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[reenka]

...I just had the most disturbing vision out of the corner of my eye, of my plushie!Harry with long wild black hair o_0 Y'know, but still with his messed-up striped t-shirt & jeans & glasses & stuff.

As flash occurred, I realized I would possibly adore girl!Harry even more than boy!Harry, in a way. In an OMG CRUSH sort of way o_0 He's just. My darling as a boy, but as a girl he's. Just. Dude. Breasts o_0 Awkwardness. Still wearing boy clothes. And blushing a lot. And still being very angry. And punching Ron for staring. And. Suddenly getting weird reactions about... boys. Which may or may not have always been there. And. Liking Ginny more. And. Omg, breasts.


Feel like the biggest perv that ever lived o_0 I know Silvia wrote it, but see. This is less about the funny (though still funny) and more about the. Y'know. Sex. And gender-bending. And Harry not being gorgeous! Just lanky & skinny & with wild hair & small breasts & still the urge to kick things. Like, he's totally the same except. Y'know. Yeah.

Girl!Harry & Hermione, ack. He'd like-- go to her for advice and-- stuff-- and-- fumbling would occur, and. It would be so awkward! And. Hot! And Ron! Poor Ron, with the staring and the being rather awkward and messed with and. Ack! And. Draco would. Be so confused. And angry. And confused. And how could he act the same way? Potter is a GIRL! It's just. Too weird. So. He just. Avoids. And wanks. And stalks, like in the shower or something. o_0

Seriously have to fight urge to write girl!Harry. Ack. Someone talk me out of this...! Please.

Wah. Okay I think I've purged it. 'Cause clearly it's not going anywhere, it's just-- ack short skirts & knobby knees...! And Draco like, fainting (and we can't forget Ron-- what with the wanting to grope Harry's breasts 'cause they're mates & that's the sort of favor one would expect), and Hermione being protective (or possessive! Harry, you must take care of yourself now that you're one of us!) and Ginny deciding she's gay (well, she is in my head) and. Omg. Everyone Wants Harry = Reena Is Ever So Lame. It's just. I can't decide who to pair her with-- I just think everyone would be confused, it's not that they all want her. It's just that... hormones are everywhere. And she wanks a lot. And possibly I could see it being H/D but mostly. Girl!Harry. Still angry. Ack. And violent! And. Getting into physical fights!! Omg. See, this is why I should be asleep now. Bad Reena, no Mary-Sue!Harry for you. *slaps own wrist*
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PS. potter_mouth can most definitely have my babies anytime, anywhere. Forget about that girl!Harry thing, I'm totally sold on the testosterone overload, I really am. CALL ME, BABY. :-*
    I mean, it's likely enough you like boys, but you being fictional & me being creative, we can work something out, non?

Comments

Re: girl!Harry!!!

[cellia.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess I just worry that just because I can point to something and complain doesn't mean I'm more right than people who loved the same thing. I mean, in my head, I'm right, but in terms of what makes a good story objectively... I feel completely unsure.

Basically, I am just trying to avoid blame if you go down a road you end up hating. :D

Here is some corniness that I believe: there are 2 parts to a mistake. The dumb thing you do, and then your attempt to make amends. Just being sorry doesn't do much for anyone, but is a step towards part2. So, it's obvious Draco was sorry here, but it seems mostly because his choices led to bad things for him--not because they were necessarily the wrong choices. And I didn't get even the glimmer of a desire to atone (or even if he thought it was necessary).

Hm. He's kinda following in Snape's footsteps, but without making any of the tough moral steps that Snape did.

Before, you realize, he didn't want him -enough-

>.< It's more like: Harry luvs Draco. But... why? I know love is strange and mysterious, and "why" can't always be answered, but all he seems to get is sex and abuse. That that makes him progress into "like" and then coupledom... it's believable, but seems to point more to self-destructive tendencies to be pitied (with Draco as the instrument of hurt) than any kind of meaningful interaction/connection between 2 people.

I have much love for seeing then whole arc, not that it's really necessary, but I guess I had problems seeing that this was the beginning of more, that the rest of the arc was implied. You may now decide between my denseness or story opaqueness as the reason. :D

Re: girl!Harry!!!

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hehehe you always have this angst-type-thing about that and I'm always like 'no! it's fine! really!' so like, I wonder if someone -has- blamed you for steering them into Eeeeevil. Or something. You realize I wouldn't, don't you? I wouldn't blame anyone for the way my story turned out, if anything because I only follow through on things if I feel they're 'right' somehow, myself. Y'know? It's like something bling-blings in my head and I'm all 'oh!!' and suddenly there's a lightbulb, etc.

With Draco & the atonement... yes. Except... I don't see Angel!Draco so much as Spike!Draco in the atonement dept.-- as in, what he did then is then, and what he is now is now. He always just does what seems 'right' to him and doesn't reason it out and think 'oh wait' and... well... think. Does he? He hasn't been thinking in THM, anyway, just kind of going on instinct. Also... what did he do, y'know? I made him a paper-pusher and he was coerced into that Muggle-girl torture thing, so I mean.... he wasn't the Big Bad or anything, and I don't think he killed anyone. However, I'm hoping that the new arclet where I show more of the why-the-Ministry-wants-him plot & him helping Hermione with that will go further towards the desire to help/atone/do better without making it too explicit....

Do you really think Draco abuses him more than Harry abuses Draco? I mean, Harry's the 'top' and all that... but yeah, I dig. I tried a bit to make it 'better' by expanding the school scenes, but I couldn't make it too 'happy' or Draco wouldn't have done the Death Eater thing, possibly. However, I'm gonna expand the snow scene... put it in context... but even so, yeah, the school thing -had- to be not-good-enough and then Harry wanted to use him and stop him from rotting in Azkaban & then they got a renewed sense of one another... I dunno if it's about 'luv' yet-- I mean, it could get there, but, it's not like... did it really seem like they had a normal stable 'relationship' thing? Draco didn't think so... I mean, Harry's flirting & all that so he seems to want more, but he's Harry so of course he wants more....

I don't think Draco hurts him post-Azkaban once they stopped yelling at each other, y'know? I didn't want to improve it too soon... it's a long hard road, etc. So I guess you want to see 'more' but the more would have to come past the end as it stands now, though, otherwise when would it have been better for them? I was just trying to be realistic given the events I saw happening, etc.... *mulls more* Gack, well. I'd need more -plot- for more follow-up, too :> *is also intimidated*