here we go again...
Sep. 11th, 2006 11:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenkaYou know, me being me, I didn't know what day it was till I saw my flist. But. I'll just link you to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
furiosity's post & be done with it, 'cause there's too much I want to say & since I'm at my mom's in NYC, maybe I'll go walk around downtown. I think it's funny, btw, that my feeling is that if I'd realized today was the 11th a week ago, I'd have finished the Draco deathfic I'd wanted to post for the first anniversary. It sounds stupid, but that was a really difficult story for me to write because of the subject-matter, and... I really do deal with things in terms of story. I could write the longest rant in the world, and it wouldn't tell you how I feel, what things mean to me, the way a story would. It's a funny old world.
Maybe I'll go and take pictures of downtown, develop them and post them later tonight. That sounds good, right? Well, it's something to do, anyway, so I'll do it.
In other news, the currently-anon The Way to Thomason Foss is probably my favorite H/D fic for awhile now. Especially their first scene just sparkles with-- I dunno, something that's uniquely Harry & Draco-- the dialogue there, the sort of awkward hostility and attraction and posturing that seems to be how it would have to happen. It makes me all frowny 'cause it's hard for me to write them that way, without all the weight of backstory and harsher emotion weighting it down-- but this is what I fell in love with, 4 years ago.
The rest of the fic is definitely not the same-- it jumps ahead a lot, and turns into a better-than-average post-Hogwarts romance of a sort I see all the time, though I like Draco's continuing denial & stubbornness as well as Harry's. What I've missed in fics, though, is that first scene-- not some sort of romantic progression, but a snapshot of how their rough edges fit against each other, the whinging about the heat and Draco being a total prat with his lame insults and Harry being needled anyway and... them both being immature asshats who can't keep their hands or eyes off each other. Ahh.
The problem is that it becomes pretty lame if the pattern repeats long enough-- it becomes predictable, a frustrating game of cat and mouse when played by their adult selves. That's why I think Harry and Draco would have to change through and by their association-- but in a way, I don't want to see it and in a way I do. It's really almost as odd for me as it would be for them, in that sense.
I want to think of them that way, still. The world in the background, them hidden behind a waterfall: two boys testing the water between them, not swimming nor drowning. Maybe it's not important in the grand scheme of things, or maybe it's what one starts with. A single moment where one could no longer pretend.
~~
Holy crap, the second Kirk/Spock vid I've seen set to 'Closer', and it is HILARIOUS. >:D
furiosity's post & be done with it, 'cause there's too much I want to say & since I'm at my mom's in NYC, maybe I'll go walk around downtown. I think it's funny, btw, that my feeling is that if I'd realized today was the 11th a week ago, I'd have finished the Draco deathfic I'd wanted to post for the first anniversary. It sounds stupid, but that was a really difficult story for me to write because of the subject-matter, and... I really do deal with things in terms of story. I could write the longest rant in the world, and it wouldn't tell you how I feel, what things mean to me, the way a story would. It's a funny old world.Maybe I'll go and take pictures of downtown, develop them and post them later tonight. That sounds good, right? Well, it's something to do, anyway, so I'll do it.
In other news, the currently-anon The Way to Thomason Foss is probably my favorite H/D fic for awhile now. Especially their first scene just sparkles with-- I dunno, something that's uniquely Harry & Draco-- the dialogue there, the sort of awkward hostility and attraction and posturing that seems to be how it would have to happen. It makes me all frowny 'cause it's hard for me to write them that way, without all the weight of backstory and harsher emotion weighting it down-- but this is what I fell in love with, 4 years ago.
The rest of the fic is definitely not the same-- it jumps ahead a lot, and turns into a better-than-average post-Hogwarts romance of a sort I see all the time, though I like Draco's continuing denial & stubbornness as well as Harry's. What I've missed in fics, though, is that first scene-- not some sort of romantic progression, but a snapshot of how their rough edges fit against each other, the whinging about the heat and Draco being a total prat with his lame insults and Harry being needled anyway and... them both being immature asshats who can't keep their hands or eyes off each other. Ahh.
The problem is that it becomes pretty lame if the pattern repeats long enough-- it becomes predictable, a frustrating game of cat and mouse when played by their adult selves. That's why I think Harry and Draco would have to change through and by their association-- but in a way, I don't want to see it and in a way I do. It's really almost as odd for me as it would be for them, in that sense.
I want to think of them that way, still. The world in the background, them hidden behind a waterfall: two boys testing the water between them, not swimming nor drowning. Maybe it's not important in the grand scheme of things, or maybe it's what one starts with. A single moment where one could no longer pretend.
~~
Holy crap, the second Kirk/Spock vid I've seen set to 'Closer', and it is HILARIOUS. >:D
