[novella babble]

Man, listening to Radiohead's 'Creep' always makes me think of my Draco. And, of course, it makes me wonder why is it that I'm so very fascinated with all the possible variations of Draco's angst & self-doubt, since most people who like characters seem to want to-- well, give them sex (with either one or many other characters) or at least write things exploring their childhood or everyday life. I think one could honestly say that my overriding main interest in writing fanfic is really pushing Draco Malfoy to the edge of existential bitterness and maybe a few steps back. Sort of like I like pushing Harry to the edge of psychotic rage, but that's not quite as full of potential, because really, Harry's more predictable.

I mean, I like happy endings as much as the next romantic, and yet.... I think, in some ways, you need the right characters & dynamic for that to work quite right in terms of interesting stories.
    Basically, yeah, I'm listening to my novella soundtrack, so I can't help thinking of all this.

( ...post-HBP H/D, I mean. )

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Just in case anyone's wondering, this is my H/D novella soundtrack as it currently stands:
    ( ...spam, spam, spam. -.- )

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But the truth is, all I think about these days is mangamangamanga. I actually got to the point where I reread all of Haru wo Daiteita, which is just so sappy & melodramatic and omg. Gay porn actors in luuuuuurve. ^^;;;; Though I actually have an excuse for liking Haru (soap-opera-ish to the max as it is), 'cause it's like the relationship keeps getting more genuine & complex with time, and there's no set uke/seme stuff, omg, amazing. Kato & Iwaki are really equals. That alone may make it worth reading, cliched plots aside-- there's a sense of a real -relationship-, and it's all balanced and happy and non-dysfunctional! I really do have a thing for equality, I just forget I do 'cause no one writes with enough (melo)drama, ahahah.
    Really, what I read & what I write are like, worlds apart, I swear... -.-

...Or maybe it's just a case of needing a blank slate to really buy into the sort of larger-than-life romance I tend to always fall for. Why am I reading it?? And why am I always telling everyone, more importantly?? *facepalm* Maybe it's just... when I get into a mood, I can only concentrate on seeing that one aspect of my 'muse', which is desperate!Draco, but when I sort of relax and have fun, I imagine writing larger stories with more scope, where the characters have sweeping love-affairs and lots of passion on all sides and we mustn't forget the homo-fucking-sex-galore (I'm not sure where that's a quote from, but I like it!). Really, what I want to write is a really long adventure story with swords and magic stones and pretty boys who angst but also look dashing in tight pants. Yes, that sounds good. Less angsty avatars and more full-bodied vistas of... pretty boys!!

And possibly, something with flowing hair. Flowing hair is important for the image, you know. I also wouldn't mind a boy with a headband (or two-- oooh, ribbons.....) :X