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reenkaAll right, I know this'll sound stupid, but bear with me:
I was rereading bits of Prufrock's Levity series, and even reading little snippets of `Levity' hits me where it hurts (and by that I mean: it kills me), and I was actually surprised. Just because I care so much and it's not that I'm as obsessed and fixated on the pairing as I am with H/D, so a part of me thinks it shouldn't be able to hurt me that much.
I mean, I'm not addicted or anything-- I can go months without a single S/R fic, so you'd think I wouldn't be this sensitive, y'know, just because the writing is gorgeous and the characterizations are unbelievable and the emotion is palpable. Right. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that Pru is bloody brilliant, of course. All I can say is, thank god for the happy of `Vector' and `Gasp', which I hadn't actually read before today, and ohhhh how happy did it make me?? SO HAPPY. LIKE THE VERY GOOD CRACK, I tell you.
And then it hit me (duh!)-- love is universal.
It's always the same thing, the same emotion being tapped, no matter who the characters are. Love is universal. It seems painfully obvious, but it's so easy to forget, in fandom, among all the ship debates and the way one starts to -identify- with a (one true) pairing to the point that it's like there needs to be a formula to touch one's heart. Take Character A, add Character B, and you have "investment" and therefore (vicariously) "love". And of course we will always have our individual favorites-- but underneath it all-- well, there's the truth, and the truth taps into... well, us. The same source.... Which is why one starts to care about the love lives of original characters one has only 'known' for like, 10 pages. And by 'someone' I mean me. It can't be the -character- alone, precisely.
Of course one cares about some characters more than others, and fact is, some pairings allow a writer to explore certain themes more than others, which some readers may be most drawn to-- but even so, whether one's writing Harry/Hermione, Sirius/Remus, Lucius/Narcissa or Harry/Draco, the journey may be different in each case, but what you have is the same destination-- the human heart. If one steps back, one can sort of see it-- how easily love can be recreated in each case with only that initial leap of faith that one makes, believing in the possibility. Really, understanding the emotional center of a love-story is a bit like falling in love all by itself-- it all starts with a leap of faith. You allow yourself to believe-- you let down your barriers and... fall in love with their love.
That essential moment when something is created from nothing through a sort of metamorphosis of vision. Where before there were only two people, on the brink-- now there are two people falling, the earth dropping away beneath them. That 'moment of seeing' that Aja talked about as being central to the nature of an H/D fic-- I really think it's central to all romance.
It's not who they are. It's how they feel.
It's... it's all the same story, really. I mean, I knew that. But still, funny how one can forget, isn't it?
I was rereading bits of Prufrock's Levity series, and even reading little snippets of `Levity' hits me where it hurts (and by that I mean: it kills me), and I was actually surprised. Just because I care so much and it's not that I'm as obsessed and fixated on the pairing as I am with H/D, so a part of me thinks it shouldn't be able to hurt me that much.
I mean, I'm not addicted or anything-- I can go months without a single S/R fic, so you'd think I wouldn't be this sensitive, y'know, just because the writing is gorgeous and the characterizations are unbelievable and the emotion is palpable. Right. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that Pru is bloody brilliant, of course. All I can say is, thank god for the happy of `Vector' and `Gasp', which I hadn't actually read before today, and ohhhh how happy did it make me?? SO HAPPY. LIKE THE VERY GOOD CRACK, I tell you.
And then it hit me (duh!)-- love is universal.
It's always the same thing, the same emotion being tapped, no matter who the characters are. Love is universal. It seems painfully obvious, but it's so easy to forget, in fandom, among all the ship debates and the way one starts to -identify- with a (one true) pairing to the point that it's like there needs to be a formula to touch one's heart. Take Character A, add Character B, and you have "investment" and therefore (vicariously) "love". And of course we will always have our individual favorites-- but underneath it all-- well, there's the truth, and the truth taps into... well, us. The same source.... Which is why one starts to care about the love lives of original characters one has only 'known' for like, 10 pages. And by 'someone' I mean me. It can't be the -character- alone, precisely.
Of course one cares about some characters more than others, and fact is, some pairings allow a writer to explore certain themes more than others, which some readers may be most drawn to-- but even so, whether one's writing Harry/Hermione, Sirius/Remus, Lucius/Narcissa or Harry/Draco, the journey may be different in each case, but what you have is the same destination-- the human heart. If one steps back, one can sort of see it-- how easily love can be recreated in each case with only that initial leap of faith that one makes, believing in the possibility. Really, understanding the emotional center of a love-story is a bit like falling in love all by itself-- it all starts with a leap of faith. You allow yourself to believe-- you let down your barriers and... fall in love with their love.
That essential moment when something is created from nothing through a sort of metamorphosis of vision. Where before there were only two people, on the brink-- now there are two people falling, the earth dropping away beneath them. That 'moment of seeing' that Aja talked about as being central to the nature of an H/D fic-- I really think it's central to all romance.
It's not who they are. It's how they feel.
It's... it's all the same story, really. I mean, I knew that. But still, funny how one can forget, isn't it?
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Date: 2004-10-26 09:35 am (UTC)I totally have Chimera, and I know I at least read half of it, but now I don't remember it. When I'm home for Thanksgiving I'll bring it back with me and dive in, I promise!
*laughs* Under Pressure. The whole:
Why can't we give love that one more chance?
Why can't we give love give love give love,
Give love give love give love give love give love?
and
And love dares you to change our way
Of caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
*laughs* No, really. But you know, you know so much about stories and love that sometimes I think you are magic. <3.