[tonight i can write the saddest lines]

Why do non-fandom people friend this journal? Why, why, why? Then they always unfriend it, which makes me feel less than sparkly, though I suppose I could've told them that to start with: "you'll get bored hearing me talk about porn". So. Yet another new-agey philosopher boy friended me ^^;; I do have a non-fandom journal, but they never find that one, of course. I mean, how much clearer could I be on my userinfo than to say "I write porn about boy wizards"--? Le sigh. I think this one friended me 'cause my lj name is 'the incarnation of non-duality'. Ahahahah false advertizing??! You decide! >:D

I also have interests like "unwise love" and "puritanical tool/angry young man", which I'm rather proud of but feel have limited appeal. Although now the 'puritanical tool' part makes me think of Sen. Yes, I'M STILL NOT OVER IT, what? And I suppose Swordfish is the stereotypical Angry Young Gang-leader in search of a Really Good Lay :)) :))

All love should be unwise. Who the hell wants wise love? It should be one's goal to love unwisely, and too well. To love with all one's heart and bile and rage and insecurity and desperation. Love should make you feel like you're falling off the Empire State Building, and you don't know whether you're flying or not, and then you find you don't care because you're not alone. I think maybe it's not even love alone I want so much as the unwisdom of it. The unwisdom is the real wisdom. Y'all dig, right? Come on, someone back me up here! (Puritanical, toolish wisdom??!)

Sometimes it feels like unwisdom (crazy wisdom? the wisdom of one's unsanity) is the only way to survive in this world.

( I'm probably on crack, though at least it's the good crack...? )

I feel like reading some Pablo Neruda again... man, I'm so sorry I'd lost that recording I had Andy Garcia speaking 'Tonight I Can Write'.
    EDIT - Though I lost it, I do have the cd... so here's an mp3 of `Tonight I Can Write' if anyone wants it.