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[reenka]

Okay, I think I have a problem (well... one of). I am currently procrastinating 'cause I really want to read this new chapter in one of my favorite mangas ever (Koi ga Bokura, which I'd reviewed), and... ack, I'm too nervous. Every time I tell someone about this way I have of avoiding things I really want, people just sort of... are taken aback, ahaha. I mean, usually, I do read/do whatever it is eventually, but sometimes I'm so overwhelmed, I never actually get to it. Er. Well, I know people get nervous from anxiety/trepidation and stuff, but... happiness? Oh wait, like... weddings, right? It could be I get cold feet with things... on a lower scale than weddings... but it's sort of similar, right?

Am I like... really weird, or is there anyone else out there who can't seem to read stories they're really excited/happy when they come out? Heh.

/random.

PS. In case anyone was wondering (which I doubt), I just realized that bit about man-boobs yesterday was a result of my ongoing fascination with certain types of slang. I also adore all usages of smex (smexing), badass (or variations thereof like hardass), babe (somehow it's hard to be unsexy and say babe), awesome, bitchin', chica, etc. Except no one actually says bitchin' that I've heard in recent memory -.- Biatch is best, though. Gives man-boobs a run for its money, doesn't it?

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[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Dude! Dude! ...you have an icon! o_0 With like, Coldplay lyrics :)) <3
I have a really cool Highlander Duncan/Methos music vid with that song... ahahah. Just to be really dorky for no reason ^^;;
I miss my Duncan/Methos infatuation, I do. Damn, at least people could write in that fandom. Well, more people. I'm such a bitter old fanfic queen. I've started to write this parody fic but I can't be bothered. But I want to finish (somewhat) 'cause I do amuse myself.
(Like this:
At long last, Draco had found a secret weapon in his private war. And make no mistake: it was Draco's War. No one understood that it was All About Draco-- but they would. Of course, it would just take a little work.

It took more than two months-- long nights spent ruining his precious perfect vision-- but finally all the brainstorming paid off: he knew how to thwart that unsightly wart on the face of wizarding kind. Potter. (When no one was looking Draco spit viciously at the very thought. Potter! he spat. Potter, Potter, Potter! And then he would destroy some furniture but temporarily, because no one liked it when his mum got her knickers in a twist.) To get to the point: Potter had a weakness after all, and that weakness was naturally Draco's greatest strength.

All Draco had to do was become a completely different person, and Potter wouldn't know what hit him. It was brilliant! It was simple! Most of all, it was foolproof!)
Etcetera, etcetera.

(I was really bitter after reading yet another redeemed!Draco fluff-fic. I'm sure the authors don't know their fluffy bunny cuddling inspires my rage, but it DOES. IT REALLY DOES.)

Er... what was the point again? -.-
Yeah, I'm always subconciously(?) worried, I guess, always anticipating the treats waiting for me and being worried about them running out and... I don't deal well with an empty cookie-jar on top of all that ^^; And the letdown thing, too. It's almost like anticipation is its own guarranteed reward or something o_0

Of course we're special. Like Draco. Draco knows he's special, and of course we're just his talentless slaving bitches.
As it should be...?

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

Yes! Icon! Isn't it thrilling? My friend Rach found a picture and Photoshopped it for me and everything, since it was very clear I was too lazy to ever do it myself. :)

I never watched Highlander. Er, it was a show, right? My un-knowledge is pathetic. I should be smacked about, or something.

Yay! Parody fic! Heee, it's so funny! You should totally finish it--well, if you ever get the motivation, of course. *is encouraging* I would so read it, man. I haven't read H/D in oh so long, besides my recent foray back onto ff.net, where I've been traumatized irrevocably endlessly amused. And I wasn't reading H/D, mostly, I suppose. You need to write H/D so the love can return unwavering to my tarty little heart and I can, like, foist part three of my crackfic epic upon all the poor, unsuspecting people. Because, ehehe, Draco spitting and (temporarily!) destroying furniture. Oh, he so would. He so, so would. His anger is clearly misdirected desire! Oh Draco, you evil wee cute thing.

Yeah, I get what you mean re your post. So. Man, the letdown. I just...try not to have really high expectations of things anymore, which is sad. But.

Draco is so totally my slaving bitch. *cracks whip* And, um, vice versa. But he can never know! Haha.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Hahah with me, the methods of encouragement should totally be more... uh... strict? Hardass? Something like that ^^;; Ahaha rereading the snippet, I felt it was too over the top...like (I can't help myself, clearly):
Draco improved his drawl, got a new wardrobe, spent many a session practing in front of a mirror, learned to write left-handed, and used a bit of the secret Malfoy-family self-hypnosis technique to help him on his path to greatness. Potter couldn't ignore him when it was no longer the same old laughable Draco Malfoy any longer! No! This was the new, improved, super-deadly Draco Malfoy! (And then Draco would laugh, being ever so slightly tired.) And oh yes, he also made sure to learn to learn some new goody-goody spells.

He was going to be Nice to Potter if it killed him (and it very well might). Then... then! When Potter's guard was finally down... then! He would strike! A silent shadow in the night! (That would be Draco.)

I just don't know when to stop :> :> (Like that shadow in the night thing... soon I'd be comparing Draco to Darkwing Duck... and then it's all over...)

And yeah, Highlander is a show about immortals who slice each other's heads off because "there can be only One" and the last immortal will get "the Prize"... and Duncan (of the TV show) and Connor (of the movies, omg especially watch the first one) are REALLY HOT. Here's (http://members.aol.com/janelsenor/highlander/peenee3.htm) a page on it. There are swords! And long-haired men wielding them! And honor! And... swords.... m... *distracted*...

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

I can be hardass! No, really! Heh. I'm just...doing a bazillion things at once right now OHMYGOD WHEN IS SCHOOL GOING TO END MAKE IT END. *ahem* Anyway, I just like the thought that you're writing H/D. It gives me hope when I felt there was none...? Um.

Are they Scottish? The Highlander people? I think a friend of mine's boyfriend has the DVD or something. Maybe I'll steal it next time I go over. I mean, hot men with swords. Sounds good to me.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

Me writing H/D is like pigeons pooping while they... do their other pigeon-like things. No, really. I'm afraid I'll probably do it intermittently like a bad habit (chewing on my hair?) for awhile yet. Oh wait, I forgot I didn't care... oops I did it again ^^;; I totally believe you can be hardass. Well, and it's Monday, too. That probably makes it worse. On the bright side, tomorrow is Tuesday? Everything goes wrong on Tuesdays, but only for Draco >:D
/random fanfic reference

THEY ARE SCOTTISH :D Totally with the accent and the kilts and the sword and the slashhhhh... uhhmmm......

[stellabelle.livejournal.com]

You writing H/D makes me happy. HAPPY. I'm glad you believe I can be hardass. No one else seems to. I display my Fists of Doom and they do nothing but mock. Also, everything is most definitely going to go wrong tomorrow because I have way too much work and three classes and life hates me and omgomg. I'm okay. *is Zen*

Wow, I know more than I give myself credit for. Sort of. At least about Highlander. KILTS OMG. I don't know why they're so alluring...? I guess that's one of those things that has no answer. It is just Truth.