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[reenka]

Or maybe love is doing something because it makes you happy and then keeping with it even though it makes you sad.

mistful has answered the eternal question-- i always knew she could :D it's all about seeing sky and chanting that same old tune you knew when you were young. the one you only remember the first groggy starbursty moment you wake up and the second before you go to sleep.

love is all about the happy. people who say happiness isn't everything are grumpy, sad people aren't they?? *laughs* this is spam, isn't it -.-

but i truly think she's on to something. i love everyone who makes me happy, and the happier they make me, the more i love them. in fact, how can i not love what/who makes me happy? it seems impossible. and then of course, you love them/it so much, that you'd stored it inside you, and keep it for rainy days, and for windy days, and you pull it around you like a cloak. or maybe you find that reserve inside yourself, where the love/happiness is always flowing from the tap like good frothy beer. and that person just has the right swish-and-flick pokey wand trick to puncture your defenses and get the love-beer to flow :D

*laughs* you'd think i actually -drank- beer, which i don't. but hey, inspiration is where you find it.
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``He smiled, and unbuttoned his shirt. And either he was packing heat, or he was, indeed, glad to see me."

*laughs* i think i might read `Malfoy, P.I.' after all, if this is anything like a taste of things to come, oh baby, i am so, so there. oh yeah :D
*wibble* i will never be this good-- i think i'm never showing any of y'all my smut after all... *wibble*

Comments

[lasultrix.livejournal.com]

(Maya's sitting beside me, btw, and she says: "I can't believe she thought I was being deep; I was drunk!" But I can tell when Maya's serious, and she's happy you thought that, and she secretly thinks it's right herself. You don't have to believe me; that's just my interpretation. Teehee, I just kissed her ear.)

Anyway, I'm commenting because today she and I were talking about what we value in people, and what we seek out, and I realised that I'm quite fucked up in that respect. I don't like people that make me happy, exactly, or at least, not in such a direct way. I like people who are superior to me. I need to seek out those who excel and who are better than me, even though it tends to cause me a lot of angst along the way, and has, I think, led to me picking completely the wrong college course instead of Maths.

*sigh*

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

hee~:) ya gotta be careful with that, or someone might take away your straight!girl badge ;D
(btw, i wouldn't worry, i've had people nag me and my mom about being lesbians when we were coming home with her arms around my shoulders or something like that o_0 hehehee men and their dirty minds, i tell ya ;)

oh, and i think it's perfectly normal to admire & be drawn to people because they are better at something you want to be, but aren't yet. i'm this way with lots of writers-- i totally fall in love if i feel they write better than me. i've never actually had any sort of actual romantic entanglement with a brilliant arrogant too-good-to-lick-the-boots-of writer, but oh man oh man, would i enjoy it :D i mean, if you have an appreciation of a -quality-, you naturally would be drawn to greater and greater concentrations of that quality-- intelligence, musicality, poeticism, analytical-mindedness, insight, visual technique, etc.-- anything, really.

in this case it's probably different than liking/enjoying the person, and being drawn to something purely because it makes you happy-- i think it still makes you happy, in the end, but since you are in a way competing in your mind, it sours. people are complicated like that. after all, if you aren't being challenged, things are kind of boring. i'm like that too-- challenge is my drug-- if i'm not challenging myself (in art, or relationships, in studies, or whatever), i'm pretty much bored and out of there.

i think you can have a healty relationship where you grow as a person from an association with what you see as greatness. i mean, i suppose you can just be a muse, but i think it's more fulfilling to be kind of inspired yourself, to attain greater heights because you see the other person reaching them. and it would be such a great feeling to feel competitive and on-the-level, if/when you do, with someone like that. so much more rewarding. i definitely get that whole challenge thing-- heh. being a h/d shipper it's almost inevitable i go for conflict and challenge~:)

i suppose i love what makes me happy, i mean, not really particularly -fall- in romantic love. i think it takes more-- some spice, some spark, something special, to go "all the way" about something. something to push you, to compel you, something that's not fluffy and satisfying-- it's all about seeking satisfaction, after all~:)

erm. or something like that ^^;;

~reena