~~inane plebey mutterings.

aja recced orphne's latest fic just now, and i can tell it's fluff, and i cannot bring myself to read it, honestly. naturally, i think this will pass, it will (and soon), but... having spent so much time debating canon!draconess with salazaar which all started from me making a questionable response to her h/d fic, `blue water' (which is, you know, really good, btw). but it's just weird. finding myself kind of... cringing, thinking of reading about cute-snarky-boy!draco (or harry) right now. sigh. it's not anyone -else-, it's me. i feel vaguely guilty for all my cuteosity. so... pink. so... overly sentimental. it makes me want to scream and write fic about disembowelment and paaaaain. except, you know, not. i mean, ok... not disembowelment. say... just... er... something unsentimental. something... really really er... not romantic. that's er... admirable, isn't it? sentimentality is for weak-minded house-wives, right? maybe that, or 13-year-old girls who've never had a date. i mean, ok, i -was- that way not -that- long ago, but..... *sigh*

i know it seems to make no sense that i'm a plebe if i'm all meta-obsessed, but what good is meta if you're a dork about it? if you use it for Evil, Not Good? if you use it to justify your pre-adolescent fixation on fairytale romance and Twue Wuv of the `princess bride' kind? guh.

oh, the angst i could have about fluff. oh the angst. and mind you, i don't want to read angstfic right now, either. no, i think i want something "serious", eheheh. "realistic". "canonical"?? hah.
    but, you take what you can get. namely, i was v. excited about a story idea (that i can't really -do-, but can imagine) last night. i even scribbled furiously about it in my school notepad, as the band played on. because yes, it's about harry, draco, hermione, and ron in a band, ahahahaha. just how lame is that?? but i loved it. you don't even have a clue how much i dug it. i -still- dig it. it's like the best idea ever, i swear. all claims that i'm not a plebe are hereby forfeit, but i don't -care-. damn, but i loved thinking of it being harry & draco up there, instead of the actual blond and dark-haired dude, by the mikes. it was... pretty heady. but anyway.
    ( if you want details..... ahaha, and -why- i don't know... )

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also, shakespearechic made me realize `the riddle' is a great h/d song, heh. it is! yum. *adds to collection*
    btw. the piece i'm most invested in writing right now (as always, of course, the last thing i'd written a sentence for), is a lucius/narcissa. oh, i'm so evil :D

and oh. all those of you who miss my not-so-brilliant sketches, i drew one of counting!draco for hoshistar's drabble~:)