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[reenka]

I felt I should commemorate this somehow: some random person just emailed me to say they liked my last fic because... um... because the Harry & Draco in it aren't (quote) some sort of neurasthenics.

All right, out with it.

DID ANY OF YOU KNOW THAT WORD OR AM I THE DUMB ONE??!

Also, I will now say neurasthenic!Draco instead of fanon!Draco. Oh yes I will! Muwahahah, etc.

(...yes, I looked it up on google, yes.)

Comments

[penelope-z.livejournal.com]

I did. But it's a Greek word, so I don't get bonus points.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Nevertheless, I'm duly impressed. I certainly don't know all English words :> :>

[cathexys.livejournal.com]

i did, but i've read my freud up and down since psychoanalysis was one of my two oral fields...

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Even so, I feel vaguely like I lost intellectual points :D Though I'm pleased I now know one more big word to confuse the little people with, or something :>

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

I know it, but only cause we talked about it in one of my women's lit classes. Personally I think they just mentioned it because they thought big words turned you on. Or. something. Um. Haha?

And also, neurasthenic!Draco sounds much, much hotter. And more cracktastic. I should write something. Or, no, you should. ;)

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

...I hate to say this, but I can't write a fic about neurasthenic!Draco 'cause... I'm still not perfectly clear on what the definition is... it's more a general idea. Um. Though it's obvious it's something to do with high nerves 'cause of the 'neura', the 'thenic' suffix... eh. In one ear, out the other, that's me~:))

Personally, I suspect they said it 'cause English is their second language and also they're in some sort of academia. Which raises the question of WHY ARE THEY READING H/D SMUT?? But that question can be asked of all of us -.-

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Don't ruin my dream, Reena! *laments* Heh :) Yeah, it's a lot like the 19th century idea of hysteria. And I've usually only seen it applied to women (although I guess men could have the disorder...or...whatever you want to call it?) but that just makes me laugh, cause clearly it just makes me picture Draco in a skirt. Not that everything already doesn't. But. ;)

Which raises the question of WHY ARE THEY READING H/D SMUT??
...Because they are indescribably cool? (Or lame. Either one.)

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

But... uh... that article I found was distinguishing between hysteria and neurosthenia, saying that the latter had people much more well-behaved, wasting away in their beds, while the former had people rave and rant (which is more like Draco). Um. But now I'm confused again -.- -.- So Draco -is- neurosthenic??

THESE ARE THE QUESTIONS WE MUST ALL PONDER, along with 'where's my cheese' and 'why is my sock so slippery?!'

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

No, you're right. Don't be confused! I was trying to un-confuse you & failed miserably. Obviously. They're just sometimes put in the same classification, is all.

Also, Draco is a whiny loser. Let's just keep it at that. ;)

Other questions include, why are you not watching the OC? And, if all the world's a stage, where is the audience? And, why did I just have three glasses of orange juice for dinner? And etc.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Heheh, I'm easily confused, and yet retain information better than I think I do. *SHAKES BRAIN* It never works the way I think it would at any particular instance. It's like a safety hazard.

....I think there's something pathetically beautiful about there being a huge squeeing fandom all for lust love of a whiny loser. I don't know why JKR isn't laughing like a hyena, honestly. I would be. I mean, I think if I was JKR you'd just mention 'Draco Malfoy fans' and I'd be like AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, y'know? But maybe she has more self-control than I do -.-

...Sara says the OC is bad these days and there's less gay...? Also I never watch tv anymore. At all. I usually have a show or two I follow if I watch it, and if there is such a show, usually it has some 'hook' which isn't 'unresolvable UST between two guys who kiss other girls a lot and look cute doing it'. Mind you, I really like the OC a lot. Last thing I watched semi-religiously was Buffy, and before that you'd have to go all the way to High School & X-Files and ER (...and Ally McBeal... why did I watch that... I don't know, ahahah), but then I watched tv lots more. I remember really liking those lame love-drama WB shows like uh, Roswell and Dawson's Creek (*shame...*) But that's when I have a het couple I ship, which I can't for the OC.

AM I ROMANCE OBSESSED? I REALLY AM, AREN'T I. WOE.

Also, I must also really be masochistic 'cause I'm seriously about to read an new (sequel-type) OOC fluffy!H/D WIP. I just can't quit; it's like, uh, some sort of brain-draining gum. Like tv, but worse, much worse.

Y'know what really gets me? Is that people write this fluffy melodrama stuff at least somewhat earnestly/seriously. Like... I don't get that. If it was all a joke, I can dig it. But like, -working- at it? Being like, "I must now toil at this OOC H/D fluff fic"... I just don't get that, man.

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

....I think there's something pathetically beautiful about there being a huge squeeing fandom all for lust love of a whiny loser.
Dude. I KNOW. Ahahaha. It always amuses me when I see people seriously like, "OMG! SO HOT! YES!" I mean, I say I want to have his babies, but. I wonder how many people take me seriously, lol. No-one should ever take me seriously. Except when they should. Um.

