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In other news... tech customer service people (in general) continue their ongoing quest to drive me insane with their idiocy -.-;; This particular guy actually charged me three-- nearly four-- times the actual amount as an "approximate" price, and somehow it's my fault for not knowing he'd be so incompetent and checking up earlier. *sigh* Not that I would get like this if you just overcharged me, but at least don't make it seem like it doesn't matter, holy Christ....... ^^;;;

Also: has anyone noticed that intelligent guys are yet somehow... just... lamer than intelligent girls?? Or maybe it's that the common lack of emotional intelligence to go along with the 'other' intelligence in males continues to make me feel vaguely disappointed in the human race in general. I dunno. FEH. This is what happens when I sidetrack from taking a simple test & actually look at the rest of OkCupid, I think :>

Umm... actually I just wanted to make a post about something like...
I've noticed that there might be a difference between 'reading' and 'fannish reading'.

For instance. Uh. Well, I was looking at & skimming James Patterson's latest YA book, 'Maximum Ride', which is easy to read until you realize how much it SUCKS. So I'm completely capable of realizing things suck (and in fact I decide that a lot), and critical reading is not the issue. Sometimes I keep reading after that realization, but in my experience this only happens when there's porn and/or my OTP involved. Otherwise, really, what's the point?

It seems like if I decide I -like- a book or fic or whatever, there's a point after which I just... become accepting. Like, I'm more likely to think 'okay, this is lame... but moving on' and not really pay attention, than I am to fixate and go 'omg, SO STUPID' *mockitymockmockmock* if I want to have a continued pleasant reading experience, especially if there's no porn there to otherwise distract me. So....
I'm just wondering if the tendency to be both actively critical and enjoy the ride is something that's uniquely fannish (as in, a fannish 'style' of reading). Not just critical vs. non-critical-and-worshipful (as the wank wars often go), but a tendency for a certain kind of... running analysis. Which isn't to say I don't do analysis of what I read or watch, because I do it... um, 'softer'. Does that even make sense? I can think without judging unless I consciously try to, maybe that's it. I dunno. Is the judging fannish or just a personality thing? Ack, I'm lost.

In any case, when I read the Song of Ice & Fire series and any other book that's full of adventure and the capacity to 'carry one away', I fully take advantage of that. I -want- to be carried away, and I suppose I do read and watch stuff for escapist value. I mean, I'm also analytical, but the whole nature of the typical interface between fannishness, analysis & escapism keeps on confusing me :/

Maybe I should just accept it -is- a personality thing and shut up, 'cause the evidence sure points that way. I know a number of people who like similar things to me but can't enjoy them without pointing out all the flaws they see, apparently compulsively. I too can do that easily enough, but it would annoy me first and foremost, so generally I try not to go there unless I like what I'm over-analyzing or I have an axe to grind that's more important than having fun. Possibly the personality angle just seems off to me 'cause I haven't found anyone else who's both this analytical and escapist :/

EDIT - Forgot! This longish (90p!!) H/D doujin called Itaike no Shizuka ['Innocent Drops'??] just got released, so I thought I'd upload it for you guys, here <3<3<3 hee. I'm just a sucker for the H/D ones :>