~~ stupid pairing rants. *smacks self*

there are few things lamer than ranting against pairings. i know this. believe me, trust me, understand me, i -know- this. every pairing is like an idea-- it may annoy me, but it is what it is, and it exists and i don't have to pay attention. it usually has a reason for existing-- just like everything else. people like it for a certain reason. usually that reason is some psychological predisposition to romantic fluffiness or kinky darkness or insane absurdity (hello, neville/squid). it's not that i would say, "let's go hug every pairing there is", but certainly, they mean no harm (the ideas themselves). they want to grow, prosper and multiply, like all memes, but it's not as if they're inherently "better" or "worse" than any other comparable idea/pairing. okay then.

that said, harry/lucius is annoying me today.

some part of me is begging the rest of me to get on my high horse and to natter about how obviously whoever ships harry/lucius cares nothing for harry, for what kind of person seriously wants a sixteen-year-old (or so) to be having this (almost certainly temporary) affair with the father of his school arch-rival, a confirmed death eater, a person who's never shown the slightest kind regard towards him and is unlikely to ever start? i mean, seriously, that's really fucked up.
    *smirks* yah. it's easy to say, "well, i'm just looking out for harry's well-being, here", but of course it's also easy to see how stupid that statement is. of course, this is the same person who wrote 2 (count 'em! two!) harry/cho fics for the sole reason that i imagine harry would thank me (awww, he has a crush on cho-- why not make him have what he wants? awww, the ickle w00bie, etcetc).

see, what i'm really sometimes apt to rant about in my head isn't a -pairing-, it's my imagined scenario where people pair harry (ickle, lovable harry! hee) with people who just aren't good for him! same for draco. it's like, they don't care about him and are merely satisfying their perverse lust (which you know, pot, kettle, obviously). this is seriously making me sound like a care-bear. this is why i'm rather mocking myself, here. i think it's just that i have a relationship with harry & draco-- partly voyeuristic & perverted, but partly, you know, affectionate. he's like my little fictional adopted brother. although, seriously, that's fucked up, considering all the smut. but the point is, i want him to be happy, and fulfilled, and emotionally healthy. i want him to get his heart's desire, to realize he's lovable and special and all that jazz, but also to break him out of his mental biases and to show him more of the world. i also want draco to well... flower. not be redeemed, just, nurtured more, challenged more.

( this whole harry/lucius issue, though, doesn't even -compare- to my draco/lucius issue. which i'm perhaps more comfortable having, for obvious reasons, actually. )

disturbingly enough, treat characters -too- well, and you make them sappy and out-of-character and all melted into gooey puddles of over-sweet ichor. yuck! i am never happy, obviously >:D
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also, prillalar's response to the latest hp100 challenge kills me. just. KILLS me. ahahahah. oh god. i need to watch the matrix again >:D