[reena's random rambles, take #2109380938]

Earlier today, I was suddenly hit with the urge to recite the only poem I remember by heart (by Robert Frost) out loud-- just like that guy in 'The Outsiders', who's actually the reason I remember it, 'cause I thought it was so cool when he recited it. Anyway, here's the wav of 'Nature's First Green is Gold' if you're curious :>

You know, I realize I ought to take more care about what I say-- like, having it make sense, proofing it against obvious logic holes & inconsistencies... BUT I CAN'T BE BOTHERED :(( Woe. I'm like '....okay, yes it annoys me when I'm like 'damn, this isn't where I wanted this to go', but ahhhh it's even more bothersome to constantly think of what the reader response would be to any given idea/phrasing'. You may wonder why I bother with -livejournal- if this is just pointless blather, but... well, there's always the off chance someone will know exactly what I mean without me having to actually... explain it -.-;;; SOMETIMES THIS HAPPENS, okay :> Probably too often, or I would've learned more discipline by now -.- ...Yes, I just got in trouble over my casual inaccurate-seeming Sentinel fandom reference... heh Funny 'cause I wasn't really inaccurate [the way I meant what I said], it's just that I didn't bother specifying exactly how I meant what I said, which did sound wrong, but yeah.....
    I can only imagine the people who naturally envision readers' responses to anything they write o_0 Ahhhh, godlike powers I shall never [care enough to] possess.... -.-;;;; Ah, it's not that I don't care about accuracy in theory; it's the explaining stuff that's the problem. (...And the other thing is that I -know- being like this makes me seem stupider than [I think] I really am, but even so...... heh I really should learn to communicate more clearly if I wanna get anywhere in life or as a writer, though, I knooooow. Or maybe I should feel special 'cause I've never met anyone consciously lazy about this in this manner; I mean, people either do meta or make some effort to make sense/make a real argument-- at least I feel pretty unique in being unable to either stop thinking Deep Thoughts™ or like... um, be serious/thorough about it.)

ANYWAY, I saw Eragon!! Woo-hoo! :D :D :D And btw, no, I didn't read it. I, uh, don't tend to like most creature features, like dragon!fantasy, specifically. Or vampire!fantasy, werewolf!fantasy, and most people's ideas of unicorns are lame too. Yeah, I know that... uh, doesn't leave a lot of fantasy to go around, and now you know why I was bitter early on in my life as much as now. Anyway, the reason I don't like these is just that everyone else does and therefore they get fucked with the most. Fantasy publishers should really be thankful I like mythic plots, princesses/princes, magicians of all shapes & colors, assassins, gods & priests, warrior mages & supernatural!cops, archetypal arcs & characterizations and of course-- of course!!-- ELVES, ELVES BABY!!1

One thing this movie proved (as I kept writing mini!fanfics for it in my head AS I WATCHED) is that the reason I don't write beyond HP much is that there are simply no other big high fantasy fandoms on lj :)) AHAHAH. *facepalm* Everything is so simple :D

...Of course I liked it. I am easy, actually. Very very easy. (...Though if the dragon hadn't been cute at first, I would also have been a bit disgruntled.) Come on, that movie was pretty much marketed to me, me, me. Or like, a boy version of me... but a boy version of me wouldn't have enjoyed the slashy bits (...unless he was bi... OMG I JUST THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS HOT AHAHAHAHAHLFakdjflkadjfdl;akj I WOULD SO DO IT WITH THE BI!BOY ME, GOD HELP ME... but then most of us would... probably... maybe...). Anyway, that got a little off track. But just so you don't take me too seriously or anything (...that wasn't a danger to those of you who know me, I realize, but then there's metafandom... grar....)
    ( Blather about Eragon & archetypes and Houses no one cares about. )

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Speaking of Something Completely Different, I've been thinking (in my messy, random, drawn-out way) about gender roles lately (...and how much I hate their existence & why, etcetc), and it's just kind of funny how it's also evident in porn, of all things. In fact, I could write some sort of essay in gender roles in porn, seriously. I'm mostly thinking of the difference between [amateur] lesbian porn (which is obviously geared towards the Male Gaze™-- thanks, Phil 101!-- 'cause they're dressed up, made up, and play with 'male' objects/roles) and [amateur] gay stuff, which is all about enjoying Teh Cock & getting off. That is like, what's wrong with society today, right there :D ...or maybe it's just Nature :P Either way, annoying both because men aren't more talky/emotional & 'cause women keep being objectified EVEN BY THEMSELVES, HOLY CHRIST. Not that men aren't all self-promoting about their hot muscles, but it's -their- pleasure, not the viewers', y'know? Augh.