(the unbearable weightiness of) PORN
Mar. 18th, 2006 12:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenkaY'know, even glancing at someone (don't even know who anymore) apparently having written another pro-pr0n (or anti-pr0n, who really cares anymore??) post, I actually had to ask myself, 'Reena. Why aren't YOU doing your part and WRITING PORN RIGHT NOW??!' (...and as if on cue, my upstairs neighbor starts wanking... he does this EVERY DAY, SEVERAL TIMES A DAY... AND ONE WONDERS WHY I DON'T WRITE PORN LATELY... and now he seems to be dancing... quite heavily. -.- WHY GOD WHY.... WHY ME... but anyway.)
And... Well....
I have to say, I've been reading things (I mean, isn't theological fantasy, aka Bujold's 'Paladin of Souls', more interesting? no?) but that's no excuse. Though reading yaoi pr0n does take the edge off the need to write it; this makes me wonder if one writes more the less one reads of it, but it used to be sort of equal if I remember correctly. The pleasures are just... different. One has porny thoughts and porny indulgences, and they're not quite the same, but....
I dunno. My desire to indulge myself is as intense as ever, but the need to write (and read) Things Of Substance in my chosen fandom kills most of my porn bunnies before they have a chance to breed :( It is sad :( Just yesterday I actually spent something like 5 minutes thinking how good Draco would look naked (in bed), and possibly naked with his wrists tied (in bed), but... isn't it just too much bother to write it out?? Hahah, I can always read more yaoi instead, right? Isn't that what it all comes down to??!
This, for instance, was going to be a Post Of Substance of some sort or other, but in the end there's this :D Symptomatic, isn't it? :D
Porn is particularly fun & easy to write, 'tis true... it comes with a built-in 'climax' (so to speak) as well as built-in dynamics (since if I'm comfortable with the characterizations, while the precise way they get into bed differs, it just basically doesn't differ that much, especially in a PWP). Easy-shmeasy... and that, in the end, is why I no longer write it (though I'm sure I will at some future point-- I mean, I started when I was 14, writing down whatever porny vision came to mind... it's in the blood, clearly). I think when something grows too easy, it becomes unlikely to happen in the same way you won't write something that seems 'too hard' (ie, finishing a long, plotty, maddeningly complex novella... for instance.... *coughs*). And I admit, between the bookends of 'too easy' and 'too hard', I just wind up... underexercised, perhaps.
But as I was saying, porn is easy as sitting there and going 'mmmm, Draco in bed... now what would he be doing there.... mmmm... and now how did he get there.... mmmmmmm'. I dunno. That's all I do (although in retrospect, that's harder than it seems if you mean to write believable H/D, PWPs aside... if there -is- such a beast as a 'believable' & IC H/D PWP... prolly not...). And the laziness sort of spirals outward into 'forget about Draco, any blond pretty-boy with a nicely-drawn cock will do'. And then I download more manga in a sort of fiendish daze. Or maybe that's just me :D
...also, it doesn't help that after all this yaoi, whenever I sit down to write a sex-scene these days, I keep wanting to add all these squelching/kissing/grunting noises just like in the manga, along with 'noooo, not THERE' and 'I'M ASHAMED' ahahahaha. *cough*
And... Well....
I have to say, I've been reading things (I mean, isn't theological fantasy, aka Bujold's 'Paladin of Souls', more interesting? no?) but that's no excuse. Though reading yaoi pr0n does take the edge off the need to write it; this makes me wonder if one writes more the less one reads of it, but it used to be sort of equal if I remember correctly. The pleasures are just... different. One has porny thoughts and porny indulgences, and they're not quite the same, but....
I dunno. My desire to indulge myself is as intense as ever, but the need to write (and read) Things Of Substance in my chosen fandom kills most of my porn bunnies before they have a chance to breed :( It is sad :( Just yesterday I actually spent something like 5 minutes thinking how good Draco would look naked (in bed), and possibly naked with his wrists tied (in bed), but... isn't it just too much bother to write it out?? Hahah, I can always read more yaoi instead, right? Isn't that what it all comes down to??!
This, for instance, was going to be a Post Of Substance of some sort or other, but in the end there's this :D Symptomatic, isn't it? :D
Porn is particularly fun & easy to write, 'tis true... it comes with a built-in 'climax' (so to speak) as well as built-in dynamics (since if I'm comfortable with the characterizations, while the precise way they get into bed differs, it just basically doesn't differ that much, especially in a PWP). Easy-shmeasy... and that, in the end, is why I no longer write it (though I'm sure I will at some future point-- I mean, I started when I was 14, writing down whatever porny vision came to mind... it's in the blood, clearly). I think when something grows too easy, it becomes unlikely to happen in the same way you won't write something that seems 'too hard' (ie, finishing a long, plotty, maddeningly complex novella... for instance.... *coughs*). And I admit, between the bookends of 'too easy' and 'too hard', I just wind up... underexercised, perhaps.
But as I was saying, porn is easy as sitting there and going 'mmmm, Draco in bed... now what would he be doing there.... mmmm... and now how did he get there.... mmmmmmm'. I dunno. That's all I do (although in retrospect, that's harder than it seems if you mean to write believable H/D, PWPs aside... if there -is- such a beast as a 'believable' & IC H/D PWP... prolly not...). And the laziness sort of spirals outward into 'forget about Draco, any blond pretty-boy with a nicely-drawn cock will do'. And then I download more manga in a sort of fiendish daze. Or maybe that's just me :D
...also, it doesn't help that after all this yaoi, whenever I sit down to write a sex-scene these days, I keep wanting to add all these squelching/kissing/grunting noises just like in the manga, along with 'noooo, not THERE' and 'I'M ASHAMED' ahahahaha. *cough*
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Date: 2006-03-19 08:06 pm (UTC)...the laziness isn't mine alone, I see! :D!