[wheee, vigilanteees!!1]

[reenka]

When people (who're pretty much guaranteed to have never commented) defriend me these days, only one question sticks in my mind: 'What do they -want-??!' Like, what were they looking for that they suddenly stopped finding?? It's like, a question for the ages, since I have literally no clue why people read this lj (outside people who continue to tolerate me 'cause for some odd reason they like me).
    Anyway, if I thought it was that they wanted H/D pr0n (unlikely, considering that most of my anemic little fics get pretty much ignored), I could say I'm still planning to release my novella (possibly unbeta'd, but hey!) on my birthday, which is like... uh, a little more than 2 weeks from now. I know, I know, I better start writing (...heh). If it was for HP meta, I could whip it up, except... there's really no way anyone wants to see me rant about fanon!Draco -again-, so I've kind of avoided following fandom, ahahah. Oh man.

So. Basically, this entry has no point-- except I'm on lj, so I'm posting. If I'm not posting, I'm not on lj (and possibly I'm not reading lj even if I'm posting). So it's pretty hard to believe some people read and don't write (comments or posts). I mean, theoretically I'm all over that concept, but the stubborn part of me says: 'BUT HOW COULD ANYONE HAVE NOTHING TO SAY IF THEY'RE INTERESTED' (which just shows you how solipsistic I am). I mean, some people have brains wired direct to their bits, right. Clearly, I have my brain wired to my fingers (meaning, I don't think, I just write-- ha! fooled you, right?). Uh, but that's neither here nor there.

Anyway, I'm still watching insane amounts of Alias (omg, MICHAEL IS EVIL AHAHAHAHAHlfakjslkajflkafljk YESSS!) umm... and I've been reading Jim Butcher's Harry Dresden: Wizard for Hire series, which is awesome. He's all snarky and everything, pretty much all the time. Like, he's the snarkiest wizard ALIVE. The Harry (Potter) in my head is a lot like him when he's grown-up, hehe (and you can see why fanfic!Harry often annoys me if you consider that Harry Dresden is my preferred fanon, 'cause -very- few people write Dresden-like!Harry). Plus, there's all kinds of nifty logical ways that the magic works-- not overly rational, it's just that it makes sense.
    I love it when people write stuff that's funny, action-packed and logical while being fantastical, and with all these fights that don't seem like extraneous fan-service to me the way they do in shounen manga/anime. If it had just a -little- less simplistic vampire/demon/bad-guy stuff, I'd be totally happy (I know, I'm such a girl).

Speaking of simplistic bad-guy stuff... I found a great summary of what's wrong with over-simplifying things in Alias (Bendis' comic), so I thought I'd reproduce it here:
    

Comments

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

are you going to be in brooklyn next week?

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm here now and was going to go home in a few days, but I could always staaayyy... um, though I have to nip home before the 24th for a bit ^^;; Whatcha have in mind? :>

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

long story short, i shall be immersed in the environs of the bronx starting about saturday. i'd like to see you for dinner or something, if the schlep into brooklyn isn't too ridiculous, and if you're going to be around. if not, i understand! go stalk me at my latest post (ignore job whining pls), it'll probably be easier. :D

[wobblygoblin.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I think people don't comment because they are intimidated by you. Like, usually I am nodding my head along with you when I read your entries and all the meta a philosophy they sometimes involve, but when I stumble across something I might disagree with I sort of ask myself:

"Yes, but do I really want to comment and engage someone that clever, when there is a possibility that it might lead to the discovery of my illusory intelligence, revealing it for the sham that it is? Uh, neg-a-tive. I shall just keep her friended and read on."