Yeah, the OC is pretty shit lately. I mean, I guess technically there is actually more gay, or at least there was a few weeks ago when there was The Big Lesbian Kiss, which was actually just The Big Lesbian Kiss Done For February Sweeps Because Fox Sucks And Needs More Viewers. And then right now they have Paris Hilton on. So. NEW ALL-TIME LOW, OC? I think maybe so. Eugh. But I watch it anyway, because. Have I introduced you to my one and only love, Seth Cohen? Oh yes. Seth, baby, whysosexy. Anyway.

And. I still watch ER. (Mmm Dr. Carter.) Does this make me a Losah? Moreso than usual, haha.

...I want to know what fic you're reading now, obviously. Hehe.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Okay, I was just about to be like, 'fine, I'll watch the OC, what day is it?' and then it's like OMG THURSDAY WTF WTFWTF and also almost 9, and it starts at 8pm, right >.<;; Me loves the Seth also, how could I not?? But Ryan also. Awwww I wuv them both<3<3<3 Oh Seth. One of the first and only characters on TV that seems like a guy one could know in school except the sad part is EVEN SETH IS TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL. *weeeeeeeeeeps*

As for the fic, *sigh*, go nuts (http://www.livejournal.com/users/emmagrant01/118728.html) :> :> ahahaha. It did have non-snuggly!Harry and I was like OMG WOW SOMETHING THAT RESEMBLES CANON, THIS IS VAGUELY DISTURBING BEING SO SUDDEN. Um. Actually I don't dislike it, and what I do dislike isn't the OOCness but rather the sheer indulgent fluffy shallowness, I guess. It tries to have a point, it really does, BUT AHAHAHA IT FAILS IT FAILS.

...I love being sekritly mean, I really do.

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHA OMG I ALMOST GOT YOU TO WATCH IT! *is irresistable, or possibly evil* I heart Ryan. Aw, tortured soul AND SO SEXY IN THE WIFEBEATER. Heee. But I love Seth more. I believe, at one point during last week's episode, I went "EEEEE!" when he came onscreen. I was smacked by a friend, and duly so. Er. I'm okay, really. But now at least I know you will not mock me for writing OC fic as we speak. Oh yes. Yes I am.

I think that fic's, like, the sequel to some other one I haven't read yet, and probably can't be bothered to read for the sheer fact that I am So So Lazy.

...I'm now paranoid about your secret meanness. ;)

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

I'm flippant, man :D :D The key to successfully manipulating is just to plant any old suggestion in my mind if it 1) takes little to no effort (or possibly brain function) & 2) is enjoyable in some way. You think YOU'RE lazy, in other words. ONE DOES NOT KNOW LAZY UNTIL ONE KNOWS REENA!LAZY. *IS CHAMPION OMG!!1* (...Although I admit light reading takes a lot less brain function for me than it does for other people? I guess? But... this doesn't help me study seriously. See 1). Also, I think it's the very IDEA of effort that puts me off studying.)

I never thought of myself as a person given to mockery. I don't think I'm good enough at it. I'm almost never consciously mean-- it's just that I say what I think almost always, ahahahah. I'm almost never like, 'OMG MUST SPARE THIS PERSON'S FEELINGS'. So actually I'm not 'sekritly' mean at all :)) It's just that I usually don't -talk- to most people I'd be mean to ^^;;; Um. *coughs*

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Haha! We're so alike. Study, me? Put forth effort, what? IT MIGHT MESS UP MY HAIR. Or cause me distress. Or otherwise distract me from my important routine of lounging around, drinking coffee and thinking, "I should really do some work, or something. Or have another latte. Mmm latte..." In fact the only reason I'm online now is because my laptop was already in my lap. (Although I have been especially lazy this week.) Doesn't my life sound fun? ;) And also, now I am going to work on manipulating you, although, like, I haven't decided what yet. One step at a time. Perhaps to watch American Idol. Only definitely not. *plots* :)

No, you definitely aren't a mean person. I don't think you could really be mean if you tried, at least how much I know of you. But you are honest, and I like that. I wish more people were honest instead of just being like, 'oh, it's cool, whatever', y'know? Yeah, anyway.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hahah, alike except I'm a nerd who thinks reading fanfic is relaxing~:) I've never actually, uh, 'lounged around' without occupying my mind -somehow-. I think it's the same reason I bite my nails and fidget in general. Forget doing anything -useful-, and sure, I can zone out, but if I was in fidget-mode, I'd go insane having to sit on the porch if I couldn't at least watch the pretty view (that's doing something!) I can't seem to even drink stuff without either reading or talking or writing or thinking (this happens less, ahahahah). I'm lazy yet always occupied, usually with pointless things. I'm just uh... contradictory like that ^^;;

...I've never actually tried to be mean, so I dunno if I could be if I tried, ahahahah. Probably the biggest reason I haven't tried (aside from uh, lack of motivation) is that I have no clue what to do or say. I once wanted to somehow attain super-duper karate powers and kick my ex boyfriend's ass. Does that count? If I knew kung-fu, I'D SO HAVE WHOOPED HIS ASS. (And when I told him this, he said he'd hit me over the head with an old lady's walker.)

