she clarified 'honest about the things that matter', and I raised an eyebrow. Finally, she said 'you've got a sense of honor-- modified for you', ahaha & that I'm not a mean person. So I was like 'are mean people bad?' and she said yes. This exchange is so funny to me 'cause I had a 'MEAN PEOPLE SUCK' sticker I was very proud of when I was 20 or something; I still think mean people suck, but I also think that since more than half the world's population doesn't know 'mean/truly cruel' from 'harmlessly obnoxious' or even 'impolite'(!!!), I'll just go around defending mean people.... *sigh*
I should really shut up about this topic; I realize how repetitive I am :/ It just really HURTS MY BRAIN that people don't get that impolite/obnoxious != mean evil bastard. This is not advanced ethics, is it? :O
...Although I think the question of 'can a mean person still be a Good person?' is an interesting one. Cruelty/sadism is one of the true... uh... negative qualities that exist, and perhaps the only truly bad quality as far as I'm concerned (though extreme self-centeredness and desire to control/subjugate others tie in), but. I think too many people think verbal obnoxiousness is the same thing (ethically) as the actual biggie (which is wanton cruelty itself). Granted, it's a sign of insensitivity, but there can be a range there, I hope :/
If people are being funny, even if they're not funny at all, by definition they're not in the same ballpark as someone who's just cruel. Secondly, true cruelty depends on knowing who you're being cruel to and how they'll react; a truly cruel person picks on someone they know is vulnerable and sensitive (or submissive/can't fight back/born victim). It's merely an obnoxious/rude/wanky person who picks on someone they consider either tough or an equal, or someone who's not there and will never hear of it. There's also a third type of meanie who picks on people they truly think are mean/bad/wrong (but not 'stupid' or 'ugly', because there's no possible even skewed moral justification there)-- I'd say they're just badass or 'tough', like a vigilante/judge stereotype. (Ahh, Gryffindors, ahahahahah...ha.) Anyway, these three types are seriously different in terms of ethics and the best way to deal with them, I think.
For instance: people have told me that I seem v. sensitive to them & they think of themselves as mean enough (but in control enough) that they -could- say/do things to really hurt me but they don't 'cause we're friends. I'm sorry, but these people don't know me well enough~:) I don't think you can just hurt someone like that if they haven't got the mentality of a victim (ie, caring what people think, unaware of their flaws/issues, unself-confident about their strength or ability to fight back or succeed). I'm not 'out there' as being a toughass, and in fact I'm pretty (sometimes extremely) sensitive about what people say to me, but... I'm also extremely self-aware. There's literally nothing you can do/say to me about myself that 1) I'm unaware of; 2) I don't have faith I can work through eventually, given this exchange doesn't involve violence (well, violence would take a lot longer to deal with, since I'm least confident physically). So just as there are predators, there are victims-- one sort of allows/forms the existence of the other; therefore, not being a victim, it would be very difficult for a predator to gain mental access to me no matter how 'mean' or 'bad' he/she was.
Anyway, people who're just obnoxious and like to mouth off or do jackass-type things for a laugh aren't predators, pure & simple. They're more like hyenas, I guess-- well, there's a range from seagull or crow-type scavengers to hyenas, maybe :D There's a huge difference in nature between a crow and a hawk, say-- though human beings who have power & like to use it are often a lot more mentally unbalanced than hawks. I mean, hawks are a natural part of the ecosystem in which they exist in the same way mice are-- but human beings who have those sorts of dominant/cruel natures tend not to know their place. (Btw, if I had to be a bird of some kind, I'm probably a small owl-- I mean, I could always go for fresh meat, but mostly I don't make a big fuss and go with nice easy insects.) Um. Okay, that was a tangent -.-
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B) Man, it is beyond rare these days that I come across something that makes me really feel like an HP fan (in terms of fic or art or whatever)... but the funny thing is, I really am, actually. The last time I felt it before recently was when I saw Platform 9¾ (or the stretch of wall at King's Cross that has part of a trolley attached, whichever). Man, that was ace. Yesterday, I was sort of happy reading JKR's old post-HBP interview (which my deluded brain found slashily inspiring), and then
furiosity's 'The Revenant' had an adorable Draco. I wish this sort of 'ooooh, DRACO IS SO CUTE' thing happened to me more often... I remember when I read hackthis & Silvia & had that squeeing gurgle of adoration every time. (Ahahaha, I was so lame I used to read angsty obscure stuff like Jay's 'Disarm' & squee too. Well, okay, I used to squee at everything. :/ What. :/ Um.)Aaaaanyway, I had a point and here it is: I was looking at the Swedish HP book covers at The Leaky today, and ooooh! *commence sparkly-eyed cooing* I love the OoTP one, but what I REALLY love is the HBP one <3333333333 I AM SO FULL OF TEH HBP!HARRY LOFF <3333333 That Harry is my Harry, wah <3. I wanna cuddle-wuddle him and call him Geooorge... um. So yeah. HBP! LOVE! :> Man, I really wish they sold these as posters... *weepz*
C) I've been on a kick for m/m/f (uh, pr0n) past few days, and woefully I don't like either Hermione/Harry/Draco nor (really) Harry/Ron/Hermione (and things like Sirius/James/Lily or Sirius/Remus/Tonks are actually a squick), so in terms of HP, I'm totally stuck. I sort of want to request Harry/Draco/Ginny on one of those request challenge comms, but I'm pretty sure no one would bother writing it really in character (... if that can even be done, which it probably can't without an epic, and even I don't want to read 300p for porn).
