~~ I think I'm easily traumatized.

I think I've figured it out, you know. What my problem is with Lucius. I'm just beginning to read cellia's Merry Smutmas fic, `Resolution', because that's the sort of thing I do when I'm procrastinating and too out of it for feedback. And it looks really good, except it's got Lucius. And see, this is what made me realize what is it that so upsets me about him.

First, I was traumatized by `Whirlwind', another merry_smutmas fic, 'cause... it was all hot fumbly boysex and eeeeee, hot fumbly H/D boysex, and then. And then. It's -Lucius-, not Draco, and I could've -died-. I'm still traumatized. I am! No one asked for pure H/D smut in that community, so I do what I can, but omg, Lucius! The trauma! The sheer, unmitigated trauma! Being all ooooh-cozy-happy and then, bam, it's really the Lucius-monster! It's my worst nightmare, man. I dunno why. I really don't.

So, reading `Resolution', I realized a part of the reason why, 'cause the Lucius in it is like, this active threat to Harry&Draco. And I think it's like-- I'm scared of him 'cause he -is- a threat. He has all this -power- and -influence- over Draco, and none of it is -good- influence. Voldemort, nothing. Harry could handle him. But if he was weakened or in love with Draco, could he handle Lucius? WAH!

And usually, I scoff at the typical plot device of Draco rejecting Harry or hiding their relationship 'cause -Draco- is scared of the consequences of Lucius knowing. See, what `Resolution' does is it gives us a Draco who's -not- scared of Lucius, and that makes it all click into place in my mind. It's much more realistic, I think, because of course Draco would trust his father. Of course. Even with Harry's life. Of course. That frightens me like the boogey-man, for some reason. I'm really freaked out right now. Honestly!

Draco trusts his father, and what if you made it so that Harry trusts Draco? It's a nightmare! It's so a nightmare waiting to happen. Both of them with their guard down, and Lucius licking his lips, waiting to strike. Oh god, I'm so traumatized. You all think I'm like, 6 years old now, don't you. And this, right after the Draco-is-really-Lucius fic. I mean. Yeah.

I just see Lucius as a danger to Harry, and I totally find it hard to see him for himself, or from Snape's or Draco's or Lupin's or anyone else's point of view. He's more of a threat in my mind than Voldemort is, 'cause we all know Harry's destiny involves Voldemort, whatever happens, and I accept that as much as Harry has to and will, eventually, I'm sure. But really, H/D's outcome completely revolves around Lucius and what happens with him, one way or another. Even doing nothing at all, Lucius has all this power and influence on them both, for good or for ill, and how likely is it that it's for good? *wibbles*