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reenka...what is it when you're no longer merely annoyed by the stupid things in fandom, but also annoyed by [most flavors of] perfectly 'justified' bitching about said stupid things in fandom about as much?? [Sadly hypocritical, considering how much I rant, but I NEVER SAID I WAS CONSISTENT, DID I. Uh. *cough*]
Is that like fandom senescence, like where you've reached the level of meta-discontent that you no longer have any choice but to retire to a far-off colony, alone with your porn?? Yeay, finally!!1 (Except... come to think of it, I was always like this. Damn.)
It's like for me, finally, everything has balanced out-- the good and bad, stupid and brilliant, to the point where the whole [online] world is a nice, featureless, innocuous fog. Or maybe that's just so I don't snap at people randomly and go SHUT UP ALREADY, YES I KNOW YOU HATE X AND X IS RUINING YOUR FANDOM EXPERIENCE, KTHNX! GAR! ARG! ...And then I'd turn into a huge T-Rex and start bashing buildings. (The T-Rex would have nice frizzy black hair, too.) That would be satisfying. And this... this is why I uh, avoid people -.-; And thought. And bagels. Repeat after me: THERE IS ONLY PORN!@!!!E1iorjaklfsajklaj;f
What I mean to say is (in my spastic way) that what one focuses on is what one sees, in fandom or canon or wherever. Like... if you're determined to dislike something/someone, you will dislike it/them. If, on the other hand, you're determined to enjoy yourself, you'll do that instead. Far be it from me to have really learnt that lesson at this point, but. I'm just sayin', y'know. Not that preferences are illusory, but that biases can be worked around-- like, I have lots of biases against things/behaviors/people/etc, and then I read something that works around them and omg, suddenly it works. And I -much- prefer that feeling of suddenly enjoying a concept/type of person/etc I didn't before than dwelling on my discomfort. Not that it's easy or necessarily always possible to find that 'magic bullet' solution, and I pretty much hate overly-positivist Pollyanna types, but. Mmm, emotional equilibrium!
Uh, yes. My point was to say that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
_ri's 'Foe Transfiguration' (D/Hr comic-- observe icon) is one of those things that keeps me sane, that breaks free of the fog of SUCK and makes me go 'oh wait, the sun'll come out... tomorrow...' etcetc. That and her rare doodles, like this one of Ron. ♥♥♥ Oh Ron. Most fanart so does not do you justice, but. *melty*
EDIT - And then there'sgredandfeorge's Harry & Snape gen art. I'm really gaga over gen art & little else in HP, it seems, ahaha. Or in... any fandom, per se, unless you count lurking & reading Sentinel fic plus random vids ^^;;;
Also, I just had this weird moment seeing a lit-geeky girl on a personals site (which I sometimes dip into to reassure myself I don't, in fact, ever want to meet someone random from online ever ever again) say, "when i was young, i fell in love with fictional characters and spent hours trying to walk through my mirror". Heh. And I was like '...wait, wait... is that weird that I still do that? I mean, freak!Reena-type weird?'
And then... I realized, wait, FANDOM. And I felt normal again (or as normal as I ever feel). Oh fandom <3. There's one thing it's good for :D I mean, okay, so most of us aren't IN LOVE the way 10 year-old dreamy girls fall in love (...I think), but. It's the same... sort of... thing. Or something. Right. *COUGHS* >.> In any case, I fall in love with characters the way other people pick strangers up at bars-- man. And this is why I don't GO to bars, I guess. ^^;;;;; I mean, in real life, it's Not A Good Idea to keep being interested in pretty, 'interesting' people if you're painfully introverted and dorky... unless you're also masochistic. Not to be a downer, but. Y'know. Yeah. Lots more emotional risk & lots less real likelihood you'll like what you find out when it gets personal, in general. BUT ANYWAY.
...And now to watch Season 1 of The Sentinel (FINALLY!!1)
Is that like fandom senescence, like where you've reached the level of meta-discontent that you no longer have any choice but to retire to a far-off colony, alone with your porn?? Yeay, finally!!1 (Except... come to think of it, I was always like this. Damn.)
It's like for me, finally, everything has balanced out-- the good and bad, stupid and brilliant, to the point where the whole [online] world is a nice, featureless, innocuous fog. Or maybe that's just so I don't snap at people randomly and go SHUT UP ALREADY, YES I KNOW YOU HATE X AND X IS RUINING YOUR FANDOM EXPERIENCE, KTHNX! GAR! ARG! ...And then I'd turn into a huge T-Rex and start bashing buildings. (The T-Rex would have nice frizzy black hair, too.) That would be satisfying. And this... this is why I uh, avoid people -.-; And thought. And bagels. Repeat after me: THERE IS ONLY PORN!@!!!E1iorjaklfsajklaj;f
What I mean to say is (in my spastic way) that what one focuses on is what one sees, in fandom or canon or wherever. Like... if you're determined to dislike something/someone, you will dislike it/them. If, on the other hand, you're determined to enjoy yourself, you'll do that instead. Far be it from me to have really learnt that lesson at this point, but. I'm just sayin', y'know. Not that preferences are illusory, but that biases can be worked around-- like, I have lots of biases against things/behaviors/people/etc, and then I read something that works around them and omg, suddenly it works. And I -much- prefer that feeling of suddenly enjoying a concept/type of person/etc I didn't before than dwelling on my discomfort. Not that it's easy or necessarily always possible to find that 'magic bullet' solution, and I pretty much hate overly-positivist Pollyanna types, but. Mmm, emotional equilibrium!
Uh, yes. My point was to say that
_ri's 'Foe Transfiguration' (D/Hr comic-- observe icon) is one of those things that keeps me sane, that breaks free of the fog of SUCK and makes me go 'oh wait, the sun'll come out... tomorrow...' etcetc. That and her rare doodles, like this one of Ron. ♥♥♥ Oh Ron. Most fanart so does not do you justice, but. *melty*EDIT - And then there's
gredandfeorge's Harry & Snape gen art. I'm really gaga over gen art & little else in HP, it seems, ahaha. Or in... any fandom, per se, unless you count lurking & reading Sentinel fic plus random vids ^^;;;Also, I just had this weird moment seeing a lit-geeky girl on a personals site (which I sometimes dip into to reassure myself I don't, in fact, ever want to meet someone random from online ever ever again) say, "when i was young, i fell in love with fictional characters and spent hours trying to walk through my mirror". Heh. And I was like '...wait, wait... is that weird that I still do that? I mean, freak!Reena-type weird?'
And then... I realized, wait, FANDOM. And I felt normal again (or as normal as I ever feel). Oh fandom <3. There's one thing it's good for :D I mean, okay, so most of us aren't IN LOVE the way 10 year-old dreamy girls fall in love (...I think), but. It's the same... sort of... thing. Or something. Right. *COUGHS* >.> In any case, I fall in love with characters the way other people pick strangers up at bars-- man. And this is why I don't GO to bars, I guess. ^^;;;;; I mean, in real life, it's Not A Good Idea to keep being interested in pretty, 'interesting' people if you're painfully introverted and dorky... unless you're also masochistic. Not to be a downer, but. Y'know. Yeah. Lots more emotional risk & lots less real likelihood you'll like what you find out when it gets personal, in general. BUT ANYWAY.
...And now to watch Season 1 of The Sentinel (FINALLY!!1)
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Date: 2006-11-27 11:16 pm (UTC)