Still, I'm vaguely inspired to write lots of 'normal' boysmex from seeing a bunch of nekkid boy pics ♥. The thing I really like is how many are smiling or being cute & playful. Most pics with girls have this 'artificially slutty' quality to the playfulness... I dunno. Like, the boys are a lot more unself-conscious & 'natural' than most girls of the same age-range I've seen, which is awesome <3. So I had this mental process where 'playful gay boys' naturally progressed to 'playful bi boys', just to up the shameless slut factor, ahahah (plus my Harry remains mostly straight this way) :D
Also, I really like this article saying it makes more sense to separate romantic & sexual bisexuality rather than just saying 'if it's not romantic, it's not bisexual' the way people do. I also like the idea that 80% of guys are bisexual but heteroromantic & homoplatonic, hahaha. It seems to bear out what I've observed, and leaves room for slash-- I mean, they could have tons of very deeply platonic sex, I don't mind!! :D
D) Sometime asked me why I'm so verbose recently. I'm like, "..... GOOD QUESTION". -.-;;
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Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 04:14 pm (UTC)"Why do you--" Draco's whole face screwed up in misery. "Why can't you fucking leave me alone? Umm! Mmmmmph-- uuuh--" Potter shoved his whole tongue in unceremoniously like some sort of silky slick battering ram, and Draco felt speared through all the way down to his stomach. Gone were the tentative dry brushes from the Forbidden Forest; this was an all-out invasion, and it burned.
Draco almost didn't notice Potter's hands wander until they slid up his lower back, cool enough to make him twitch. For a lost moment all he did was clench his fist in Potter's shirt, jerking it up to wrap it around his fingers, with his other hand clenching on Potter's forearm. Instead of making Potter stop, that seemed to egg him on, until their arms and stomachs rubbed against each other in earnest. For a few frantic moments all that existed was those tiny patches of skin Draco scrabbled at around Potter's waist and the smacking, slurping noises between them.
When he'd kissed Potter back, it was with all the resentment and outrage he could muster, like he was launching some sort of counterattack. He bit at Potter's mouth and growled and grunted, tangling his fingers in the rat's nest on Potter's head so he could yank.
It struck him that Potter wanted this. There was a numb sort of sinking feeling in his stomach. He hadn't want to talk after all-- Potter never wanted to hear anything Draco said, and now things weren't much different just because Potter developed an itch in his bloody pants and apparently felt entitled to use whomever he felt like to scratch it.
"Want-- you--" Potter mumbled, panting into his ear and making Draco feel both queasy and twitchy but also melting somewhere in his lower stomach.
"Ohh...." Draco's mind went completely blank and fuzzy around the edges and he froze.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 04:21 pm (UTC)There was a numb sort of sinking feeling in his stomach. He hadn't want to talk after all-- Potter never wanted to hear anything Draco said, and now things weren't much different just because Potter developed an itch in his bloody pants and apparently felt entitled to use whomever he felt like to scratch it.
Draco is insecure. I like it but :(
Harry is so absent from all this. He's very cipher like in which he seems to be there to do all the things that turn Draco on. That's probably because I project onto sub!Draco though.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 04:26 pm (UTC)Um, here, maybe that's more Harry, before:
"You're a prick, yeah. Such a-- prick-- but it feels good to say it. Finally sayin' it's like passin' a thick piece of, um-- y'know--"
"Potter!" he cried, outraged. "You're nothing but a soppy drunk! Get a sodding grip!"
Potter blithely dragged his stool closer to Draco's, ignoring him.
"Oh! Here, have some." He pressed the flask into Draco's slack hands, making Draco wonder distantly if it had a charm to top it off. He shrugged; it's probably easier to tolerate these things if one is quite pissed enough oneself.
"You reckon I've wanted to? Say it before, I mean?" Potter actually sounded nearly sober at this, and Draco barely had the time to process that before Potter had toppled him off the stool.
