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[reenka]

I felt I should commemorate this somehow: some random person just emailed me to say they liked my last fic because... um... because the Harry & Draco in it aren't (quote) some sort of neurasthenics.

All right, out with it.

DID ANY OF YOU KNOW THAT WORD OR AM I THE DUMB ONE??!

Also, I will now say neurasthenic!Draco instead of fanon!Draco. Oh yes I will! Muwahahah, etc.

(...yes, I looked it up on google, yes.)

Comments

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

I'm flippant, man :D :D The key to successfully manipulating is just to plant any old suggestion in my mind if it 1) takes little to no effort (or possibly brain function) & 2) is enjoyable in some way. You think YOU'RE lazy, in other words. ONE DOES NOT KNOW LAZY UNTIL ONE KNOWS REENA!LAZY. *IS CHAMPION OMG!!1* (...Although I admit light reading takes a lot less brain function for me than it does for other people? I guess? But... this doesn't help me study seriously. See 1). Also, I think it's the very IDEA of effort that puts me off studying.)

I never thought of myself as a person given to mockery. I don't think I'm good enough at it. I'm almost never consciously mean-- it's just that I say what I think almost always, ahahahah. I'm almost never like, 'OMG MUST SPARE THIS PERSON'S FEELINGS'. So actually I'm not 'sekritly' mean at all :)) It's just that I usually don't -talk- to most people I'd be mean to ^^;;; Um. *coughs*

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Haha! We're so alike. Study, me? Put forth effort, what? IT MIGHT MESS UP MY HAIR. Or cause me distress. Or otherwise distract me from my important routine of lounging around, drinking coffee and thinking, "I should really do some work, or something. Or have another latte. Mmm latte..." In fact the only reason I'm online now is because my laptop was already in my lap. (Although I have been especially lazy this week.) Doesn't my life sound fun? ;) And also, now I am going to work on manipulating you, although, like, I haven't decided what yet. One step at a time. Perhaps to watch American Idol. Only definitely not. *plots* :)

No, you definitely aren't a mean person. I don't think you could really be mean if you tried, at least how much I know of you. But you are honest, and I like that. I wish more people were honest instead of just being like, 'oh, it's cool, whatever', y'know? Yeah, anyway.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hahah, alike except I'm a nerd who thinks reading fanfic is relaxing~:) I've never actually, uh, 'lounged around' without occupying my mind -somehow-. I think it's the same reason I bite my nails and fidget in general. Forget doing anything -useful-, and sure, I can zone out, but if I was in fidget-mode, I'd go insane having to sit on the porch if I couldn't at least watch the pretty view (that's doing something!) I can't seem to even drink stuff without either reading or talking or writing or thinking (this happens less, ahahahah). I'm lazy yet always occupied, usually with pointless things. I'm just uh... contradictory like that ^^;;

...I've never actually tried to be mean, so I dunno if I could be if I tried, ahahahah. Probably the biggest reason I haven't tried (aside from uh, lack of motivation) is that I have no clue what to do or say. I once wanted to somehow attain super-duper karate powers and kick my ex boyfriend's ass. Does that count? If I knew kung-fu, I'D SO HAVE WHOOPED HIS ASS. (And when I told him this, he said he'd hit me over the head with an old lady's walker.)

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

I think reading fic is relaxing. Sometimes. If...um...I actually read it, instead of thinking I should and then not, haha. Which is generally what happens. But I am a nerd. I tell people this and they never believe me, which causes me much despair. I AM NERDY, I TELL YOU! :) And I bite my nails too, when I'm bored or nervous. (It's really gross, isn't it, I don't know why we do it.) See, but you are a lazy multi-tasker. Or something like that. Perhaps. I know what you mean, though, because I'm generally doing something, even if it is just reading the paper. And, I mean, I say I'm lazy, but I'm generally pretty much always on the go. Just...like...not actually getting worthwhile stuff accomplished. I don't know how that happens!

