[oh, that green-eyed boy....]

[reenka]

You know how they say you get attached to a fandom, then you drift away, but even so you stay around 'cause of the friends you make. And of course it's true for me too, though it's more like I stay around livejournal for the people, not fandom. Fandom was always mainly a vehicle to see fanfic and fanart and produce some sometimes. And unlike most people who seem to mainly like fanart as a way to see their favorite character or pairing portrayed, the sexier the better, I just like fanart as its own thing, the way I like fanfic as a 'thing'. Uh. If that makes sense.

Anyway... I was on my way to the video store to rent season 4 of Alias, and there's this poster of GoF, and... naturally, the only one I had eyes for was Harry. I literally had to restrain myself from squealing and saying 'BABY!!' out loud. I did sort of mutter it :D :D :D Omg yes, I'm still a crazed fan. Of Harry and/or anyone who remotely resembles him :> I mean, I'm not what you'd call a big Dan Radcliffe fan. It's just that it's 'okay' to think of him as Harry, and I take any excuse, ahahaha. Yeah, I'm that bad -.-

I guess-- I don't miss the H/D fics (much), writing or reading-- and I don't know if I miss the meta or even the fanart (which I still love even though it seems most of the H/D BNF fanartists are gone-- they are, aren't they?). I'm still nominally in touch with most of my old fandom friends (whenever I'm not too obsessed to read my flist), but. What I miss... what I miss now is Harry. Thinking about him, writing about him-- drawing him still comes so naturally.

It's like... it's not like I've ever really had 'something to say' about Harry the way I did with Draco. Draco's the one I could see tons of interesting fics for, the one I could play around with-- but after one reads enough fics and plays enough games, what's left is just pure affection. The simple, uncomplicated love of a character that's the most basic property of being a fan-- the first thing to come and the last to leave. Like fire.

Without even thinking about it, Harry's the one I start to mindlessly doodle. I always start with the glasses, y'know. Glasses + a huge mop of black hair = Harry <3<3<3 It's really that simple. Oh, and he has a wand, a sort of broody expression and he's apparently always around 12-14 in my head :D

I was thinking how even with most other aspects of my fannish love gone, this remains for some reason: a dark-haired boy with a fierce green gaze, staring intently at something he's holding in his palm. Staring unblinking at the flickering green light in front of him, lips slightly parted. He's thinking of the past and the future, of his parents and his girlfriend and his friends, and he's thinking of death.
    I love that boy. I always will.

Comments

[scoradh.livejournal.com]

Well ... the seminal moment of porny hotness, mebbe? I was so busy keeping my eyes peeled for this awesome hotness that I practically missed it when it did come. Perhaps if there wasn't such a build up I might actually have found it hot.

I liked the detentions and partnering too, because there was a lot of potential in it. However, I've never seen Draco sabotaging one of Harry's potions -- not once. People seemed to forget how much fun the partnering would be in and of itself, and jump right into the relationship part.

All gone now, anyway ...

It's funny, though, that there's only about two routes people take with Draco's characterisation; he's hardly ever, oh, shy, or a prude. It's just sex god or snarky bastard. Hmm.

It's not so much Seamus/Hagrid as Regulus/anyone. Seems to be the flavour of the moment. That and incest. Lovely.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

But... er... aren't there many moments of porny hotness as good or better?? This confuseth me. Though. Back when I read it (raw), it -was- the hottest thing in the fic, ahahah, such as it was. But it wasn't really that hot of a fic, so. However, it -was- kind of addictive, so it had that going for it :>

I think out of all the detention and various sundry Potions class fics I've read, -some- must have had sabotage-- in fact, I'm sure of it. Not that I can remember which :> But you're right, they did skip to the relationship too fast, but then lack of build-up is a wide-ranging problem I have with most H/D fics. No one spent quite enough time on building them up to make me happy. Actually, that's my main issue with all H/D fics everywhere :> Er, aside from absolutely horrid characterization gaffes like... ugh, I don't wanna remember ^^;;

But yeah-- not so much with the shyness (unless they're going for fluffy!sekritly-kind!Draco, which-- uh-- happens, to my shame). There is -very- little prudish!Draco, but the shining light for that characterization is probably Aspen and maybe a bit with Miss Breed (weatherby) and malafede, though she hasn't actually finished much. Myself, I prefer a prudish snarky bastard, not so much with the shy (he does have -some- established canon traits, and I think his extraversion's pretty obvious). I don't actually know if 'sex god' is a characterization type so much as a focus, ahahah. :> I suppose it means everyone wants him and that means Harry does too, but I hate that idea so much I try to block it out from my consciousness, because Harry automatically wanting Draco used to make me want to really hurt things, hahah.

I actually theoretically like Regulus, even though... uh... he has no personality in the books and I've always thought I needed the tiniest sliver of personality to work from, it being... y'know... fanfic and all that. Uh. :> But I do like the idea of Regulus (y'know, all angsty and doomed and tragic and Slytherin... who can resist?). If only... if only he had a brain :D :D