~~biased? meeeee?

( buffy/smallville mutterings. )

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chiriko says she's leaving, but she wrote this, which finally convinces me i love ginny. it's really frightening. i love silvia's ron and sky & amalin's hagrid and now aspen's ginny, and i can only fear what's next. i'll miss her. wah. aspen was one of my first favorite h/d writers, and she was one of the things that got me into this fandom, and i don't know if she ever knew that but it's true. *sigh*
    i've been in nyc this past weekend, so of course fics piled up and gah, term's starting and i'm slow, and.... i can't believe `beneath you' is going so fast. wow, an actual fast writer in this fandom. it's like... a parrot in buffalo. i thought they all migrated out. ><;;
    i feel stupid reccing every single thing an author writes. it looks like i'm either a brainless fangirl (or worse, personally attached to the author if they're on my friends list, which they often are) or tasteless or whatever. but seriously, there are some people i find something newly amazing in their writing with every new fic. not -every- writer, which makes me feel better. like, haha! i -do- have discriminatory abilility. so there! and even with always-good writers, some things are better than others, obviously. even amalin and ivy, my slashfic goddesses, have written things that were less brilliant than usual. weird, but true. er. or perhaps, not as brilliant as they could be, by their own standards, though usually still more brilliant than 95% of the writing out there. heck, i don't like half the stuff neil gaiman wrote, and i worship his writing. seriously. worship. anyway.

with that said, `five (a study of senses)' richly deserves to be recced, and whoever thinks not probably doesn't share my taste in fic. like, at all. *laughs* which is ok, of course. i can only speak for what makes me fall in love, and it's always personal for everyone. in the end, i fall in love with stories, with characters -because- of stories, with stories because of characters. i dunno what i'd think if i didn't fall in love, reading that fic. would i think, "hey, that's nicely structured". or, "hmmm, nice symmetry". or, "great passion they seem to have"? hmm.

~~not the how but the why. why ask why? just read smut, i say -.-

reading aja's entry on one's relationship with one's own writing (in particular, long, chaptered fics that require a commitment) and today, holographis' h/d fic, i started to question some basic assumptions.
    this was a fic i really enjoyed. and yet how does it fit in with my larger quest for an in-character h/d fic i can stand behind?

and in fact, what is -up- with that quest? why indeed, do i want to see it happen? as aja had said, you should ask yourself that, about your story. why are you writing this. what is driving you, what is your inspiration. what are you doing.
( well, i wibble a lot, but i can't say i've figured out it, actually. )

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also, funny how i can't be very in-depth or eloquent about say, smallville or buffy. 'course, that's the problem with watching things sporadically vs reading everything you can get your hands on. (and yes, feeling humbled by thamiris' and eleveninches' and hackthis' reviews.) that was really why i never wrote fanfic (though there were attempts) for anything before hp. i -loved- those worlds, but i didn't -understand- them on some intuitive, gut level. and if you don't understand something (a pairing, a world) on that gut level, if it's not in your head, rather than just passing through it, i at least, can't really write it. which is why you won't see lotr rps from me in a million, zillion, quatrillion years -.-

EDIT - auntbeast drew ivy's dirty!draco and oh. my. gahd. this is It! this! draco! is! it is! gods! wah! exclamation point! i am dying over here. i see The Draco of my dreams! gah.

~~ivy's response fic.

well, i didn't read ivy's `rose red' until today. and it's just nearly perfect the way it is, but i could see what she means about getting them together, and of course, i can't resist a challenge, eheheheh. ahem.

( so here goes my attempt at an ending for `rose red'. um. i'm not too happy with it, but it's so -long-, i just sort of have a sick fascination with how it turned out... )

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and, silvia?? i now ship draco/dumbledore. this is all your fault -.-