~~thankyou

[reenka]

mirrors: wow. i've said it before and i'll say it again... people who mention the texture of tomatoes and eggs naturally in a fic, have my eternal admiration :) ha.

i dunno if i like fanfic's fluffy-face or drama-face better. they're both unique-- though definitely i want to laugh. i like to laugh. if i wasn't laughing, i'd be angstying, and we CAN'T HAVE THAT, now can we.

well, even though draco's a bastard--
see what i like about him is--
he's just-- so-- beautiful.

how can a girl resist?
you could put such beautiful words in his mouth. and just... love... when it springs from -that-, is so-- miraculous, isn't it? i mean, love is always miraculous. but h/d is just miracles-r-us, isn't it? so symmetrical and archetypical. gives one -hope-, i mean, if harry and draco could find understanding and love-- we definitely can.

i was watching 'beautiful thing', which is this cute brit-tv movie (about boys snogging). but like. dammit. they were cute, and sort-of angsty... but... it's not the "boys snogging" that does it for me. it's the... believability of the improbable, impossible, the victory of the beautiful over the dross and pain and disillusionments of life. and i think this film was -trying- to be about that. and it wasn't completely failing-- it was sweet. but i didn't -need- these boys to be together. i didn't find and lose myself in them. if draco and harry just suddenly -wake up-, it's like-- you want to cheer. in order to get there they had to get over -so much-, had to become -more- than they were, more open, more free. not just a little, but a LOT. they had to rip themselves open and sew themselves back together again. they had to believe they could -fly-.

i so want that. i so want love to be able to do that. i so want there to be hope. and passion. and miracles. the miracle of finding ourselves, the miracle of finding each other, and the miracle of finding ourselves -in the mirror- of the other.

thanks & love to all the authors who ever made me believe.

P.S. I just wanted to say, Bach [Organ Fugue in G minor], rocks my sweet, sweet world. Wow. Genius. I do so love genius. Yummy genius! Me want Bach Jr., for breeding purposes :) heh. Amazing. The man is amazing. So is Mozart, and Chopin, & Tchaikovsky, & Beethoven, and so on and so forth. When I was 6, I'd tell anyone who'd listen-- Irina likes (in order) #1: Mozart; #2: Bach; #3: Tchaikovsky. See, I always had good taste :)

P.P.S. Wheeeee..! fiiiiiics~! thezeppo's harry b-day fic is trés cool, and nifty, and has blunt!harry in it. did i ever say i love blunt!harry? goddamn, i love him..! aaaaack *runs screaming*

plus saber shadowkitten wrote something new..! and it ROCKS, hardcore... *snickers* "the Potter Rescue and Torment Society"-- god, just that, is enough to make me loff her :) double-agent!draco, hee. what a cutie pie *shnoogles dwako* ;>
*double aaaaaack* now...now........now for rhysenn, goddamn it...! *triple aaaack and more screaming* ;p

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[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

thank youuu :)
but without you, and all the rest of the divine storytellers that made it (love & magic) so real to me, i would be just sitting here sniffling and thinking how unfair life is, probably. most of the time, i really need them, myself, to remind me what i already know, those words. i'm happy it's a circle :)

a lot of times, i get kind of boggled in the "reality" of it all, and forget that to change reality, you have to imagine yourself beyond it. you have to imagine that world, create it with your own words and feelings.

that gets to be pretty trying at times (like, now-- happy endings seem particularly far away)-- but one can keep looking up, and trying to taste the stars, anyway. you may not swallow them, but at least you came that much closer. well, in your imagination that is :)
but yeah, it means a lot, because most definitely, you've inspired me, more than once ~:)

~reena~