[silly writing rambles]

I'm starting to see a pattern, methinks /:)
    Currently, I'm dipping back into my novella, for instance, and it coincides with a period in my real life where I'm being avoidant, stressed out and just not feeling very good about the progress I'm making. So like, making -any- progress on my Big Skeery Project makes me feel a bit better, and it's basically -easier- than fixing my life, y'know; generally, I'm too lazy and it's too much trouble to write consistently on a single subject [of the novella], but when I'm overwhelmed and avoidant, it really helps to focus on -something-, and the very length and not-posting-bits aspect makes me feel like I'm Really Doing Something. Almost like the lack of instant gratification is a form of penance-- like, see, see, this is important, I'm not even getting any feedback, ahahah.

( rambleramble, tl;dr? )

...So, do you guys have a type of fic you write when you're in a certain phase? Not like a mood ('cause I guess most people are more likely to write angst when they're angsty... unless you want to self-medicate), more like a... well, phase. I didn't realize I had those till I realized I was writing my longfic in a pathetic attempt at productivity :))

In other news, due South has an awesome idea for a comm, called stop_drop_porn, which is for posting out of context porn snippets, and they have periodical prompts & everything. Hahaha, that would so work for me :D Out of context porn, man. It's how it always works in my head. I mean, sure, in-context porn happens, but it's like... it either gets out of control (to become out of context) if I enjoy it too much, or it's limp, like homework or something. I always have to laugh at earnest posts about how embarrassing & difficult porn-writing is & just. The peer-pressure of it all. I mean. I sooort of think that if it's not fun for you, you ain't doin' it right :))

...I want to write about whether empathy for a character one is writing [okay, Draco] necessarily translates into sympathy for their canon version, or conversely whether an overt sympathy for their canon version can actually frustrate a reader's ability to empathize with them in a specific fic, but.... Well, the whole question seems too personalized to me, maybe. Do other people even have equivalent issues? I can never tell ^^; Still.
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...Aaaand, y'know, if I were to wonder sometime why being on Teh Internets is worth it, a priceless quote: In fact, most of these impressions are untruths incorporated into an exterior shell that effectively shields from the world the fact that gay porn is my primary hobby.
    (Of course, immediately following we have references to 'dudeness' and a 'mannish upbringing' as reasons for god-knows-what but I think it's supposed to be 'gay porn', & I remember why I should really do something better with my time, like talking to snails -.- It's a sort of... I dunno, overall acknowledgment that I'm not as dorky/lame as -that-, but I'm still... y'know, pretty damn lame, ahahahahdlafkjslakj;fa) It's sort of like, it's too easy to think 'well, if it's cute & funny, then it's worth it', but really, snark can only go so far.... I dunno, what the hell am I saying. *facepalm* Wank makes me sporfle, but also have EXISTENTIAL ANGST, okay :D