[there and back again: a history]
Sep. 8th, 2005 02:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenkaYou know... (canon) Draco, who doesn't like (er, like like) Harry has really grown on me. I really blame HBP most of all, though there are other factors. Not so much that he doesn't... I don't know, it's just, okay, I'm looking at greendesire's totally awesome, painfully IC picture of him and Myrtle-- and I seem to have an obsession for emotional!Draco, for all my ranting about him not being defined by the bathroom scene, given this and this one as evidence-- and it's just enough. (And I also love her so-in-character illustrations of the HBP girls and the smirky!Harry from ze icon. *points*)
I don't need to imagine this boy having hot sweaty boysex with like... anyone, thankyouverymuch. I mean, can we say 'not sexy'?
Though he's sort of cute in his complete pale stricken patheticness, and I have an odd affection for his pointy face and his narrow little hands and his crazed complaining look, but.... I have this odd sense of relief. It's nice to take him at surface value, I guess. Not to struggle to imagine his future, at least, and not to feel so desperately involved with where he goes and what he does, like it's my personal responsibility to make sure he gets Potter at last. Will he finally 'have' Potter this year? Well, I don't think he cares anymore. It's a good thing.
Oh, the Draco in my head has been quiet lately. He finally got over it, kind of, the silly boy. ♥ It's been a long, trippy ride to this point, too. How many nights has he kept me up, screaming at me that he wanted Potter's head on a platter now, dammit? How long have we gone over this problem, with me wracking my brains, trying to find the final Potter solution. How in the world to reel Harry in? Oh, it's been a subject of constant worry. Potter never did do what my Draco wanted him to do... silly boy.
Maybe I'm just confused, because I look at greendesires' Harry/Ginny OoTP comic and melt, because oh Harry, I just can't refuse him anything when he looks all boyish and vulnerable and I really do want him to have the normal boy/girl awkward-sweet conversation things, and then I'm all mesmerized by the HBP bathroom scene comic by odduckoasis. There's normal and sweet and then there's intense and hot and gripping and this is why I love them so much. So I don't know. I don't know.
The idea of a pictorial history of Harry & Draco in canon really appeals to me at the moment. I have no clue how to organize it, but I think it'd be amazing. Something like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
usuisubari's year old illustration of their first meeting in Diagon Alley. For some reason I can't stop staring at it, with the scruffy little Harry with his hands in his pockets, staring bemusedly at poncey, pale little Draco, unsure what to make of him at first. They're just boys, then. I can't see them as sex symbols or archetypes or supermodels or any of that... not destined for each other or meant to be or pieces on the gameboard of life or anything I ever cared to project onto them. I don't need them to change to suit me; I don't need them to do anything. I am happy to let go and see what happens when they talk without any expectations.
In the back of the shop, a boy with a pale, pointed face was standing on a footstool while a second witch pinned up his long black robes. Madam Malkin stood Harry on a stool next to him, slipped a long robe over his head, and began to pin it to the right length.
"Hello," said the boy, "Hogwarts, too?"
"Yes," said Harry.
~~
Also, man, this photo really reminds me of Ginny o_0
EDIT - Naturally, then this line comes to me: Draco was living in his own personal hell: just when he thought he was over it, he met Potter again and the need for his cock became monstrous instead of just debilitating.
...This yaoi about two SS officers in lust... both pale, skinny, with slicked back hair, one smooth & icy and one arrogant but desperate... it just.... Really makes me think of ice-prince!Draco topping canon!Draco o_0 ...It's really pretty scary o_0
I don't need to imagine this boy having hot sweaty boysex with like... anyone, thankyouverymuch. I mean, can we say 'not sexy'?
Though he's sort of cute in his complete pale stricken patheticness, and I have an odd affection for his pointy face and his narrow little hands and his crazed complaining look, but.... I have this odd sense of relief. It's nice to take him at surface value, I guess. Not to struggle to imagine his future, at least, and not to feel so desperately involved with where he goes and what he does, like it's my personal responsibility to make sure he gets Potter at last. Will he finally 'have' Potter this year? Well, I don't think he cares anymore. It's a good thing.
Oh, the Draco in my head has been quiet lately. He finally got over it, kind of, the silly boy. ♥ It's been a long, trippy ride to this point, too. How many nights has he kept me up, screaming at me that he wanted Potter's head on a platter now, dammit? How long have we gone over this problem, with me wracking my brains, trying to find the final Potter solution. How in the world to reel Harry in? Oh, it's been a subject of constant worry. Potter never did do what my Draco wanted him to do... silly boy.
Maybe I'm just confused, because I look at greendesires' Harry/Ginny OoTP comic and melt, because oh Harry, I just can't refuse him anything when he looks all boyish and vulnerable and I really do want him to have the normal boy/girl awkward-sweet conversation things, and then I'm all mesmerized by the HBP bathroom scene comic by odduckoasis. There's normal and sweet and then there's intense and hot and gripping and this is why I love them so much. So I don't know. I don't know.
The idea of a pictorial history of Harry & Draco in canon really appeals to me at the moment. I have no clue how to organize it, but I think it'd be amazing. Something like
usuisubari's year old illustration of their first meeting in Diagon Alley. For some reason I can't stop staring at it, with the scruffy little Harry with his hands in his pockets, staring bemusedly at poncey, pale little Draco, unsure what to make of him at first. They're just boys, then. I can't see them as sex symbols or archetypes or supermodels or any of that... not destined for each other or meant to be or pieces on the gameboard of life or anything I ever cared to project onto them. I don't need them to change to suit me; I don't need them to do anything. I am happy to let go and see what happens when they talk without any expectations.In the back of the shop, a boy with a pale, pointed face was standing on a footstool while a second witch pinned up his long black robes. Madam Malkin stood Harry on a stool next to him, slipped a long robe over his head, and began to pin it to the right length.
"Hello," said the boy, "Hogwarts, too?"
"Yes," said Harry.
~~
Also, man, this photo really reminds me of Ginny o_0
EDIT - Naturally, then this line comes to me: Draco was living in his own personal hell: just when he thought he was over it, he met Potter again and the need for his cock became monstrous instead of just debilitating.
...This yaoi about two SS officers in lust... both pale, skinny, with slicked back hair, one smooth & icy and one arrogant but desperate... it just.... Really makes me think of ice-prince!Draco topping canon!Draco o_0 ...It's really pretty scary o_0
