~~ I think I'm easily traumatized.
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I think I've figured it out, you know. What my problem is with Lucius. I'm just beginning to read
cellia's Merry Smutmas fic, `Resolution', because that's the sort of thing I do when I'm procrastinating and too out of it for feedback. And it looks really good, except it's got Lucius. And see, this is what made me realize what is it that so upsets me about him.
First, I was traumatized by `Whirlwind', another
merry_smutmas fic, 'cause... it was all hot fumbly boysex and eeeeee, hot fumbly H/D boysex, and then. And then. It's -Lucius-, not Draco, and I could've -died-. I'm still traumatized. I am! No one asked for pure H/D smut in that community, so I do what I can, but omg, Lucius! The trauma! The sheer, unmitigated trauma! Being all ooooh-cozy-happy and then, bam, it's really the Lucius-monster! It's my worst nightmare, man. I dunno why. I really don't.
So, reading `Resolution', I realized a part of the reason why, 'cause the Lucius in it is like, this active threat to Harry&Draco. And I think it's like-- I'm scared of him 'cause he -is- a threat. He has all this -power- and -influence- over Draco, and none of it is -good- influence. Voldemort, nothing. Harry could handle him. But if he was weakened or in love with Draco, could he handle Lucius? WAH!
And usually, I scoff at the typical plot device of Draco rejecting Harry or hiding their relationship 'cause -Draco- is scared of the consequences of Lucius knowing. See, what `Resolution' does is it gives us a Draco who's -not- scared of Lucius, and that makes it all click into place in my mind. It's much more realistic, I think, because of course Draco would trust his father. Of course. Even with Harry's life. Of course. That frightens me like the boogey-man, for some reason. I'm really freaked out right now. Honestly!
Draco trusts his father, and what if you made it so that Harry trusts Draco? It's a nightmare! It's so a nightmare waiting to happen. Both of them with their guard down, and Lucius licking his lips, waiting to strike. Oh god, I'm so traumatized. You all think I'm like, 6 years old now, don't you. And this, right after the Draco-is-really-Lucius fic. I mean. Yeah.
I just see Lucius as a danger to Harry, and I totally find it hard to see him for himself, or from Snape's or Draco's or Lupin's or anyone else's point of view. He's more of a threat in my mind than Voldemort is, 'cause we all know Harry's destiny involves Voldemort, whatever happens, and I accept that as much as Harry has to and will, eventually, I'm sure. But really, H/D's outcome completely revolves around Lucius and what happens with him, one way or another. Even doing nothing at all, Lucius has all this power and influence on them both, for good or for ill, and how likely is it that it's for good? *wibbles*
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So, reading `Resolution', I realized a part of the reason why, 'cause the Lucius in it is like, this active threat to Harry&Draco. And I think it's like-- I'm scared of him 'cause he -is- a threat. He has all this -power- and -influence- over Draco, and none of it is -good- influence. Voldemort, nothing. Harry could handle him. But if he was weakened or in love with Draco, could he handle Lucius? WAH!
And usually, I scoff at the typical plot device of Draco rejecting Harry or hiding their relationship 'cause -Draco- is scared of the consequences of Lucius knowing. See, what `Resolution' does is it gives us a Draco who's -not- scared of Lucius, and that makes it all click into place in my mind. It's much more realistic, I think, because of course Draco would trust his father. Of course. Even with Harry's life. Of course. That frightens me like the boogey-man, for some reason. I'm really freaked out right now. Honestly!
Draco trusts his father, and what if you made it so that Harry trusts Draco? It's a nightmare! It's so a nightmare waiting to happen. Both of them with their guard down, and Lucius licking his lips, waiting to strike. Oh god, I'm so traumatized. You all think I'm like, 6 years old now, don't you. And this, right after the Draco-is-really-Lucius fic. I mean. Yeah.
I just see Lucius as a danger to Harry, and I totally find it hard to see him for himself, or from Snape's or Draco's or Lupin's or anyone else's point of view. He's more of a threat in my mind than Voldemort is, 'cause we all know Harry's destiny involves Voldemort, whatever happens, and I accept that as much as Harry has to and will, eventually, I'm sure. But really, H/D's outcome completely revolves around Lucius and what happens with him, one way or another. Even doing nothing at all, Lucius has all this power and influence on them both, for good or for ill, and how likely is it that it's for good? *wibbles*
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Date: 2003-12-28 10:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-29 01:55 am (UTC)no subject
Excuse me as I cackle evily.
