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reenkaWhile I'll get to writing about some of the things suggested (hee! there's much to say about sushi... mmm), I just wanted to say that having seen several [professional] comic & book writers reply to lj-comments about their work, it keeps on inspiring this deep sense of wrongness in me, like I'm seeing something that should not happen. Like... it's -wrong-. Brrrr-kinda wrong. I dunno, most things don't strike me that way-- I mean, usually something seems crazy or illogical or annoying, but generally not -wrong-, like it shouldn't happen like that. But yeah.
I think it's something about the power-differential. Like, there's already so much wank in fandom-- when we're all supposedly equal: the fan-readers and the fan-writers, like the yin-yang of fannishness. Even then, when a writer acquires 'Big Name' power in some cases, you can just see people shutting up, and sometimes the writer getting an entitlement complex like 'how DARE you lowly creature'... but the fandom tends to observe its own boundaries, more or less. It's one system.
Now, when you have creators from 'on high' [even newbie professionals] talking/interacting with us little-fish fans outside a structured QnA session like JKR's interviews, the entitlement and fen deference gets totally out of proportion. It just makes me wince to watch. I mean, in an independent magazine, a reviewer gets away with pretty much anything because it's their 'professional right', but on lj... it's ego vs. ego, except one ego has 'official validation', the weight of being published to back them up. And if they don't have a sense of humor about themselves [and you betcha their fans won't], it's just like an avalanche. The prospects for balanced discussion are virtually nil.
Partly, of course, I tend to feel uncomfortable sharing immediate blogspace with public figures (well, professional writers/artists) I know of [let alone fangirl] in general; especially since lj is a communal space rather than 'just a blog'. On their website is one thing-- but on lj, where they promote themselves and talk about their work & get fangirled? That is extremely uncomfortable to watch. Reading their lj at all makes me feel like I've crossed the line from fangirl to groupie; because while you can all be 'fellow fangirls', creators and readers merging into one group (which is what's so great!), you cannot have any basis for unity or a common language as long as you -are- 'a groupie'. And I'm not saying that there's no place on lj for whatever group, because there's a place for anybody & everybody on lj; the point is that lots of professional creators are increasingly interacting/using fandom without the first clue of what the normal dynamic-- it's quite a bit like being colonized... or gentrified... or something.
It's like... not joining a community but using a community [for promotion & attention alone]; it's like a middle schooler coming to sit on a kindergarten playground & selling cookies. I mean, the kiddies love the cookies, but the weirdness of that big person sitting in your sandbox is still quite disconcerting and even disturbing, it seems to me.
PS: Oh, and there's the weirdness of knowing the foibles/personality quirks of person behind the story, too, which isn't there in fandom but seems to confuse 'normal' types of reading. It's like, I don't want to wonder if such-and-such is why such-a-character acted like so-and-so or whatever. Just reading interviews or even biographies isn't the same as seeing everyday interactions in terms of... giving an immediate [too immediate] impression. Like... I don't think I'll be able to read Peg Kerr's books [which are normally just up my alley] until I've totally half-forgotten my impressions of her on lj. Even though they were pretty much neutral impressions. I just feel like... I know too much, and also the heavy pushing by fellow fangirls [peer-pressure] seriously turns me off. This is just me, though.
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I think it's something about the power-differential. Like, there's already so much wank in fandom-- when we're all supposedly equal: the fan-readers and the fan-writers, like the yin-yang of fannishness. Even then, when a writer acquires 'Big Name' power in some cases, you can just see people shutting up, and sometimes the writer getting an entitlement complex like 'how DARE you lowly creature'... but the fandom tends to observe its own boundaries, more or less. It's one system.
Now, when you have creators from 'on high' [even newbie professionals] talking/interacting with us little-fish fans outside a structured QnA session like JKR's interviews, the entitlement and fen deference gets totally out of proportion. It just makes me wince to watch. I mean, in an independent magazine, a reviewer gets away with pretty much anything because it's their 'professional right', but on lj... it's ego vs. ego, except one ego has 'official validation', the weight of being published to back them up. And if they don't have a sense of humor about themselves [and you betcha their fans won't], it's just like an avalanche. The prospects for balanced discussion are virtually nil.
