[babybaby, that's what love is for...]

[reenka]

I dunno if any of you actually know this about me, but, uh, GW was my very first fandom, not HP. I actually don't know what an officially claimable 'fandom' is, though, like, whether you have to participate in it and if you do, do you have to publish publically ('cause I did write some horrid AU fic that I never put up anywhere, way back in '02). Man.

I keep reading little tidbits like granate's latest and just getting my love for it back full-force; even though I flirt with other fandoms and still read the occasional Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan and Buffy/Spike and K/S fic, it's just-- nothing makes me happy in quite the same way 1x2 does. It's just so uncomplicated yet spicy! It's a bit like Sirius/Remus in that way, except without the, um, you know, eventual death and Tonks. ><;;; Just snark, war, comraderie and a sort of complicated-yet-not friendship I just love to sink my teeth into. Mmmm.

I don't think I could like, read angsty conflict-ridden inner-angst pairings all the time without coming home to my beautiful friendship pairings (well, basically just 1x2, 'cause ain't no one writing those novella-length S/R AUs, are they) with those long meaty fics full of slow build-up and teamwork and adventure and smut. Ahhhhh.

I keep seeing people saying they're apathetic about their main fandom (HP, generally) after a year or two or even more, and it makes me feel sort of funny 'cause I get these long periods where I don't read a single fic or write a single word, and with GW the periods are even longer 'cause that's how long it takes for the slow trickle of good 1x2 fic to build up, but-- I always come back to all my favorite universes. I mean, they're my favorites, why would I leave them for good? I'll always love a story or 5, though my standards do rise exponentially the longer I spend reading fic for that 'verse. I just can't read as much GW or HP crackfic as I used to, and the very idea of reading anything less than absolutely stellar Star Trek fic makes me laugh.

But yeah. I've heard people talk of being fandom monogamists or fandom serial monogamists or bigamists or basically fandom butterflies-- and I'm none of those, I guess. Because like, what's the label for someone who loves many different things to different extents at different times? What's the term for being unable to stop being enthusiastic about anything you've loved before, even if you take breaks that last months and even years (which I have)?
    I dunno, it just seems normal to me. I don't need to have anything 'new' left to explore about Heero and Duo, I guess-- I don't need to discuss them, and I don't need to read fic to show me anything I hadn't seen a million times, but. That's not why I read it anyway. I read it to see old friends, to remember how it felt to love them, to hold their hand along the way to them loving each other one more time and wish them well.

One more time into the breach, Duo. And then another, and another, stretching into the horizon. Let your story never end.

Itsudemo. Zutto. Always.
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EDIT - Browsing through the outer_hogsmeade lj for HP fanartists doing nonfannish stuff, I've just found fushiafishes's Delirium!Luna fanart and it's all sorts of EUREKA! and WHY DIDN'T I SEE THIS BEFORE??! etc. Now I know why I like her. D'oh!
    Also, her painting of the Trio is So Good. Sort of the way earthworms crawling over the skin of a beautiful corpse is good.

Comments

[malafede.livejournal.com]

Especially when she had a pink limo!

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF DECENCY DO YOU!! >:O

YOU JUST DON'T.




...I agree he's bottomish with Relena, but SINCE I HATE THAT PAIRING WHAT DOES IT REALLY MATTER??! ahahah.

[malafede.livejournal.com]

well it's the pairing that's gonna be so... DELUSIONAL!

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

I'M HAPPY WITH MY AUs THANK YOU.

[malafede.livejournal.com]

BUT HOW CAN PEOPLE IGNORE CANON LIKE THIS, LIKE FOR EXAMPLE SAYING I DUNNO, THAT HARRY IS GAY???

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

MY GOD YEAH I WAS WRITING SOME HOT HARRY/GINNY SEX JUST EARLIER TO SHOW THEM THE ERROR OF THEIR WAYS!!



I really was, too. It was sorta incesty/Lily-like. *__*

[malafede.livejournal.com]

Oh, God.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

payback is SWEET. :9

[malafede.livejournal.com]

Mostly, I worry about your slow degradation into less and less dimensional writing.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Haha, oh, is that what it is >:)
...That fic is still H/D, btw :))

[malafede.livejournal.com]

There's hope for you yet.

Draco always adds dimensions.