~~completely un-noteworthy: fanon affection & blather on rpg's.

for a split second, i was going to wax poetic about fanon!draco. just because. er. it's fun to blaspheme against one's own ideals, or something like that (*laughs*). no, i mean, it's fun to be affectionate towards the things you can't stand-- you look at them in a different light, and presto!. instant cuteness.

well, i mean, this doesn't work with everything-- i can't suddenly decide to feel affectionately chagrined towards say, a horrible evil dictator. though sometimes i come close, with long-dead monarchs (it's a quirk). i mean, i totally think iron-ivan (monarch of old russia) is cute. i think henry the eighth is cute. you know, it's the insanity. it makes people cuter than they would otherwise be. it's that note of the absurd. it's easy to have affection for.

it is in thinking of draco as dryly intelligent and swanky and sleek and vain and promiscuous (either that, or seemingly so and rather insanely picky in reality) that i find him absurd-- impossible-- like pink flying pigs-- like, oh, i dunno, leather trousers worn with black turtlenecks and a passion for cucumber sandwiches-- in other words, really really cute. adorable, even. heh. i easily go, awwwww.
    though, testing this, i easily buckle is what i do. any mention of "harry", "sweet harry", "tenderly kissing harry" or sweetness and tenderness in general and i want to scream. scream at draco, and possibly disown him. scream, "you are a bloody bastard, and don't you forget it prissyboy!!". the course of affection never did run smooth, of course. especially since right now, the only couple i will allow to be gooey love-bunnies (as long as there's angst) is sirius & remus. ddtm has done a number on my brain, indeed. though, a lot of s/r fic sucks (naturally). yes, i looked. probably even worse than h/d fic, but no. still, the word "mate" begins to grate on one. shutupshutupshutup, i want to scream. heh. not as bad as "my sweet muffin sugarplum". no, i do not love you after all, fanon!draco. sigh. at least, you're bearable until you admit your burning tender passions for one harry potter, at which point you're impossible (and not in the good way). love him, but even harry has more spunk than defanged!draco. sad, very sad.

speaking of cute.
    i made some icons for the taking. tell me if you do, but i don't need 'em.

sigh. i -still- haven't gotten around to reading/reviewing/reccing a growing number of recent fics (half-finished recs post ever-growing to my horror). i refuse any paranoia sternly, and will not wibble. life is getting hectic. cannot even read thamiris' clex fic, 'cause of recent developments in the show. wah. best-friends!clark&lex fic doesn't work in my head anymore, sadly. does anyone else have this problem? i'm all like-- "where's the distance and the underhanded double-crossing and the discomfort with each other??" sigh.
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