gossip....?

[reenka]

I'm having lj angst. Like, when I don't update for a bit, I feel like I'm not doing it enough-- and then sometimes I update-- gasp!-- twice a day, and it's another kind of angst. I can never be content. Lj = paranoia, man. Apparently there are taboo topics and things, like I'm not supposed to reveal my uber-sekrit defriending angst (supposing I had it), or my ultra-uber-sekrit resentment towards Boyd!Draco (omg, how ugly is that boy? then again, you're talking to the girl who thinks Leonardo diCaprio is... eh). Then there's all that juicy gossip-- 'cause really, reputation is the currency in fandom, no? We're not supposed to talk about that, 'cause that's wanky. I'm just lucky I don't have any sekrit vendettas to angst over, man.

I was just thinking earlier that I'm glad I'm like, never on Quick Quote or Daily Snitch or whatever-- I don't want to be some locus of lj fandom and attract attention and stuff-- though oddly, I love random feedback, just... not necessarily on lj. Go figure. Like, if I say I can't stand Snape/Draco or Draco/Ginny or whatever, I'm just talking about me, not... 'them', or 'those people who're not me'. Opinions don't sit well with me when they're a popularity contest. I mean, I almost like Draco/Ginny, even, as long as no one tries to pimp it. God.

On that note, I should say that I love the Fiction Alley review boards. You know why? People tell me they don't like my fics-- not all the time, but sometimes. All polite, like. Like, for one thing, it was too short, and it said "dear" too much. I loved that review. I'm like, awww, you're so sweet! I'm almost certain this person doesn't know me from RavynFire928947, but they took the time to say what they really thought and I wuv them. It's like, clearly it's not personal, they're just honestly responding. I wish I could hug them all, honestly. <3 I wish they never find lj and learn better. -.-

After a year of avoiding resonant8's `Transfigurations' because frankly, I've heard too much about it and felt like I knew what I needed to without reading, I've started & read the first chapter & I love it so far. Man, it's like, my bias has shrunk 'cause I do forget over time, and it just makes me nostalgic for the days when I read and had opinions on fic without knowing or caring about what its rep is. Like, I don't really care about fanon!Draco if it can sell it. Some people can sell it and some people can't, that's all.

Dude, I totally aced my LoTR paper without even reading the books. I was tempted to post it here, but it's just too boring and sad. I could if someone wants to see it, though. It's really sad what being on the fringes of fandom will do to your ability to meta-bullshit. Le sigh. My life = so hard. Also, I would totally do the drabble-my-first-lines meme if I didn't feel so very guilty for not getting to people's requested drabbles yet. My muse has left the building, I swear. It's eating Cheerios somewhere and I'm just stuck here with the milk-moustache. Woe.

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[shaggirl.livejournal.com]

I liked Transfigurations as well, with one nitpick - Draco calling Minerva 'Kitty'. That's like nails on a chalkboard for me. But, that's either a minor complaint or a major one (or not one at all) depending on the reader, and there's lots else in the fic to recommend it.

And yes, Lj = paranoia.