Man, I'm torn, because I recently realized I cannot hold a civilized conversation if the other party is homophobic, and yet I do believe communication is most important between people who violently disagree. This probably also applies to them being a fundamentalist, wildly conservative or like, insane. Um, which is to say, if I happen to think you're a total idiot for holding a certain view, I feel it's dishonest to try and converse with you as if you're not a total idiot, and be polite and everything. Like, 'yeah, I know you're a homophobe and thus I think you're delusional, easily brainwashed and likely stupid, but what the hell, I'm bored'. I dunno.
I realize it's the delusional ones that need 'help' the most, yes of course, I just don't know about the kid gloves treatment where one avoids the whole 'pink elephant' issue (oops, you're a homophobe) and goes for the critical analysis angle like 'well, slash is blah-blah-blah because blah-blah-blah', all the while ignoring the fact that yeah, you can be disinterested in slash without being a bigot, but you can't actually morally disapprove of it and not be a bigot, and therefore, everything you're saying is necessarily going to be skewed by that bias in reception. And I also wonder how one is supposed to have intellectually honest conversations with people while avoiding the biggest issue at hand. But that's just me.
And yet, it's not like I'm all about going out and being an activist and going in the other direction. To me, it's just one of many identity markers a person could have. That it's even an issue annoys the living daylights out of me. Like, that people care who other people have sex with. How annoying is that? Honestly. I think that's my biggest issue, in a way. The way people think they know what's best for other people is one of the most frustrating things in the universe. So it's like, I may not join the Queer Lib movement, but I'll join the Leave Me The Hell Alone Whoever You Are movement. Is there such a movement?? If antisocial people can join, I'm in; or... well, not in, as the case may be.
This is mostly brought on by my feeling bad about ranting, earlier. Sometimes I just... rant. Because it feels good. Um. And now for something completely different.
There was this prayer Tim Hunter said (so as the universe wouldn't be destroyed) that really resonated with me: "Day by day, hour by hour, this I pray.... To those who will the indefens'ble in the name of self defense... and those who claim 'the last resort' to justify the same pretense. To those who war for greed and usur children's limbs as capital... yet bank-roll their campaigns with the wealth of their own people. To those who chokehold good men's faith to ratify their avarice... and turn that faith against good men in name of noble sacrifice. To those who swear on pennants, books and idols to legitimize their crimes... this shall be written of these wretched hollow men. (Though like shall follow like and that "like" will rise again.) Their vic'tries shall be nothing, their glories shall be brief, for death still takes the sinner, the murd'rer and the thief."
Basically another way of saying, 'burn in hell, fuckers'.
~~
I'm really loving on the new Books of Magick (god, I hate that k) issue right now. It is totally reminding me that yes, I do love plot in stories, hello, it's just that it's not usually why I read fanfic. I read fanfic for the characters, so naturally I like it best when fanfic plot arises from characterization. In actual original stories, I guess I would say I don't mind if they get equal weight, where events influence character and characters influence events. Which is actually what usually happens in real life.
But yeah... I'm sort of having an existential crisis because while Tim/Molly is one of my all-time OTPs, I so, so, so adore every tiny shred of Tim with demon-owl-familiar boy. There are just. No words. It's just... hot. Wow. No, seriously. And he's textually snarky as hell and gay for Tim and makes jokes about fingers in anal cavities, and. Omg. *brain fizzles*
This got me to thinking about -why- it feels so very wrong for me to really ship Tim with anyone but Molly-- and this touches heavily upon how I relate to characters, stories, and incidentally why I'm an OTP sorta gal.
See, for me, it's not about Destiny or how you're only ever supposed to love one person-- it's about how a story goes. Like, when I write a story myself, even though I generally don't plot it out in advance, at some point I will know how it's supposed to go, and that's how it's going to go. There's no 'alternate' timeline in my head-- there's only this one way that the story goes. Because it's not reality, where there are multiple choices and no necessary coherence-- because it's a story, it has to go in one direction and that means not another. So it can't contradict itself, basically.