There wasn't much pain since somehow or other, Potter cushioned him; for a moment, Draco was merely stunned. Potter was all bony hips and knees and smooth muscle, but all of a sudden, Draco felt quite a bit too comfortable.
"I-- you--" Draco swallowed hard, making an effort to descramble his brain. "Finally lost it, haven't you?" That may have come out better if it wasn't a hoarse whisper.
"Dunno. Seemed like a good idea at the time." Potter's glasses had slid off at some point in the tussle, and he blinked stupidly at Draco, eyes wide and dark. His lips slowly parted as Draco watched, and Potter licked them.
"W-what?"
"This," Potter said, and he dipped his head to smash his dry mouth against Draco's.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 04:41 pm (UTC)BLITHELY yesss! I love blithe anyone but especially Harry, must be part of my dry!people kink.
I also have a secret kink for H/D being drunk together, did I ever tell you? I love incoherent Harry facing his demons, though I would love it even more if they acted like frat boys.
I love that Harry is confortable because he's drank and Draco is so... not. Power differential because of booze! Yes.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 04:56 pm (UTC)Well, here's more porn :( hahaha:
"Well? Do you need an invitation? Suck it."
Draco's mouth puckered into a silent 'O' at that tone, all low hard edges and hissed command. He didn't move, but his eyes twitched down involuntarily, fingers spasming as if something flipped over in his head.
Still, Draco could see the fine trembling in Potter's thighs, and tellingly, he made no move to actually open his trousers.
He didn't think then, just pressed against the hard ridge of that cock with the heel of his palm, his own prick twitching at at Potter's stifled grunt. Maybe Potter didn't think it through or didn't think Draco would actually do it, because Draco could feel Potter's shocked stare as he unbuttoned, fumbling only slightly. He stared too, unable to look away from the thing jutting out straight at him, and the shadow of rippled flat stomach revealed as Potter gasped and threw up an arm against his face.
This wasn't something he could belittle through some snide retort; wasn't something he could fight against. Whereas a few seconds ago he didn't think, acting on sudden intense impulse, now he couldn't. He could barely breathe, feeling nausea and a sickened sort of self-disgust begin to creep up. He throat closed on a stifled half-sob.
Potter's cock was beautiful-- cut, color, width. In every way possible for a cock to be perfect, Potter's cock was achingly perfect. It was humiliating. Horrifying. Disgusting. He knew he could never live this down.
Draco felt possessed, disconnected from his body as he leaned forward, his mouth gaping open with saliva dripping onto the floor. Potter's moan was too loud, creeping up Draco's skin like an army of fire-ants when his lips stretched wide around the leaking head. He merely held there, tongue flat against the bottom, not quite rubbing. After a second, Potter's hips bucked up and Draco choked, his nose filling and the saliva running down his chin in two mortifying little streams, so that it was reflex that made him grab Potter's cock. It was reflex that held his fist there, around half-way down, letting his tongue make slow, tentative swipes upwards that made Potter be the one who choked and fell forward, slamming Draco further against the lockers.
His eyes had rolled up in his head at some point, and Draco had next to no conscious awareness of what happened next, for which he was grateful. Potter must have just started to fuck his mouth in a frenzy, and Draco knew later-- that was the worst part-- he knew that he'd let him. At the time, he was vaguely aware his knees hurt from kneeling, and that his throat was raw, and that his nails were digging into Potter's clothed arse.
Draco registered somebody was making harsh, throaty whines before his mouth was flooded with a bracing rush of foul bitter come, pulsing against his tongue. He sputtered and choked again, tearing his mouth away and half-spitting, half-swallowing the mess in his mouth in a flustered fury.
"What did you--" The words died in his throat as he looked up to see the matching horror on Potter's face, the flaming red spots on his cheeks as he clutched stupidly at his still spurting dick. Draco hit speechless at a hundred miles per hour, struck dumb at witnessing what should have been one of his finest moments-- Potter's utter humiliation-- completely ruined. He could only stare up at Potter with his mouth falling open like an idiot's again.
"Uuuungh!"
Draco barely flinched when a stray squirt hit him on the cheek.
In a daze, he raised up his hand to swipe at his face, knowing Potter watched him unblinkingly as Draco managed only to smear the runny blob into his skin. He heard Potter give a little hitching groan, sounding gutted as Draco felt, and then he broke.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 05:22 pm (UTC)Ahahah that reminds me of "It's not gonna suck itself."
Still, Draco could see the fine trembling in Potter's thighs, and tellingly, he made no move to actually open his trousers.
