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reenkaI've passed a milestone.
...Instead of torturing myself by actually finishing an H/D ficlet that was making me want to tear out my hair, grinding my teeth and cursing existence, I, uh... clicked the little X.
Ahhh, freeeedommm..... ^^;;;;
No, seriously, I generally at least skim to the end. But now I was being strong and like, NO! YOU WILL NOT DO THIS TO ME, H/D!! HA! ...And now for something to wash my brain...
Though I seriously could not buy one single word, and that didn't used to happen to me. I actually stopped at the sex. I was like, I DON'T CARE IF THEY FUCK OR NOT, I DON'T CARE -WHAT- THEY DO, OKAY.
And that might be why I didn't think I was like 'those other people' imposing their 'contracts' onto writers; I never mean to impose, only wanting to find my own niche. A Harmonian, for instance, is sure H/Hr works and wants the writer to acknowledge that-- it's not like I'm sure H/D doesn't work and want any H/D writer to 'acknowledge' it. It's more like a feeling that if you're going to take me along for a ride I don't see myself on already (like JKR did with Harry/Ginny), then you should carry the 'burden of proof'. And this works in specific types of longfics and in HP canon, in theory, but not in PWPs, obviously. But then, who writes non-PWP short-to-medium length H/D fics that don't rely on 'cheats' of reader contract (pre-suspended disbelief)? Few to none.
The sad thing is, thinking of my own fics-- I rarely-to-never set them up enough to really take most people 'along for the ride', which is why I'm not that well-known, I guess, and people tell me my stuff is 'confusing'. I do tend to write in shorthand (lj entries, too-- which is why most of the time the comments go like, basically 'what? is -that- what you just said?' and I'm like 'nono, -this- is what I said', and then, 'oh, okay, well then, I do/don't agree but whatevers.') However, every major complaint I ever have with a short post-HBP H/D fic these days (which I don't think I'm -ever- guilty of) is that they assume Harry is interested in Draco (and often Draco's like 'ahhh well I don't really care, tralala'). I'm like '..... .... .... ..... .....NOT'. So really, uh... biased, yeah, though if I was wrong and canon!Harry was obviously as Dracosexual as fic would have it, I would actually stop liking H/D in general because that really turns me off.
I mean, without that bedrock angst of 'I want him but I hate him but I'll get him' coming from Draco's side and the incoherent 'ARG MALFOY! WHAT IS HE DOING??! ARG! WHY IS HIS HAIR SO SHINY?? HE IS SUCH A PRICK!' from Harry's... it's just not my baby anymore :( Alas. No one writes fic like that anymore :P (...And then people wonder why I torture Draco & don't let him have Harry in my shortfics. Well, after all the fics with Harry pining away for no good reason as cool, collected Draco throws out one-liners... I dunno, it accumulates....) Though honestly, in some ways I wonder if this could partly be a case of the ship having moved on without me, post-HBP, but at the same time... at the same time it seems almost painfully absurd, in a way, writing what amounts to fluff under the circumstances. But then H/D fluff was always absurd-- now it's just... like nails across a chalkboard for me. -.-
(This sort of makes me realize just how important suspension of disbelief is to fiction in general, romance in particular & PWP H/D fic in specific, ahahah. If you're at that point where you don't -want- to buy it, you should know better than to read PWP fic just to prove to yourself that... well, you don't buy it, I guess.)
On a vaguely unrelated note, how could anyone even pose the question of whether Harry/Cedric is the 'new' H/D? H/D isn't a... isn't... a -type-. Isn't like some sort of dominant paradigm (the One Ring?) that rules all slash fandom-- I mean, geez, there's H/S and S/R to make it a triumvirate at the very least. I'm almost (almost!) in the mood for post-HBP H/S, actually, but I really am very (VERY) afraid as to what people have done to it. I can only shudder and hide.
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pir8fancier's latest fic at least to start with-- what with the snark & the cute. If Harry pines after Draco here too (and I'm okay with it), I'll laugh myself silly :>
Note: am apparently disturbingly easy to pacify with usage of cute insults and Ron ragging on Draco ♥♥♥ Perhaps the problem is really reading authors I don't trust in the first place. But then most of those no longer write HP, forget H/D. Alas.
With his last bite, a very evil thought occurred to Harry. Part of him acknowledged it was a thoroughly vile idea, perhaps even uncharacteristically brutal. But the part of him that wanted to haul back and break his knuckles against Malfoy's face gave him an enthusiastic pat on the back and cheered, "Do it, mate."
...*cries* I love H/D again, wah!!1 MY BABY!!!11!1
Ahhh, Harry&Draco are sniping like the immature brats they are once again and all is right with the world ♥♥♥ I think-- I think if I fed myself a diet of at least 10-15 more of fics like this, I'd be actually inspired again, ahahaha :> As is, I'm just relieved I'm not the only one that likes them more the more they hate each other (...in a cute sort of way or... not.) ♥ And by the time the pangs of conscience roll around, I'm already hooked, all line & sinker & everything. Awww. Well, see, still Dracosexual but at least he's in denial... er... *coughs shiftily*
EDIT #2 - And yes, `Boxing Day' is Really Quite Good in terms of structure/plot/language, but.... It doesn't have that -shine- for me, that ability to make me fall in love, I guess--? There's a vague feeling that I both know & don't know who these people are & why they're attracted to one another, I guess. They interact in interesting ways without really -sparking-. Well, I don't think it's quite a romance, exactly, anyway. I guess I wouldn't call it a shippy fic like the other one, perhaps.
