~~super tackiness & sex-fics & wibbling. also, evil!slashy muses and perversion galore, ahahahah.

yo. so like, i'm talking to unstasis, who's a wacky [straight] loon!boy extraordinaire, as who's become disturbingly adept at pushing my slashy buttons, and he likes to cackle evilly at my cries of horror. i don't know -how- the subject of dirty old men got brought up-- really. in every good conversation there are some dirty old men, apparently. but anyway, that made us think of `the odd couple'-- and the odd couple movie and how they were pursuing that one lady-tramp-- and-- and. i was like, dude, i bet they wanted to do each other the whole time! and he's like, yeah, but they're too manly (in their dirty old man sort of way) to admit it! and i'm all, dude!! you're so evil! you've just made me `ship oscar/felix!! omg..! and then he's said, i was just trying to squick you, which worked. so evil. but man..! oscar/felix are so OTP...! oh...my....gahd..!!

why did i never see it before???!
so of course he has to ruin my epiphany with saying, what about dennis and mr. wilson? and i'm like, gross..! (but now i'm wondering.... *shudders* oh god... no....no... noooooooo....) -- and then he's like, "and his mother!" hahaha :D
    anyway.
~~
i was just thinking that the reason i loff buffy so much is similar to the reason i like monty python. i'm a huge, huge huge sucker for meta-comedy, self-aware comedy, comedy that teases and makes fun of itself and references geeky pop-culture and obscure cultural memes, and just generally regards nothing as holy. like, the way spike jokes about being insane, and how everyone jokes about willow going on a killing rampage, etc, while still retaining that element of true emotion and sincerity and passion that is so evident in all the character interactions in the show.
    and i realized that's my favorite style of writing. and i can't think of any other show that does that-- that's witty and self-deprecating and random and irreverent and mad and yet touching and deep, too. the only thing i can think off that has the same vibe off the top of my head is `the princess pride', which is, of course, not a show. possibly `hitchiker's guide to the galaxy', and a number of other movies that attempt it and fail, like say the men in black movies.

btw, that's what i love about cassie claire's writing. she's so there, in that space, that nothing-is-holy but everything-is-real space. *sighs* fuck maudlin love, anyway. bring on the snarky irreverent joking-as-you-kick-the-bucket angst :D
*wibble* my jewish roots are showing, by god. *wibble*
~~

am thinking about why i wrote my smut!fic, and why it seems so have been so well received (as opposed to my cinderella!ginny fic or some of the other more poetic, more cerebral fics). and how i feel about that, and why i don't identify as much with this fic as some of the more cerebral metaphorical ones, but it seems the characters seem to have a life of their own.


( i am so kind and considerate of your friends page space. *laughs and pats self on back* ...*sigh*... anyway, i've put the rest of the inane writerly wibblings behind this `i -know- you want to' bar, heh. )

~~why harry isn't hermione: the t00biest essay yet

so while i realize people read this stuff-- v. v. strange-- i still basically feel that i'm mumbling to myself, which is probably good. otherwise i may censor & such. like, "who really wants to read about -this-?" and "this isn't of use to anyone", etc.

i can't even say i wouldn't write this stupid fannish stuff if not for beng "part" of a fandom-- i wrote it back on my pitas page, which is why i gave up and got a livejournal, figured may as well spout where they can hear me. i was curious. but anyway.

so i do think, of my own free will, about why hermione is or isn't similar to harry. i don't even need to go -into- why ginny isn't "harry", but i suppose it's part of the same issue. i find it a very curious concept to say that pairings or combinations of two different people with one person, are "equivalent". what does that mean? what are you saying about the depths & personalities of the two people you're equating? on the one hand, i would, myself, compare-- i would say things like, harry/draco is roughly similar to buffy/spike, and i could go on about it and show you why i think that.

but when people say that hermione/draco is largely similar to harry/draco, all that gets brought up is that they would also fight and that it'd be good vs. evil or whatever. i think that's pretty sloppy, myself. in my mind, harry & hermione are too different. although that's slightly hypocritical, coming from me, because i find the h/h pairing to be uninteresting because they're too similar, -to work romantically-. but their dynamics, their motivations are still largely different. i suppose i can go into a list. "this is what hermione's like", and "this is what harry's like", compare and contrast, but i don't think it's necessary.
    ( ...but i could do it anyway, can't i *g* )

...in other, even t00bier news... why, oh why do i bother -finishing- silly sappy gooey fics that make me have a weird taste at the back of my mouth? have i learned nothing from my years rotting my brain with horribly bad-written romance novels?? am i masochistic? (don't answer that). *laughs* `the boat of a million years' really reminds me of those bodice-rippers. although it could have something to do with all the french endearments and the star-crossed!lucius/narcissa, hahah. it's so amazing, the words "i hate you" were mentioned only once, in passing, in this fic. "i love you, i need you, i want you, i hate you"-- blah blah french endearments blah. *laughs some more* no, really, i appreciate it, i do. i'm still laughing. not every fic can do that. hahaha *remembers harry & draco and their goat farm*

*dies*

~~wherein i talk about myself, and ponder quizzes and barflies and other v. v. deep things. yes.

the question of who i am (like) as a Fangirl-- as a harry potter fangirl--
is a deep and meaningful. not.
but nonetheless we all (a lot of us? some of us? a number of us, then, heh) indulge in wibbling about it. all those quizzes try to tell us, humorously, that whether or not the answers matter, the questions are burning brightly enough to make us take silly quizzes.
yes. so who am i? haha.


( by god. this is shmoopy. *shudders* )