Mar. 11th, 2003

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so i was pondering doing the "what do your icons mean" meme, except mine are so obvious. *laughs* of course, i always think things are obvious, except well, they -are-. if it's anything that makes sense (to me), obviously it's obvious. yah.
    realized reading [livejournal.com profile] thessamunga's h/d drabble that really, i think too much. ahahaha, okay, that was obvious, but still. i always get surprised by the obvious (i mean, there it -is-, isn't it weird that-- well-- some things aren't all complex and subtle? or am i just being flippant?). is that just me? but in this case, it seems that with harry/draco, the more i think about it and analyze it and pick it apart, the less power it has. maybe that's just the deal with things dealing with emotion, or maybe that's the deal with things that are "impossible", that would take a lot of pre-conditions to work on some sort of rational level.

i mean, i've been kinda on a down-swing with h/d and potterfic in general, last few days. maybe i'm burnt out, or maybe i'm just thinking too much and trying to make it too meaningful. not that meaning is bad, but the original reason things -work- or -don't- work is simply a sort of visceral "yes" or "no" i can feel, in my gut, really. if you're going to analyze things, they have to be set up and proven and well-dressed, but if you let go of that, you could just be touched by the naked emotional impact of it. so while i could get disillusioned and bored with concepts for awhile, my passion remains.
    i find that when i read something i really enjoy, my primary response is simply, yes. yes, this is what i want, yes, yes, yes. i'm just -there-, and i don't even need a reason, because it all works and clicks in my head, and there are a million tiny reasons i can't pin down, i could never articulate them all. that's the error in saying "but that's never going to happen". because all that matters is whether it happens in your head, as you read. that's where any characters/stories really -happen-, anyway. and sometimes they're distant apparitions, and sometimes you can sort of fleetingly touch them, and sometimes they're like screaming and breathing and stomping around your head like they -own- the place. and when they kiss or fuck or scream you -feel- it, right there in your spine and in your -toes-, and that's when it's real and it doesn't -matter-, it doesn't matter if it makes sense or not, rationally. maybe that's just me though.
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anyway. i like the wip meme that's going around. i have plenty, and i thought maybe i could ask people's opinions on which i should prioritize or continue at all. because, as i said, there are a -lot-, and i pretend i'll finish them all one day (deluded, i am). all hp, mostly h/d, some original fic but i won't burden you with that.

    so here goes, not really in any order: )
    EDIT - lasair recced julad's highlander fic to me, and yes. yes. i adore it, yes. gah!! not a new fandom, dammit!!! *pouts*
    EDIT #2 - er. revised my snippets. longer. bigger. harder. more insecure ><;;
    and, lasair's misogynistic!hermione ficlet is a brilliant direction to go, if you want her darker, i think. wah. *enlightened*

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