Partly, of course, I tend to feel uncomfortable sharing immediate blogspace with public figures (well, professional writers/artists) I know of [let alone fangirl] in general; especially since lj is a communal space rather than 'just a blog'. On their website is one thing-- but on lj, where they promote themselves and talk about their work & get fangirled? That is extremely uncomfortable to watch. Reading their lj at all makes me feel like I've crossed the line from fangirl to groupie; because while you can all be 'fellow fangirls', creators and readers merging into one group (which is what's so great!), you cannot have any basis for unity or a common language as long as you -are- 'a groupie'. And I'm not saying that there's no place on lj for whatever group, because there's a place for anybody & everybody on lj; the point is that lots of professional creators are increasingly interacting/using fandom without the first clue of what the normal dynamic-- it's quite a bit like being colonized... or gentrified... or something.
It's like... not joining a community but using a community [for promotion & attention alone]; it's like a middle schooler coming to sit on a kindergarten playground & selling cookies. I mean, the kiddies love the cookies, but the weirdness of that big person sitting in your sandbox is still quite disconcerting and even disturbing, it seems to me.
PS: Oh, and there's the weirdness of knowing the foibles/personality quirks of person behind the story, too, which isn't there in fandom but seems to confuse 'normal' types of reading. It's like, I don't want to wonder if such-and-such is why such-a-character acted like so-and-so or whatever. Just reading interviews or even biographies isn't the same as seeing everyday interactions in terms of... giving an immediate [too immediate] impression. Like... I don't think I'll be able to read Peg Kerr's books [which are normally just up my alley] until I've totally half-forgotten my impressions of her on lj. Even though they were pretty much neutral impressions. I just feel like... I know too much, and also the heavy pushing by fellow fangirls [peer-pressure] seriously turns me off. This is just me, though.
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...Okay, now I can start packing to move to bloody Seattle *___*
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Date: 2006-09-20 10:30 pm (UTC)1) I was just thinking earlier today [after reading the end of that Oishi/Eiji doujin posted at yaoi_daily] that I'd totally read your PoT fic happily if you wrote any pairings I could even -recognize- [since I only know about it from doujins, AHAHAHAHA *coughs*] I dunno if that's "about you", but still.
2) I think you should try writing Oishi/Eiji!! Oh, that was simple. :>
3) Hmm. Yellowy orangish, in a metallic shiny way, not in a street-sign way.
4) You somehow manage to be bitterly cynical and exuberantly sparkly all mixed up at once [rather than in clearly divided cycles or whatever]. It's impressive! :D :D I think I never quite feel comfortable with people unless we can connect both seriously and dorkily. It's like... not only do you write bittersweet things, you just... are bittersweet. If that makes sense. It's probably more entertaining on the outside than the inside ^^;; <3.
5) Heheh, I do remember you being all exuberant about An Unlikely Pair. I was all blushy and "...." but I really felt validated by your comment in particular, like I did something right in spite of myself or something. Usually I just think people are a bit on crack if they compliment me too much ^^;;
6) This is hard. :O ...Um. A light brown pony. One of those with a curly mane that looks all sweet until she kicks you off and snorts.
7) I don't know if there is anything for anyone so far [and if there is, there's usually a reason I haven't asked!!]. This question is seriously not my favorite. :O! Have you ever thought of challenging yourself to write a type of story that doesn't come naturally? Like, either really REALLY dark/angsty or just action/adventure or something?
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Date: 2006-09-21 08:02 pm (UTC)But I have written Golden Pair! Here. (http://scoradh.livejournal.com/90384.html) I've also written some of another story, which is ever so slightly better. (That one is quite ... naif, or something?) If you want I can post that up later. ♥ Didn't you say you'd read Inuikai too? (Guy with glasses and spiky hair/bandana dude). I could try them ...
7) Actually no, not really. They don't really interest me, you see. I can't seem to help myself when it comes to happy endings, either. [facepalm] Still, I have an idea that I'll run some kind of drabble request coming up to Christmastide ... if you want you could request something like that! Not sure how well I'd do at it, mind.