I love how Harry's thighs are trembling. <3 See that's one of the things people miss when they make the top/bottom dicotomy so rigid. They assume the bottom is the weak compliant one who'll lose all the control. I like me some good top lust, if you know what I mean. Like the top can also be about to lose control with the need to ravage/possess. Plus, a top is human too. He won't always be cold and detached and smirky. (Assuming your Harry is the top here.)
This wasn't something he could belittle through some snide retort; wasn't something he could fight against. Whereas a few seconds ago he didn't think, acting on sudden intense impulse, now he couldn't. He could barely breathe, feeling nausea and a sickened sort of self-disgust begin to creep up. He throat closed on a stifled half-sob.
I like this description, it's almost exactly how I always imagine overhwelming lust be. It's never just a happy/hot moment for me. And vomit is something I used way too often in conjuction with lust/orgasms in my own writing.
COCK-WHORE DRACO <33333
After a second, Potter's hips bucked up and Draco choked, his nose filling and the saliva running down his chin in two mortifying little streams, so that it was reflex that made him grab Potter's cock.
In all the descriptions I like how pornographic you are with the graphical and, um, flesh-ridden details. It's very raw in which it's physical and endearing and akward. I am afraid I don't make much sense :(
Potter must have just started to fuck his mouth in a frenzy, and Draco knew later-- that was the worst part-- he knew that he'd let him.
Oooooh imagery but I love how you slipped a bit of introspection. :)
I LOVE SPITTING
Draco barely flinched when a stray squirt hit him on the cheek.
Something is just so perfect about that.
Why is Harry humiliated by the orgasm? Or rather, why would Draco interpret it that way?
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 05:52 pm (UTC)Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 06:41 pm (UTC)Now I wonder if I am delusional O_O
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 05:38 pm (UTC)Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 05:48 pm (UTC)The next time he saw Potter, it was several weeks into Draco's rather surreal return to Hogwarts. Potter found him; Draco didn't know how Potter did that, because Draco certainly didn't go looking for him. Draco didn't see him during the days, and neither did he want to.
Draco's breath always hitched traitorously when he remembered the last time they'd been alone; not that Potter really did anything. But if Draco admitted that, he'd have to admit the swirling heat in his stomach was more because of what would have let him do, and that was not acceptable. At all.
It would be even more humiliating if he stopped to think how easy it was for Potter to push him inside a broom closet today.
Huffing, Draco pushed Potter back with both arms as far as he could go in the cramped closet, with the scent of sweat turned overpowering as the oxygen dwindled between them. The only light was filtering in through the cracks in the heavy oak door, making Potter look especially threatening-- not that Draco would have admitted that on pain of death.
"What do you think this is?" Draco bit the inside of his lip; he had to think. He simply wasn't going to panic.
"Do you really have to ask?"
"No." Draco sneered. "Now if you'd just move your arm, this conversation could come to a blissful end."
Potter cocked his head, leaning on the arm which remained wedged between Draco and the door. "And what if I don't feel like we're having one yet?"
"One what?" And how he hated that tiny squeak in his voice.
"A conversation," Potter said, his own voice somehow lower and more masculine than a minute ago. Now if only Draco didn't feel like cornered prey, everything would be just fine.
He tried to breathe shallowly, but the gasps kept escaping; Potter was breathing in sharp wheezy huffs too, which wasn't helping. Their foreheads were almost touching now. Just listening to the tiny noises they made together made his cock twitch.They weren't even doing anything and Draco felt dizzy and sick and it was awful.
"N-no!" He twisted away as much as he could, which wasn't very much. Potter seemed to cling like ivy, or something else thicker and harder and just bigger. He couldn't get the room or momentum to knee him in the groin, and besides, Potter was-- Potter was so close....
"I won't stop until you tell me why you're avoiding me. Normally, I wouldn't care, but--" Potter lowered his head until his mouth was a breath away, and they were both gasping loudly. There was no pretending otherwise now, and Draco groaned. He couldn't ignore Potter's dick anymore, poking him almost painfully, hot and hard and utterly awful-- disgusting--
A tiny voice at the back of his mind wanted him to slide to his knees and rub his mouth all over that clothed bulge of Potter's... wondered if he could make him leak and spurt and mess his trousers just from that. This had to stop.
Re: i wanted to say yes :)
Date: 2006-09-13 06:39 pm (UTC)Don't misunderstand me it's not obvious, but I have to say the huffy, no-saying Draco who's all susceptible to Harry's like masculine charm is rather bottomish. XD
I like clingy Harry and I like that he pretends he doesn't care. He totally would, that loser. And Draco would totally take the bait and try to out-uncaring him. It's like those internet fights were both contendents pretend to be so apathetic.
I narcissistically feel that blowjob-fixated Draco is in part my creature. XD