[Reena Philosophy 101]

Escapism: I want this to be true, therefore I'll pretend it is for a while, and feel really good before I have to return to the real world. The real world may not be preferrable to my fantasy, but there's no escaping the difference between truth and... that stuff you made up.

Denial: I want this to be true, therefore it is, and I shall now go on and conduct my life with the presumption that it's true. Because it makes me feel better, and also because I am god. I said so, after all.



Why people don't seem to understand the difference between these two modes, I shall never want to really understand.

Another thing I'll be in denial about is why people know they're biased and yet cling to their bias without bothering to challenge it within themselves.

I sort of hate the world sometimes. And by 'world' I really mean that I prefer the horrid, stifling sensation of near-100% humidity and a lack of a fan anywhere in range to the feeling I get trying to understand how some people think.

And it's not even enough for me to bitch and say 'people are stupid'. That doesn't cover it, somehow, because people appear to choose by willfully denying (not just avoiding! not just escaping!) certain facts of life. I dunno.

I think I'm just doomed to spend lots of time beating my head against a metaphorical wall. I mean, I'd find a real wall, but there's too much porn to read, so I get distracted.

And no, this isn't even about fandom. Just. There's so much I love about people, and yet. Ahhh, they hurt my brain....