~~ overload blues.

I think it's reaching near-saturation point with my frenzy of Gundam Wing reading that made me realize that's what happened with HP this past December. It's just that the overload point took much longer to reach since I was largely attached to the community-- and well, people overload me too. Which made me think about the difference between loving something and -needing- something, which is closer to addiction and is of course unhealthy and liable to come to a screeching halt.

My instinct would be to say I love the Harry/Draco pairing and its fics (and fandom) too much, but I don't think that's true. It's not that you can -love- something "too much". But you -can- need it too much, depend on it, fixate too much of your mental capacity on it. Anyone would crack if they spent more than a year thinking mostly about one subject, non-stop, and made almost all their social interaction revolve around that also. Heh.

Not that single-minded focus is bad, necessarily... and that's probably why I wrote so much fic. Takes the edge off, lets the excess energy have an outlet, which is also why I stuck around so long, having that shunt (considering I can't really write fic for GW or Buffy, having tried).

I just noticed that at a certain point, I don't just -enjoy- the fics I enjoy-- I also get -really- annoyed at the fics I don't.

( So of course I rambled about it rather than rant about OOCness, which... yes, I'm sick of it myself by now. )

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And yeah, okay, I found this while searching for Gundam Wing plushies, ahahah. I don't know how I feel about it, actually. Harry & Draco won't leave me alone. So yes. Just a piece of fanart by Nix. Harry looks... er... like he has "plans", ahahah, and Draco looks mesmerized, like Harry (or his nose) is just the most fascinating thing -ever-. And Harry's like, "ahahaha I know what you're thinking but... no. except also yes."

In conclusion: goddamn. I love Blue Oyster Cult. Oh yes. Prog!metal. *happy sigh* You know it has to be good if Michael Moorcock wrote lyrics :D

....er....

I was just thinking....

Why don't people (Death Eaters?) torture their victims with pleasure, anyway? I first had my little pleasure-torture epiphany in 9th grade, in High School, but then I forgot about it (and anyway, that was about pleasure ray-guns instead of lasers or whatever). But... it seems much more efficient and equally good at breaking down people's defenses, as well as being less taxing on the sanity of the torturer & also... isn't it also fun? Perversely, anyway; getting the person to helplessly spill information 'cause they feel emotionally defenseless rather than racked with pain. Plus, it's really hard to train resistance against pleasure (rather than pain), I'd think. Or, well, harder.

( Don't ask. Just. Don't ask. -.- )