;)

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Ahahah, yeah, I've heard that before & I think I forget that reason 'cause it sort of hurts my head to imagine myself that way. Anyone who like, knows me in real life or even more online would likely say I'm the least intimidating person -ever-, or at least... uh, that's what I gather by the fact that most of my friends pick on me ^^;;; *cough* Even with intelligent people-- and I know just what you mean!-- I get that way too, if they've got a high opinion of themselves or seem more educated than I or something... but I'm definitely not that highly educated or self-confident, so I'm like... o_0 *___* 0_o and such. :>

I think this (http://reenka.expecto-patronum.net/temp/hee6.jpg) is as intimidating as I get. I pretty much look like I tasted something sour-- I was trying to be all sexy and dangerous, though :D :D

Anyway, I love to discuss things and generally realize I'm at least -somewhat- wrong no matter who I talk to, mostly 'cause I'm rarely armed with facts and figures, y'know? So everything is kinda up in the air :D ...including my head...

[wobblygoblin.livejournal.com]

Hehe. It is less of a sour look and more of an ironic sigh-look-what-the-world-is-up-to-now sort of look. My look goes sort of like this (http://wobblygoblins.com/images/pickachures/NOWAI.gif). (I am kind of excitable. ;p)

Man, I had this adorably Nazi English teacher in high school who flat out refused to let us generalize things or make arguments without supporting facts. So now I am nervous about entering into any form of dialogue with someone without being knowledgeable about the subject beforehand because the ghost of Mr. Wilson hovers over my left shoulder. XD But for the record, you definitely come across as a smart'un. ;)

[sistermagpie.livejournal.com]

Jim Butcher commented on my lj once.:-D I remember going to B&N the next week to get one of his books but they didn't have the first one or something...? Which is a good one to start with?

If it helps your peace of mind (why do I think it won't?) I figure most people go through phases where they realize that they're interests have changed and just now they're going to clear out their lj of people from old fandoms or something. Or maybe some people like to lose a friend for every new friend to keep the number the same? I don't know!

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hee! That's awesome-- he does seem cool and down-to-earth & computer-savvy enough to have a website. Hahaha, I might even believe he reads HP fanfic :D :D Sometimes the magic concepts are somewhat similar to JKR's, except better thought-through :>
I actually started with #7, went on to #8, then read #1, and am now reading #4 to follow up with #5, so I don't think you can really go wrong since he does explain things in every volume. I think #7 ('Dead Beat (http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0451460278/103-4234190-8321444?v=glance&n=283155)') is a good one to start with 'cause... uh, that's when the pretty cover-artist starts :D I wouldn't have noticed them with the other covers. Plus, the bigger over-plot starts up around then. But you could start with #1, I just don't know if the writing is that great (though still funny)-- not on the level, y'know? It's more fun as a sort of 'ohh, so -that's- how it started'-- or at least, that's how I read it. The middle ones are interesting too, but in a way, #7 serves as an introduction to -all- of the world (pretty much), 'cause all the bad guys had been introduced already, y'know? Whereas the middle volumes all focus on one bad-guy/good-guy at a time (the vampires, the werewolves, the ghouls, whatever). Anyway, they work well as a series in that you could start anywhere if you liked that particular plot/bad-guy more than the rest :>

Oh, and actually that does reassure me, though I'll probably forget this and be paranoid again next time 'cause it's just my nature :))

[nopejr.livejournal.com]

You can be interested without having anything you feel is of interest to respond with. Self-esteem problems abound! Or something.

Bendis is way too fond of the monologue (especially as framing sequence) but he does write them well.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Man... hahahah it's hard for me to remember that sort of thing 'cause I don't think before I type so it's not like I ask myself whether what I say is interesting or relevant (.....which it probably usually isn't). It's like, WHAT DO YOU MEAN SOME PEOPLE WATCH WHAT THEY SAY?! Heh. *coughs* (...and now I feel vaguely embarrassed 'cause clearly I -don't- watch what I say... possibly this is why people think I may be arrogant or intimidating?? huh)

...Somehow, monologues don't seem as bad in comic form as in normal fiction, which is probably why I put up the pic instead of quoting, actually, ahah :D

[nopejr.livejournal.com]

You are smart! Smart people are scary! They may well be able to kill us with their brains!

