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reenkaSo I'm actually tempted to break my Alias fic virginity and go looking for stuff to read, but... the truth is, once you read people's responses to canon in any fandom, the whole experience kind of gets tainted. For me, at least, the ability to 'just enjoy and not think too hard' depends on avoiding meta, wank, fannish whining & other such sundry flavors (and before I end up explaining this, it's not like I'm knocking meta, obviously; it's just that there are different kinds of meta by different kinds of people I'd have to know first, and also-- some things are best not over-analyzed. I should know.)
I mean, is there anything less appetizing than a disgruntled nitpicky fanwank? I think I turn -myself- off HP when I rant about it, man.
It's really mostly theoretical anyway 'cause I don't feel any great fannish love for any character or pairing, just enjoyment of the whole ensemble.
EDIT - Come to think of it-- I just realized that it's not about 'over-analyzing' per se so much as just... when you talk about a show seriously or you read fic about it (which I see as another form of meta-commentary 'cause it still gives you new perspectives on the characters) you kind of... at least, -I- leave that somewhat... 'innocent' space where I can still take in developments 'unspoiled' by suspicions or reactions that aren't natural to -me-. As of now, all my reactions are 100% mine, but if I participated in fandom in any way, the show wouldn't be totally -mine- anymore. I just realized this, watching some extra footage on the DVD that was the creator's and some of the actors' commentary on the show. It just... changes one's perspective and opens you up, and that can be so positive but also kind of... I dunno... not as intimate?
I dunno-- I think that's the heart of my anti-fannishness, my introverted need to keep my reactions and feelings contained within me & not share them lest they lose their intensity & their roots in my own personality. I don't know if that even makes sense, but. Yeah. It's definitely something like... a fear of losing something vital by sharing or expanding a personal pleasure.
As of now, it just annoys me that Marshall (the science/tech geek guy) is like... 'the nerd' or 'the comic relief' 'cause I like him even if he's not a main character (which is somewhat unusual). Mostly 'cause he talks a lot like me-- constantly going on tangents when he should be getting 'to the point' and making geeky obscure references and stupid jokes and explaining himself badly-- and everyone's always rolling their eyes at him and being impatient like isn't it -obvious- that he's a freak or whatever. And I'm like 'no, -you guys- are just too mundane and boring, he's actually interesting to listen to'.
Anyway, this is my brush with 'the Slytherin Syndrome' wherein I go up against the ruling hegemony (heh) and declare allegiance with the 'outcasts'. The main difference is that Marshall is my sort of outcast (or rather, he's the sort of outcast I myself would be)-- he's not really bitter and he actually likes all the people who don't get him and humor him condescendingly. He's sort of the anti-Snape in that sense, which makes him highly unlikely to generate fanfic making him a sex god and highly likely to get looked over or patronized by the fans as well. *sigh*
He was hot in High School, though. Or rather, I should be honest: he looked like someone I'd hang out with and maybe date but never truly fall for in High School or college. Sorry, Marshall; I understand you too well.
I mean, is there anything less appetizing than a disgruntled nitpicky fanwank? I think I turn -myself- off HP when I rant about it, man.
It's really mostly theoretical anyway 'cause I don't feel any great fannish love for any character or pairing, just enjoyment of the whole ensemble.
EDIT - Come to think of it-- I just realized that it's not about 'over-analyzing' per se so much as just... when you talk about a show seriously or you read fic about it (which I see as another form of meta-commentary 'cause it still gives you new perspectives on the characters) you kind of... at least, -I- leave that somewhat... 'innocent' space where I can still take in developments 'unspoiled' by suspicions or reactions that aren't natural to -me-. As of now, all my reactions are 100% mine, but if I participated in fandom in any way, the show wouldn't be totally -mine- anymore. I just realized this, watching some extra footage on the DVD that was the creator's and some of the actors' commentary on the show. It just... changes one's perspective and opens you up, and that can be so positive but also kind of... I dunno... not as intimate?
I dunno-- I think that's the heart of my anti-fannishness, my introverted need to keep my reactions and feelings contained within me & not share them lest they lose their intensity & their roots in my own personality. I don't know if that even makes sense, but. Yeah. It's definitely something like... a fear of losing something vital by sharing or expanding a personal pleasure.
As of now, it just annoys me that Marshall (the science/tech geek guy) is like... 'the nerd' or 'the comic relief' 'cause I like him even if he's not a main character (which is somewhat unusual). Mostly 'cause he talks a lot like me-- constantly going on tangents when he should be getting 'to the point' and making geeky obscure references and stupid jokes and explaining himself badly-- and everyone's always rolling their eyes at him and being impatient like isn't it -obvious- that he's a freak or whatever. And I'm like 'no, -you guys- are just too mundane and boring, he's actually interesting to listen to'.
Anyway, this is my brush with 'the Slytherin Syndrome' wherein I go up against the ruling hegemony (heh) and declare allegiance with the 'outcasts'. The main difference is that Marshall is my sort of outcast (or rather, he's the sort of outcast I myself would be)-- he's not really bitter and he actually likes all the people who don't get him and humor him condescendingly. He's sort of the anti-Snape in that sense, which makes him highly unlikely to generate fanfic making him a sex god and highly likely to get looked over or patronized by the fans as well. *sigh*
He was hot in High School, though. Or rather, I should be honest: he looked like someone I'd hang out with and maybe date but never truly fall for in High School or college. Sorry, Marshall; I understand you too well.
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Date: 2006-05-25 03:52 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-05-25 08:05 pm (UTC)God, heart that. I have no idea how much of my HP opinions are my own, and how much depends entirely on what the 'ruling hegemony' have decided flies. Then again, I'm always going to side with them -- being different was never in my game-plan, I just turned out too stubborn to entirely fit in. Woe.
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Date: 2006-05-25 10:02 pm (UTC)...though I have to admit that when I hear too many people profess an opinion too strongly too often, I sort of wanna rebel even if I started out agreeing with them. I mean, I'm both stubborn and contrary ^^;; But I don't like butting heads with the ruling hegemony either... that way lies much wank, grasshopper... :>