So. I've been spoilered (don't worry, that's as far into detail as I'm about to get). It's been... a bit of a trial, wiping my mind semi-clean, but I've managed to sort of... pull myself out of that awful, sudden certainty that I'm going to hate it and I already do. So that's good.
I've been trying to figure out why HP book spoilers mess with my mind whereas I'm totally fine with any other type of spoilers I can think of. I don't seek them out unless I'm iffy about buying or watching whatever it is, but otherwise knowing what'll happen doesn't intefere with my enjoyment 'cause I almost always concentrate on style/execution over sheer content (er, what most people call plot).
With HP, though... I think it's because it's my main fanfic universe-- it exists almost as much (if in a different form) in my own mind as it does in writer's. I've imagined the future in it countless times, so as soon as I get the vaguest guideline or spoiler, my mind immediately runs away with me. I can't help but interpret and extrapolate on the material myself, which is to me, what a spoiler actually is: when your opinion of the events is influenced directly, before you know the entire story 'as is'. Normally, with other canon, I would be merely finding out other people's reactions and some facts, but not actually forming my own half-baked reactions until I see it for myself (if I see it). That's what I can't stand, with HP: that I can't help but have an immediate mini-fanfic spring up in my head. Urgh.
It just figures, because the way I got over my spoiler woes was to have a non-fandom non-slasher friend tell me a plausible opposite scenario that'd fit the spoiler (post-HBP, which again gives me that sense of space & freedom).
It's odd: as much as I enjoy new canon to play with, there's this sudden claustrophobic sense that no matter -what- happens, a lot of my previous ideas are likely to be Jossed, and that really sends me into a panic, since I got quite attached to my angsty little post-OoTP world. Not that I expect or want canon to just fulfill my desires, but one can't help but feel trepidation at the idea of imminent major mental restructuring. Spoilers just make the restructuring start running on empty before there's any real support system, I guess.
On the bright side, this is really really pushing me to finish my post-OoTP H/D novella before I start reading HBP :>
I've been trying to figure out why HP book spoilers mess with my mind whereas I'm totally fine with any other type of spoilers I can think of. I don't seek them out unless I'm iffy about buying or watching whatever it is, but otherwise knowing what'll happen doesn't intefere with my enjoyment 'cause I almost always concentrate on style/execution over sheer content (er, what most people call plot).
With HP, though... I think it's because it's my main fanfic universe-- it exists almost as much (if in a different form) in my own mind as it does in writer's. I've imagined the future in it countless times, so as soon as I get the vaguest guideline or spoiler, my mind immediately runs away with me. I can't help but interpret and extrapolate on the material myself, which is to me, what a spoiler actually is: when your opinion of the events is influenced directly, before you know the entire story 'as is'. Normally, with other canon, I would be merely finding out other people's reactions and some facts, but not actually forming my own half-baked reactions until I see it for myself (if I see it). That's what I can't stand, with HP: that I can't help but have an immediate mini-fanfic spring up in my head. Urgh.
It just figures, because the way I got over my spoiler woes was to have a non-fandom non-slasher friend tell me a plausible opposite scenario that'd fit the spoiler (post-HBP, which again gives me that sense of space & freedom).
It's odd: as much as I enjoy new canon to play with, there's this sudden claustrophobic sense that no matter -what- happens, a lot of my previous ideas are likely to be Jossed, and that really sends me into a panic, since I got quite attached to my angsty little post-OoTP world. Not that I expect or want canon to just fulfill my desires, but one can't help but feel trepidation at the idea of imminent major mental restructuring. Spoilers just make the restructuring start running on empty before there's any real support system, I guess.
On the bright side, this is really really pushing me to finish my post-OoTP H/D novella before I start reading HBP :>
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