I think it's 'cause you get the body language and stuff instantly without having to read it as well as the talking, so it doesn't drag on so much.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

But I'm not like that :( I'm like, a harmless weirdo, honest~:) Although somehow it sounds untrue when one just -says- it like that, I dunno what it is. It's just, I have this theory that only actually logical/rational smart people are scary-- y'know, the aggressively argumentative ones. I'm just one of those losers who rambles about nothing and acts like she's high 80% of the time ^^;; Not that I -mind- being smart... I guess... I just can't help going 'but no, that's not me, look, it's THAT PERSON OVER THERE!!1'

...and yeah, I agree. There's probably a reason people make boring stuff like the Bible into comics when they wanna appeal to younger and/or less attentive people... or maybe that's just me... er...

[nopejr.livejournal.com]

That's modesty, that is. Good sign of the truly smart person! Ah-hah! Hoist on your own petard as they say, 'cept I dunno what a petard is, so maybe that's not the right word. Hoist on something anyway!

Although usually it's the dumb people that are agreesively argumentative -- *generalises the entire population, whee* -- 'cause the smart people are all, like, "I have played this conversation out from a million angles and in all of them I win, so there's no point any more, good day sir!" and the other people are all "no u r wrongzors omgwtf!!!" (Hee! Wrongzors!)

Comics! They're like propoganda in a way!

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Haha I -wish- that was modesty-- I'm actually sort of weirdly full of myself but not in the usual way?? I dunno. I just have a distinct differencce in my mind between 'those' smart people who're logical and -good- at rational arguments (vs. stupid people-- yeah!-- who just -like- arguments for their own sake). Y'know, the people who're... uh... 'thinky'.I dunno if you know of the Myers-Briggs system, but I'm not a 'T'-- I'm intuitive, not thinky, though I -can- think-- I uh, just don't prefer to. Thinky people are different from me in a basic way, and while I get along with them & understand them, they're not my... uh, people, y'know?

So when non-thinky (touchy-feely 'F') intuitives say they're intimidated by me in any way, it's just like... a misunderstanding. I feel like it's just because of the stuff I talk about rather than who I am or what I -say- about that stuff or how I say it, most importantly. 'Cause how I say it is 'sloppily', 'over-generally' and so on. I think book-smarts or overall intelligence is important-- but that's the sort of thing that's intimidating, and that's also the sort of thing I have less of than just a tendency for creative guessing :> Anyway, it's not so bad being a Hermione type, but I'm not. I'm a Luna. Heh. I'm... 'different' ^^;; And my insistence on that is partly why I ix-nayed the 'modest' 'cause that's pretty ego-centric, y'know, to insist :>

Also, I was just thinking of the comics-as-propaganda angle recently 'cause of this quote by Terry Moore (who does Strangers in Paradise), and it also makes me wonder about how this holds up against animation or movies:
"You can read a novel and it may describe somebody shoving a crucifix up their ass, but to see it illustrated on the page and to leave that page open on your desk all day-- it haunts you. So you could use your books to do things like that, or you could illustrate the answers to life, or the cure for cancer, and put it out there for all the world to see. There it is. In your face, boom-- good or bad-- in a graphic language everybody can understand. Comics and graphics novels... they're well worth the time of grown men and women." :>

[notrafficlights.livejournal.com]

lol it's like they took your LJ posts and put it in a comic XD

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHA I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHING DRAWING ME TO IT AND NOW I KNOW WHAT IT IS!!1 *CRACKS UP OMG*

[loftily.livejournal.com]

:x! I miss you! That is really the only point of this comment.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

:X!! I miss you too!! This is the problem with only really talking on lj ^^;;; But then, I don't even talk to people I know in real life that much 'cause I'm a dweeb and avoid company until it seeks me out...

And I was thinking just recently of your fic! I mean, the friendship fic. I was actually thinking 'well, I guess it's like Amalin's version of LuW, so I need not worry about having to finish MINE' :> :> See how sensitive I am. ♥