~~agape and shnoogle and adore...
Aug. 3rd, 2002 11:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenkacool. i um.... i do think, sometimes, of why is it i want to *glomp* and *worship at the feet of* and say *oooooohhhiloveyou* to-- well-- people i don't know. this entry of ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
earthquake1906's made me realize, for the first time (duh!), that maybe "love is just a word".
well. i mean, i feel weird about it.
what is that adoring, manic, happy, burst of insane affection i get for fics...? and just words in general, and thus naturally spilling onto the people behind them? what is it? love is... well have any of us figured out what love is? of course, in comments to the above post.... ``Stupid, obsessed or in love? (Or, stupid and obsessed, i.e. in love?)". heh. thus, "i'm struck dumb, and am happily obsessed" should be a good, honest stand-in for "oh god ohgodohgodohgod, I LOVE YOU, heh.
i'm careful, usually. i don't throw that word around, in day-to-day life. but something about fiction. makes me *squee*. and yell i love you's and adores. i don't actually think this is even unusual :) i think i'm over-excitable. but still, i say. it's true love :>
earthquake1906's made me realize, for the first time (duh!), that maybe "love is just a word".well. i mean, i feel weird about it.
what is that adoring, manic, happy, burst of insane affection i get for fics...? and just words in general, and thus naturally spilling onto the people behind them? what is it? love is... well have any of us figured out what love is? of course, in comments to the above post.... ``Stupid, obsessed or in love? (Or, stupid and obsessed, i.e. in love?)". heh. thus, "i'm struck dumb, and am happily obsessed" should be a good, honest stand-in for "oh god ohgodohgodohgod, I LOVE YOU, heh.
i'm careful, usually. i don't throw that word around, in day-to-day life. but something about fiction. makes me *squee*. and yell i love you's and adores. i don't actually think this is even unusual :) i think i'm over-excitable. but still, i say. it's true love :>
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sankyouu ~:)
Date: 2002-08-04 02:20 pm (UTC)well, probably the weird thing for me isn't the fic-love it's the love-love aspect-- like i have this sudden *affection* for the author, especially if it's fanfic. it's a strange phenomenon. i don't lovelove neil (i mean, i do, but not the same way as ivy. less *squee*, more... *mmmmm*). god that probably made like, no sense.
i feel more in touch, like, more connected to fics in this fandom, anyway. they have this personal meaning to me. if someone sings a beautiful song, i feel partly, they're singing to me, or with me. the melody just gets more and more beautiful, and i love their voice, and i just totally go beyond admiration straight into warm-and-fuzzy-schnoogles. if i wasn't too timid to ever actually schnoogle anyone :>
and danke, re: delirium. she's my lj's happy-spritemother :>