*gasp* H/D!

This is bad. Just when I should be doing... oh, a zillion other, exciting (...not too sarcastic) things here in rainy, beautiful Seattle, I... uh, fell head-over-heels for Jim&Blair. Woe. :/ I feel a bit embarrassed, too, 'cause... it's not like they're the most... uhhh, deep or angsty pairing :P I mean, they -could- be, but they don't breathe 'deep meaningfulness' or whatever, mostly 'cause there's nothing too tragic (unless you count Blair's eventual semi-positive self-sacrifice, but that's more in the 'awww' category as well, for me. I CAN'T HELP IT. SO CUTE.)

Aaaanyway. Funny thing is, I'm more H/D-ey than I was like, a year ago, when I felt all burnt out and like 'okay, HBP. now what. NOW NOTHING.' so. Things are pretty much normal in Reena-land, probably. I mean, I've accepted that [99.9% of other people's] H/D fanfic doesn't do it for me, but that... that's okay, hahaha, I've accepted it. I've moved on!! :D I can still write them & think about them without constantly being bitter that I can't read them (...or write them) the way I like, haha. I know, AMAZING :D

I mean, yesterday I was trudging through the rain and my own sleep-deprived Sentinel-obsessed exhaustion in the dark, finally got to the mall and was sort of absent-mindedly thinking of my Ideal H/D Story-structure ('cause really, I could barely string two sentences together in my head and this is my default Thing, ahahah). I had to wait for like, 20 minutes for the person ahead of me to finish buying like, 10 zillion pale green towels, so I grabbed a handy catalog postcard & scribbled my ideas :> :>
    Funny, 'cause I was just thinking how I keep writing H/D fic and H/D meta, and rarely do the twin approaches meet; I know some (most? dunno) people who don't just write kinkfic write as a direct expression of their 'Ideas' on characters/plot, but I honestly don't; I -want- to, I guess, but I just don't plot things out in advance by nature, or -plan- things in advance, so I end up flying by the seat of my v. impulsive (and porn-obsessed) pants most of the time.

...Which means I write snarky fluff & porn and darkfic when I'm moody, basically :)) Oh, and unfinished never-posted WIPs where I actually -have- [somewhat disjointed] Ideas that putter out from lack of continuous energy-management skillz. :/ (In other words, I need someone to kick my butt to get me to finish this 'thinky'-type stuff, but no one volunteers, so... ahahahah. *cough*)

...So anyway, here's my Ideal Thinky Prototypical H/D outline chronology type-thing, the one I'd write but also the one I kinda... wanted to read. *coughs* Mostly, no one has written long H/D with all these elements (to my knowledge), including myself. In other words, this is The Way It Really Happens In My Head:
    ( if I ever got off my ass, that is. ^^;; )