...Instead of torturing myself by actually finishing an H/D ficlet that was making me want to tear out my hair, grinding my teeth and cursing existence, I, uh... clicked the little X.
Ahhh, freeeedommm..... ^^;;;;
No, seriously, I generally at least skim to the end. But now I was being strong and like, NO! YOU WILL NOT DO THIS TO ME, H/D!! HA! ...And now for something to wash my brain...
Though I seriously could not buy one single word, and that didn't used to happen to me. I actually stopped at the sex. I was like, I DON'T CARE IF THEY FUCK OR NOT, I DON'T CARE -WHAT- THEY DO, OKAY.
And that might be why I didn't think I was like 'those other people' imposing their 'contracts' onto writers; I never mean to impose, only wanting to find my own niche. A Harmonian, for instance, is sure H/Hr works and wants the writer to acknowledge that-- it's not like I'm sure H/D doesn't work and want any H/D writer to 'acknowledge' it. It's more like a feeling that if you're going to take me along for a ride I don't see myself on already (like JKR did with Harry/Ginny), then you should carry the 'burden of proof'. And this works in specific types of longfics and in HP canon, in theory, but not in PWPs, obviously. But then, who writes non-PWP short-to-medium length H/D fics that don't rely on 'cheats' of reader contract (pre-suspended disbelief)? Few to none.
The sad thing is, thinking of my own fics-- I rarely-to-never set them up enough to really take most people 'along for the ride', which is why I'm not that well-known, I guess, and people tell me my stuff is 'confusing'. I do tend to write in shorthand (lj entries, too-- which is why most of the time the comments go like, basically 'what? is -that- what you just said?' and I'm like 'nono, -this- is what I said', and then, 'oh, okay, well then, I do/don't agree but whatevers.') However, every major complaint I ever have with a short post-HBP H/D fic these days (which I don't think I'm -ever- guilty of) is that they assume Harry is interested in Draco (and often Draco's like 'ahhh well I don't really care, tralala'). I'm like '..... .... .... ..... .....NOT'. So really, uh... biased, yeah, though if I was wrong and canon!Harry was obviously as Dracosexual as fic would have it, I would actually stop liking H/D in general because that really turns me off.
I mean, without that bedrock angst of 'I want him but I hate him but I'll get him' coming from Draco's side and the incoherent 'ARG MALFOY! WHAT IS HE DOING??! ARG! WHY IS HIS HAIR SO SHINY?? HE IS SUCH A PRICK!' from Harry's... it's just not my baby anymore :( Alas. No one writes fic like that anymore :P (...And then people wonder why I torture Draco & don't let him have Harry in my shortfics. Well, after all the fics with Harry pining away for no good reason as cool, collected Draco throws out one-liners... I dunno, it accumulates....) Though honestly, in some ways I wonder if this could partly be a case of the ship having moved on without me, post-HBP, but at the same time... at the same time it seems almost painfully absurd, in a way, writing what amounts to fluff under the circumstances. But then H/D fluff was always absurd-- now it's just... like nails across a chalkboard for me. -.-
(This sort of makes me realize just how important suspension of disbelief is to fiction in general, romance in particular & PWP H/D fic in specific, ahahah. If you're at that point where you don't -want- to buy it, you should know better than to read PWP fic just to prove to yourself that... well, you don't buy it, I guess.)
On a vaguely unrelated note, how could anyone even pose the question of whether Harry/Cedric is the 'new' H/D? H/D isn't a... isn't... a -type-. Isn't like some sort of dominant paradigm (the One Ring?) that rules all slash fandom-- I mean, geez, there's H/S and S/R to make it a triumvirate at the very least. I'm almost (almost!) in the mood for post-HBP H/S, actually, but I really am very (VERY) afraid as to what people have done to it. I can only shudder and hide.
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pir8fancier's latest fic at least to start with-- what with the snark & the cute. If Harry pines after Draco here too (and I'm okay with it), I'll laugh myself silly :>Note: am apparently disturbingly easy to pacify with usage of cute insults and Ron ragging on Draco ♥♥♥ Perhaps the problem is really reading authors I don't trust in the first place. But then most of those no longer write HP, forget H/D. Alas.
With his last bite, a very evil thought occurred to Harry. Part of him acknowledged it was a thoroughly vile idea, perhaps even uncharacteristically brutal. But the part of him that wanted to haul back and break his knuckles against Malfoy's face gave him an enthusiastic pat on the back and cheered, "Do it, mate."
...*cries* I love H/D again, wah!!1 MY BABY!!!11!1
Ahhh, Harry&Draco are sniping like the immature brats they are once again and all is right with the world ♥♥♥ I think-- I think if I fed myself a diet of at least 10-15 more of fics like this, I'd be actually inspired again, ahahaha :> As is, I'm just relieved I'm not the only one that likes them more the more they hate each other (...in a cute sort of way or... not.) ♥ And by the time the pangs of conscience roll around, I'm already hooked, all line & sinker & everything. Awww. Well, see, still Dracosexual but at least he's in denial... er... *coughs shiftily*
EDIT #2 - And yes, `Boxing Day' is Really Quite Good in terms of structure/plot/language, but.... It doesn't have that -shine- for me, that ability to make me fall in love, I guess--? There's a vague feeling that I both know & don't know who these people are & why they're attracted to one another, I guess. They interact in interesting ways without really -sparking-. Well, I don't think it's quite a romance, exactly, anyway. I guess I wouldn't call it a shippy fic like the other one, perhaps.