See, the "being mean" thing - there's a difference between being direct and being downright rude, I think. So, threatening your ex with violence and possible bodily trauma was just being...um...direct. Right. Heh. Besides, I'm sure he deserved it? :) Sometimes I threaten people with head-thunkings, but I don't usually follow through because I think it hurts my finger more, haha.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

See, I remember my mother telling me biting your nails was gross when I was like, 10, and... well, I think most other people bite them in a gross way, like they CHEW really obviously, not just nibble, and they go down to the quick so there's all this puffy reddened flesh and everything (...) and they look like they're trying to eat their finger. I just nibble. NIBBLE I SAY!!1 *cough*

I believe you're nerdy <3 I don't read lots of fics I feel I 'should' or it would be 'really great' if I did (even when I really believe that! ...especially when I do.) Perhaps you would understand this when no one else does! Because if there's a fic or something I REALLY want to read, I put it off! It's too much pressure! I can't take it man, I can't take it!! Ahahah I really am so high-strung, and yet most people would probably think I'm uber-laid-back and quiet, 'cause that's what I act like, heh.

I don't think I'm direct in person as much as in writing. And if I get nervous in writing, then forget it-- I'll be like "um.........ummm...." for ages. I'm a sort of hold-or-spew type (...that sounds really wrong...)

Also. Look at this icon!! Isn't this icon the BEST THING EVAR??! I love this manga so much I'm tempted to push it on you~:)) It has stinky 14-year-old awkward boylove. AWWWWW!!1 Man -.-

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Haha, when I was younger my mom threatened to paint that disgusting-tasting stuff on my nails so I'd stop biting them, because I did (...do) it A LOT (subconsciously) when I'm stressed or nervous. But...um... *makes excuses* At least I don't bite my toenails...? Um, if that's, like, anatomically possible.

Yes! You believe in me! Heee <3 No, see, I get what you're saying about not reading stuff even if you want to, cause I do this with novels that friends have recommended to me and stuff, as well. I don't really know why, because they're like 'This is great! You should read it!' & I'm like 'Yes! I have spare time this week, even!'...& then I don't read it. So, WTF man. I don't know. I've had this one novel a friend lent to me a year and a half ago and I'm still only halfway done. But with fic, I don't read because...well, probably because I've read so much craptastic stuff and I know there's great stuff out there, but. I don't know, I haven't been reading fic much at all in several months, it's like I got scared away or something, except I don't think I did...? I should start reading stuff just to get back in there, cause it's not like I wouldn't want to read something, I mean, if it was good and all. I'm really quite strange is what I think it boils down to. :)

I was about to say your icon is adorable! The dark haired one is like 'Don't kiss me! EW! Cooties!' & the other one looks so angelic, heehee. I can't believe you're trying to get me into the manga, man. Heh :) I have resisted so well and for so long! WOE.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

I'm not trying to subvert (convert?) you, really, it's just that OMG I LOVE AWKWARD STINKY BOYLOVE and it's rare in manga to have all that premature-ejaculation, dorky-adolescents-experimenting cute-yet-lame-lame-lame stuff, and I figured you'd appreciate it as much as I do even -if- it was manga :>

...You know, I think I'm still flexible enough to bring my foot to my mouth. Or my mouth to my foot. Or what have you ^^;;; Um.

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Heee. I would probably appreciate it, because, like. Awkward boys. What's not to love, dude?

Y'know, freakishly, I can put my foot behind my head. I KNOW YOU'RE (not) IMPRESSED. It's only cause I did gymnastics for years, though.

Speaking of lame-lame-lame. I should really not be watching 'The Nanny' and writing porn at the same time. IT'S FREAKING ME OUT, MAN.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hee! I'll send it you with yousend it, then <3<3<3 AND THEN TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, BECAUSE *OMG HEART*. So yes.

I did choreography for since I was 4 until 8-9... and... um, I'm sad that I can't do the foot-behind-head thing, since I used to be quite flexible. I come really close, but no cigar. I think if I stretched first, though ><;; Heh. Probably more difficult to do it after sitting still for hours and days and weeks and... yeah -.- I could never do a full split even when I was little, though. I mean, I'd get 95% of the way there, and then stop, 'cause owww. It sucked. *sigh*

Ahahahah ...as long as you're not writing The Nanny porn.....