♥♥♥♥♥....

[reenka]

...I think I'm going to stare at this image and not look away for like... the rest of my life......
(Which makes more sense after this and this. WAH.)


...omg, seriously, I want like a huge poster of it so I could stare at it every day and go OMG HARRY LOVES DRACO :(( :(( :(( :(( :((

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[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

To explain to you what I mean by 'true love as I want to see it', I'll refer you to this (http://www.livejournal.com/users/pandarus/196231.html?style=mine), and it basically has to do with my ambivalence about romantic love in general, as with this quote:
Because I think romantic love, erotic love, is inherently selfish. Not only selfish, but selfish nevertheless. It can't be disinterested. Desire precludes that.

It's not that H&D -need- to be friends, but that I worry about the inherent possessiveness and selfishness of romantic love, even as I'm addicted to it. That's why DV!H/D touches me, and why I love H/D friendship stories so much-- because that's Agape, that's selfless love, that's what it's all about, basically. And it's not H/D, I know that, and yet a part of me just -wants- it to be H/D anyway, because I always want to have my cake and eat it too. I want both the amazing omg-passion-crazy-sex-need-lust and also the selfless trust and ability to let go and ability to believe in the other person and give of yourself until there's nothing left to give. And I don't know how to reconcile that.

I don't actually even -like- sexualizing canon Agape-type friendships in the first place, so I don't know why I have this hang-up... I just think they could have an even more interesting friendship than a romance. I dunno why I think that, but I do.