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Date: 2003-12-29 03:32 pm (UTC)Though, I mean, to be really good, you'd have to repent of the letting out The Lucius Monster. And possibly write more H/D porn. You know. To complete your redemption :D :D!!
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I am a sinner, what can I say!?
Throw an idea at me and I might just take you up on that. I haven't written H/D porn in a while...
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Date: 2003-12-30 12:37 pm (UTC)Oh man, where do I even start. :D
There's definitely some issues with H/D PWP's-- namely that they're almost necessarily OOC unless you do something drastic or imply a whole lot of plot or go for humorfic. :-?
Well, there's the ever-popular watching-him-wank thing. Okay, by ever-popular I mean with -me-. Heh. Especially in bathrooms/showers or during/after Quidditch-- yes, I really am that sad. It never gets old. For me, anyway. *coughs* Anyway, yeah. Wanking. Oh joy.
Also, fight-sex. Oh yes. Few people can do it just right-- with the hate and anger but not -too- much, and the snark and the letting-it-all-hang-out and the being-driven-mad-with-lust. Harry snaps, Draco gets his. In more ways than one. ^^; Again, old standby.
And yes, I'm a sucker for beaten-up-Draco-in-hospital-wing. So they could both be kind of beaten up. "Ow-ow-OWW-OKTHASSGOOD" sex, I call it :D :D
Chains are pretty, also. Like, captive!Harry. Or captive!Draco, for a change. Mmmmyes. Bondage, HP style, eheheh!! WHY DOES NO ONE WRITE THIS?? *weeps* Okay, I mean, I don't either, but I started to once. Prison-sex can be good~:)) Y'know, both of them imprisoned or one of them visiting, whatever works :D
I'm a sucker for have-to-have-sex fics, where they can't help it through some freak accident (magical or however else-- trapped in an alternate dimension with only each other for company?-- good enough for me!). 'Cause like, they snark a lot. That's the important thing. Snarky!sex. Yes. Draco could be all unwillingly-enthusiastic and Harry could be all unwillingly-top. *chortles* Ahem. I am a girl of simple tastes, clearly.
I have a thing for public-voyeurism-type fics (not that I've ever seen any), where Draco magically induces arousal/orgasm/something in Harry from a distance, and Harry is all flustered and Draco likes it a little too much and Harry gets revenge, etcetc :D
Really bad, delusional, drugged/drunk sex also good. Like, the day before they finish Hogwarts and they're off to have their Last Duel and they're too drunk to duel and. :D :D!
Also, I have this huge thing about swords. I mean, I know Aspen wrote one, but still! The subject is far from exhausted! I mean. SWORDS!! >:O! Inept sword-fighting! Kink numero uno, for some reason, but I can't write action.
Near-death sex, also. Like, one of them is barely conscious (probably Harry) and Draco is like, the biggest perv ever. Ahahahah! So he's like, AHAHA I CAN HAVE MY WAY WITH HIM NOW, except some loopy magic thingie happens. Or he just keeps coming back and he doesn't notice what he's doing, except he's-- I dunno-- absent-mindedly trying out potions on Harry (pretending it's just-- er-- to mess with him) except eventually one works, so he saves Harry's life. Hey, he's good at potions! *laughs*
Ok, I'll stop now. ^^;;
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Date: 2004-01-01 04:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-29 07:01 am (UTC)What if somebody wrote a fic in which Lucius was happily converted to the H/D cause? Or if Lucius was all in favor of teh love anyway, and all this time Narcissa was the evil mastermind behind his evil actions! *cackles crazily*
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Date: 2003-12-29 03:39 pm (UTC)I actually can appreciate pre-Draco Lucius, like... before Draco & Harry were born. Then it's okay, heheh, not that I'd seek it out. I wrote pre-Draco Lucius once, not that he was IC or anything. *sighs* I'm painfully biased :>
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Date: 2003-12-29 08:51 pm (UTC)