~~wherein i wax pervy

[reenka]

ever since the whole coincidence of the chihuahua/taco-bell-dog imagery coming from different directions in the fandom (i don't remember who said what anymore, but i know it's the fault of vanityfair, ztrin and/or epicyclical one way or the other, but then, their mind-control abilities were always obvious ^_^;;), i've had the urge to start my entries, or just things i write in general with, "yo quiero, taco bell!" ><;;
gahd. what's next??

er. anyway. marysiak updated her `circles of influence' fic (the sequel to the semi-known `the marks we bear'). a lot of great fics have been updated-- and ip is scaring me, but in a good way. still, i'll need some cocoa before i can read it, i think. or ice-cream. yes...! i'll go get a bunch of ice-cream and print out all of ip and ......*has epicurean visions coming out of her ears*

the reason i bring up that particular update is because well-- i'd decided, two or three months later now, that it wasn't such a good fic, really, even though i was really into it, back in the beginning when i wasn't too sure about the characterizations of h & d in my head. but. i read the last few chapters (& that's unusual for me, 'cause i tend to forget the plot/direction of a fic like, two weeks later, enough to warrant re-reading, because there's just so damn many h/d fics now & they're not all that original). and i realize i was right, even though the characterizations are... iffy... it "does" it for me, still.

and why, you may wonder.
both are basketcases, depressive, whiny, touchy-feely, insecure, and desperate for each other to the point of insanely high melodrama. except harry is wibbling 'cause he's afraid being draco's boyfriend makes him a freak. *coughs embarrassedly*
well, i'll tell you.
i'll tell you why it's a goodfic and not a badfic, ok. i'll tell you.

feel free not to tell me if you don't respect me anymore.
ahem. it's because of the sex, dammit.
yes.
it's bloody HOT. it is..!
maybe not the most objective, good critique method, but it works for me. i'd even liked some harry/snape once upon a time, because again, those fics get -hot-. yesh they dooo, mah pretties.
     most slash realizes that hotness & sexual tension are important, even if your characters -don't- hate each other in any way shape or form. so, without personal tension, what do you have?? yes! it's sexual tension, babay, and oh...my....gahd... but marysia's fics have it. yum.
her and phatgirl (oh.... phatgirl.... *cries* that was some beautiful smut, right there, even if there wasn't enough of it) and dahlia_777 and antenora (oh... my... frikkin... gahd) and aja (hehehee, that's sort of funny actually). but as i was saying, unlike the other slash/yaoi fandoms, hp seems to not go in for the Shagging Is The Holy Grail type thing as much. and that's good, it is. no, really. *coughs* really.

not that i'm saying `circles of influence' is about shagging-as-grail, mind you. it's got over-the-top emotional melodrama (yes, i'm a sucker. at least i don't watch soaps and read romance novels. anymore. ok? yes. ok.) it's even got some sort of plot, not that i care much. *coughs again*

anyway, what i'm saying is...
why can't there be more smut??! i mean. why does all the smut get written for other fandoms, even though the writers intersect? i'm probably reading the wrong stories aren't i. *long-suffering sigh* yea, i probably am... i blame all the juvenile-crush fics and the deathfics in this fandom. *sticks out tongue*

and even when you do get smut, it's like, more of a tension, emotional/physical battling, where you get all this unresolved lust going on. undeveloped, sporadic, violent lust. and don't get me wrong, i love that. er. so what am i saying? i guess i'm saying i love this fandom and not "there should be more smut". still, old habits die hard, and i still adore the good-old sex-crazed!harry fic. what? i do. he's hot, even if he -is- a pathetic over-weepy loser ><;;

in other news, i actually have something else to be excited about, besides smutfics (*gasp*! *faint*!) um.... i'm taking a `visual journalling" class, and i adore the concept and i'm going to have so. much. fun. oh yes. funfunfun. not as much as naked-h/d fun would entail, but, you know, nothing is that much fun ;) kidding, kidding, jeez. i'm not some pervy wizard-fancier or anything o_0
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P.S.~~ hey, if anyone's curious, i did write a long-ass response to thamiris' latest query re: conscious/unconscious fanon/canon template mixing while writing fanfic (how's -that- for over-metaing a meta concept. heh.)
    um. also, this drabblet almost inspired some ginny-love on my part. i have Sinned.

and dude. i wish we talked more meta 'round these parts. *sniffs*
oh meta, how i lurve thee.....

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[unstasis.livejournal.com]

Or.. I guess I should really msay in addition to instead of or, but...
One could say that one is dealing with an abstraction or indirect symbol of some even or object instead of the thing itself.

I think a good quote (and I wish I knew where it was from off the top of my head since my head uses it so often when rambling to itself or others about the topics of metaness (thus talking about metaness as an abstraction withinitself making it double meta or metameta, but I digress, and in thus digressing am I creating a whole new level of abstraction within my abstraction or is it some fractional level so it is some sort of fractal dimension analog of the meic brine.. umm but I'm getting lost in my digression (my digression transgressions?) and garbling my message (if I had any originally) by letting myself get sidetracked in an abstract discussion about abstract discussion.. et al))))) (note I didn't count how many layers I went in because it probably doesn't matter anyway)

But the quote (and I might be off so lets pretnd its a paraphrase so I don't have to go to bother of actually looking something up and researching it)..

But the word is not the thing, but it is indeed just a symbol for the thing. We often mistake the thing for the word.. ohh I did some research and this seems at least one thorough oroinall like work on the subject though when you get to the root of the beginning or transcendental postmodernist abstract suprameta thought.. is it really true to say there is one true root? Probably but for now hereis the poem that seems to deal with it most. Sorry for lenght.. do comments on comments appear in friends books and thus "spam" many a sould with too many words? if so I'm sorry... not for myself, but for reenka who would have been the indirectly the cause of this posing but.. umm anyway,,, the message that relates and I was trying to quote about is at the end...

The Game of Living
by Milton Dawes

The game of living can be fun
But we must learn some rules.
Not only rules of this 'n that
But rules about the rules.
There're lots and lots of rules to learn
And rules it suits us to unlearn.
There're rules to learn from those like us
Also from others not like us.
There's much to learn from those we like
Also from those we do not like.

There're rules to learn from streams and trees
From skies and clouds and birds and bees.
Rules to learn from young and old
And from the timid and the bold.
Lots to learn from trying things out
And from being still, and sitting things out.

The game of living can be fun, if we but learn some rules.
One has to have an open mind, and must be curious too.
And if each day that comes along we learn just one thing new,
And if we learn to listen well - to see what we can hear,
And if we practice looking - just to hear what we can see,
And if the rules I make for me , are not for others, too,
And if you create your own rules from rules some make for you
Then we will not be ruled by rules
If we can rule our rules.

Here are some rules to think about.
You have the tools to check them out.
I give my meanings to your words,
You give your meanings to my words,
And if you tell me what you mean,
I still do not know what you mean.
If we assign some truth to this
Let's think about meanings we give
And many meanings we miss giving.

A word is not the thing it stands for.
The word 'moon' doesn't shine at night.
Things are not what we say they are,
A thing is not its given name.
There're no two things that are the same
Not even one thing stays the same.

To better understand ourselves and others,
To better understand the world around us,
Metaphors work better for us.

This is like that; this is not that.
If two things seem to be the same,
Look closely at the way you look
For differences that are always there.

If what I see isn't all there is....
Then what I know might not be so.
If what you see is not my view,
How can we know which view is true?


The world we live in has its rules.
It does not care about our rules.
So when we think we know for sure ...
Let's pause a while to learn some more.