~~ fic repost!! sara's birthday!! my draco meme!! exclamation points!!

[reenka]

My Draco....

- would secretly regret it if he admitted to himself he'd hurt someone.
- honestly believes he's not priviledged enough.
- doesn't think he'll ever age
- hates second-guessing himself, but does it anyway
- has flashes of self-awareness which disturb him more than anything
- thinks he masturbates too much.
- sometimes he thinks there's a law of the universe that says he just can't win
- feels most alive when he's flying or confronting potter
- privately thinks he's too short and pale, although he's a malfoy and thus these things are perfect.
- as a rule of thumb, when in doubt, blames someone else.
- tries not to think too long about the future.
- doesn't really -like- girls that much. or boys.
- wishes he could stop thinking about potter entirely.
- admires potter for refusing him, but would never admit it to himself.
- has severe fits of home-sickness and nostalgia.
- gets cold easily, and wishes slytherin wasn't in the dungeons. only thinks this when alone.
- has flashes of affection for crabbe, goyle and pansy, and this greatly annoys him.
- hates being hugged.
- wants to -kick- potter, just once, but would never let himself be seen touching him in any way.
- doesn't see what the big deal is: mudbloods and muggles are just outsiders: who wants them?
- would say absolutely anything to get a rise out of potter.
- sometimes wishes he could cry.
- sometimes catches himself just watching potter and not sneering; hates potter even more.
- hates: house elves, losing, looking stupid, potter, his father sometimes, potter, mudbloods, potter, looking less than his best, potter, being foiled, no one getting his sense of humor, potter, his mother forgetting his birthday, hufflepuffs, weasleys, gryffindors, people who think rules were made for everybody but them, dangerous animals, girls who won't put out, anyone who likes potter, potter, being afraid, broccoli, being drunk, being ignored, being pitied, liver, when his father looks at him like -that-.
- loves: getting one up on potter, making his father proud, being mean, amusing himself, imagining what he'd do if he ruled the world, taking long scented baths, being beautiful, making pansy swoon, making potter look at him like -that-, making weasley spontaneously combust, winning, being teacher's pet, mummy, flying, quidditch, being a malfoy, being better than everybody else, being told he's brilliant, things going his way, being clever, being well-fed, his ingenious schemes, being right, not being sorry, his dreams.
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    reposting! blaming it on penelope_z! ahahah i'm trying to manipulate you aaalllll. mwuahahahahaah. ahem.
    anyway. my fic is too long to post here. *weeps* this means i'll get even less comments than usual (which basically means, okay, hopefully at least sara likes it). if i were to make it um... more fulfilling in the porn dept., it'd be... a lot longer. it has been noted many a time that h/d realism requires foreplay. a lot... of foreplay. *snickers*
    EDIT - but..! but...! er... i tried. i did. not as hard as i could've, but man, i'm big with the paranoia right now. *WIBBLE*

anyway.

( `Sooner Or Later' - H/D NC17 - Semi-Angsty Semi-Smutty Fic For The Loffly Sara's Birthday )

Comments

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

heee >:D
amsoglad! amsolazy with responding! bad me! -.-
but. was wibbly 'cause wow, i actually wrote it in more than one sitting so obviously it has to have paid off (ha) and yet i couldn't tell its quality for the life of me, and all i could tell was that it wasn't really a -lemon-, but the thing is, the reason i wrote it was cuz thess has this icon that says, "he loves him and it hurts" and i was like, 'wow i should write something with that', and i dunno if i did it justice (i mean, the whole... "well that's how it is and it's not changing and the love is there and so is the pain" fatalism that appealed to me).

the smutty bits were just for youuuuuu >:D
i was trying to work in some sort of fisticuffs ('cause, you know, yah), but it really wasn't happening. i have to wonder if i -can- write fisticuffs, all things considered.

but. eeeeeeee you liiiiiked, i'm so bouncyhappyglad >:D
(and man, i overuse >:D lately, like a lot).
<3!
my porn-writing hand is at your disposal, milady >:D