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

I think reading fic is relaxing. Sometimes. If...um...I actually read it, instead of thinking I should and then not, haha. Which is generally what happens. But I am a nerd. I tell people this and they never believe me, which causes me much despair. I AM NERDY, I TELL YOU! :) And I bite my nails too, when I'm bored or nervous. (It's really gross, isn't it, I don't know why we do it.) See, but you are a lazy multi-tasker. Or something like that. Perhaps. I know what you mean, though, because I'm generally doing something, even if it is just reading the paper. And, I mean, I say I'm lazy, but I'm generally pretty much always on the go. Just...like...not actually getting worthwhile stuff accomplished. I don't know how that happens!

See, the "being mean" thing - there's a difference between being direct and being downright rude, I think. So, threatening your ex with violence and possible bodily trauma was just being...um...direct. Right. Heh. Besides, I'm sure he deserved it? :) Sometimes I threaten people with head-thunkings, but I don't usually follow through because I think it hurts my finger more, haha.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

See, I remember my mother telling me biting your nails was gross when I was like, 10, and... well, I think most other people bite them in a gross way, like they CHEW really obviously, not just nibble, and they go down to the quick so there's all this puffy reddened flesh and everything (...) and they look like they're trying to eat their finger. I just nibble. NIBBLE I SAY!!1 *cough*

I believe you're nerdy <3 I don't read lots of fics I feel I 'should' or it would be 'really great' if I did (even when I really believe that! ...especially when I do.) Perhaps you would understand this when no one else does! Because if there's a fic or something I REALLY want to read, I put it off! It's too much pressure! I can't take it man, I can't take it!! Ahahah I really am so high-strung, and yet most people would probably think I'm uber-laid-back and quiet, 'cause that's what I act like, heh.

I don't think I'm direct in person as much as in writing. And if I get nervous in writing, then forget it-- I'll be like "um.........ummm...." for ages. I'm a sort of hold-or-spew type (...that sounds really wrong...)

Also. Look at this icon!! Isn't this icon the BEST THING EVAR??! I love this manga so much I'm tempted to push it on you~:)) It has stinky 14-year-old awkward boylove. AWWWWW!!1 Man -.-

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Haha, when I was younger my mom threatened to paint that disgusting-tasting stuff on my nails so I'd stop biting them, because I did (...do) it A LOT (subconsciously) when I'm stressed or nervous. But...um... *makes excuses* At least I don't bite my toenails...? Um, if that's, like, anatomically possible.

Yes! You believe in me! Heee <3 No, see, I get what you're saying about not reading stuff even if you want to, cause I do this with novels that friends have recommended to me and stuff, as well. I don't really know why, because they're like 'This is great! You should read it!' & I'm like 'Yes! I have spare time this week, even!'...& then I don't read it. So, WTF man. I don't know. I've had this one novel a friend lent to me a year and a half ago and I'm still only halfway done. But with fic, I don't read because...well, probably because I've read so much craptastic stuff and I know there's great stuff out there, but. I don't know, I haven't been reading fic much at all in several months, it's like I got scared away or something, except I don't think I did...? I should start reading stuff just to get back in there, cause it's not like I wouldn't want to read something, I mean, if it was good and all. I'm really quite strange is what I think it boils down to. :)

I was about to say your icon is adorable! The dark haired one is like 'Don't kiss me! EW! Cooties!' & the other one looks so angelic, heehee. I can't believe you're trying to get me into the manga, man. Heh :) I have resisted so well and for so long! WOE.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

I'm not trying to subvert (convert?) you, really, it's just that OMG I LOVE AWKWARD STINKY BOYLOVE and it's rare in manga to have all that premature-ejaculation, dorky-adolescents-experimenting cute-yet-lame-lame-lame stuff, and I figured you'd appreciate it as much as I do even -if- it was manga :>

...You know, I think I'm still flexible enough to bring my foot to my mouth. Or my mouth to my foot. Or what have you ^^;;; Um.

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Heee. I would probably appreciate it, because, like. Awkward boys. What's not to love, dude?

Y'know, freakishly, I can put my foot behind my head. I KNOW YOU'RE (not) IMPRESSED. It's only cause I did gymnastics for years, though.

Speaking of lame-lame-lame. I should really not be watching 'The Nanny' and writing porn at the same time. IT'S FREAKING ME OUT, MAN.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hee! I'll send it you with yousend it, then <3<3<3 AND THEN TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, BECAUSE *OMG HEART*. So yes.

I did choreography for since I was 4 until 8-9... and... um, I'm sad that I can't do the foot-behind-head thing, since I used to be quite flexible. I come really close, but no cigar. I think if I stretched first, though ><;; Heh. Probably more difficult to do it after sitting still for hours and days and weeks and... yeah -.- I could never do a full split even when I was little, though. I mean, I'd get 95% of the way there, and then stop, 'cause owww. It sucked. *sigh*

Ahahahah ...as long as you're not writing The Nanny porn.....