( ...and so I ramble wildly on about OTPs and the glory that is owl!Brewster. But not really. )
In short: boy, does the new Books of Magic kick arse. Lots and lots of it. Some of it gay and demonic, as it happens. Muwahaha, etc.
I realize it's the delusional ones that need 'help' the most, yes of course, I just don't know about the kid gloves treatment where one avoids the whole 'pink elephant' issue (oops, you're a homophobe) and goes for the critical analysis angle like 'well, slash is blah-blah-blah because blah-blah-blah', all the while ignoring the fact that yeah, you can be disinterested in slash without being a bigot, but you can't actually morally disapprove of it and not be a bigot, and therefore, everything you're saying is necessarily going to be skewed by that bias in reception. And I also wonder how one is supposed to have intellectually honest conversations with people while avoiding the biggest issue at hand. But that's just me.
And yet, it's not like I'm all about going out and being an activist and going in the other direction. To me, it's just one of many identity markers a person could have. That it's even an issue annoys the living daylights out of me. Like, that people care who other people have sex with. How annoying is that? Honestly. I think that's my biggest issue, in a way. The way people think they know what's best for other people is one of the most frustrating things in the universe. So it's like, I may not join the Queer Lib movement, but I'll join the Leave Me The Hell Alone Whoever You Are movement. Is there such a movement?? If antisocial people can join, I'm in; or... well, not in, as the case may be.
This is mostly brought on by my feeling bad about ranting, earlier. Sometimes I just... rant. Because it feels good. Um. And now for something completely different.
There was this prayer Tim Hunter said (so as the universe wouldn't be destroyed) that really resonated with me: "Day by day, hour by hour, this I pray.... To those who will the indefens'ble in the name of self defense... and those who claim 'the last resort' to justify the same pretense. To those who war for greed and usur children's limbs as capital... yet bank-roll their campaigns with the wealth of their own people. To those who chokehold good men's faith to ratify their avarice... and turn that faith against good men in name of noble sacrifice. To those who swear on pennants, books and idols to legitimize their crimes... this shall be written of these wretched hollow men. (Though like shall follow like and that "like" will rise again.) Their vic'tries shall be nothing, their glories shall be brief, for death still takes the sinner, the murd'rer and the thief."
Basically another way of saying, 'burn in hell, fuckers'.
~~
I'm really loving on the new Books of Magick (god, I hate that k) issue right now. It is totally reminding me that yes, I do love plot in stories, hello, it's just that it's not usually why I read fanfic. I read fanfic for the characters, so naturally I like it best when fanfic plot arises from characterization. In actual original stories, I guess I would say I don't mind if they get equal weight, where events influence character and characters influence events. Which is actually what usually happens in real life.
But yeah... I'm sort of having an existential crisis because while Tim/Molly is one of my all-time OTPs, I so, so, so adore every tiny shred of Tim with demon-owl-familiar boy. There are just. No words. It's just... hot. Wow. No, seriously. And he's textually snarky as hell and gay for Tim and makes jokes about fingers in anal cavities, and. Omg. *brain fizzles*
This got me to thinking about -why- it feels so very wrong for me to really ship Tim with anyone but Molly-- and this touches heavily upon how I relate to characters, stories, and incidentally why I'm an OTP sorta gal.
See, for me, it's not about Destiny or how you're only ever supposed to love one person-- it's about how a story goes. Like, when I write a story myself, even though I generally don't plot it out in advance, at some point I will know how it's supposed to go, and that's how it's going to go. There's no 'alternate' timeline in my head-- there's only this one way that the story goes. Because it's not reality, where there are multiple choices and no necessary coherence-- because it's a story, it has to go in one direction and that means not another. So it can't contradict itself, basically.
( ...and so I ramble wildly on about OTPs and the glory that is owl!Brewster. But not really. )
In short: boy, does the new Books of Magic kick arse. Lots and lots of it. Some of it gay and demonic, as it happens. Muwahaha, etc.
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